I don’t want to be

Don’t wanna die don’t wanna live

Don’t wanna stay don’t wanna leave

Don’t wanna wake don’t wanna sleep

There’s nothing I want to do whole heartedly

This ***** tearing me in two

Pretty soon I’ll be split down the middle

And in my hands,


A knife or two.

One chance

I blew it

This I know

But to watch you give him two

This is pain I hope you never know

To see him hurt your more than once

I can’t watch

I wish I could say something

But I shall not

Not my place

Not my time

One day I’ll get the courage

I’ll tell you how stupid

But for now I’ll sit idly by

Watch him break your heart

Much like you broke mine

A homeless man smokes a cigar on the side walk

A smile on his face with no shame

Eyes glance with pitty
As they drive past with out a second thought.

People walk by pretending not to notice.

All the while missing the most important thing

He has everything we want,

without the one thing we have been taught is necessary to get it.

He can sleep while the stars watch

Wake up wherever he pleases

No one to impress

Though he is *****, in need of a wash up,

This man is happy

He has story’s to tell

All it takes is to stand and listen

Learn happiness from those who have truly found it

You closed the door so gently
so kindly and so softly
Yet the sound was deafening
I fear I may never hear again

10 steps is all it took
You were out of my sight
I was out of your mind
yet somehow you remain in mine

I see your face when I look at mine
Knowing you created my smiles
My tears
My pain
And my lies

All I want for you is happiness
And for yours I must sacrifice mine

Will the two ever coincide?

I’m jealous of the fact you live without me
not even a thought
I wish I could do the same
But I’m stuck with me

All I can change is my name

I’m tired
Sleep alludes me

I’m crying
My eyes are dry

I’m lonely
My friends are over

I’m in love
You don’t see me

I miss you
You don’t speak to me

Im leaving
You don’t listen to me

I’d tell you
You don’t care any ways

You don’t care anyways

I smoke so I don’t think
I think anyways

I want to hate you
I love you anyways

I stare with out control into your deep green eyes

All I seem to see is our fall, my demise

Yet I can’t tear mine from yours

The longer
The deeper I look

The more pure you become, as I search with out prevail

For a fault
       A fail
      
I guess this is how I’ll live now

In pain

In constant fear of never finding someone like you again.