Since your anger was enough to make you leave me on the spot
I should've known it wasn't worth it to you
And it shouldn't have been worth as much as it was to me.

"What's the point?"
I gotta find that answer.

I like to keep my words exact
Don't mouth off lousy "facts"
Thought you had my back
But you were only behind me for advantage
My mind has been so hard to manage
I don't wish to be like the others on this planet
The thing is I hate the past, the present, the future
The aspects of time puts my mind through infinite torture
My poor choices changes my architecture structure

Struck a nerve, pinned the needle
Imagination needs treatment, for his illness is mental
But I could not send him to the hospital
His *** is running at the speed of light
He should've skipped that and took off in flight
But, I don't need to be at those heights
If I was that high I'd probably hurl
Can't blame a girl for saving her curls
But in this water I will swirl
To the bottom to enjoy being so close to this world

Build me up to use me,
Tear me down to abuse me.

Please just save me from myself
I'll burn in hell before you care
Free me from this confinement of my mind
I'll scream until the end of time
Take me from this world of bore
And drag me through your words of lore
Take me from this monstrosity
And lead me to a place of tranquility

But most importantly,
Leave before I care too

Wonder why I'm here
Am I here again?
Why can't I leave,
Just like the wind?

“You know I will always love you, but I just have to make a change for myself."

Baby,
Sexually and intellectually we had that **** down
But emotionally, ***** we couldn't be found
At least we smarter for the next ones this time round

You should know that she's ruining you
I think she has already
You think I'm the one who's ruined
I am but at least I haven't changed
You've changed, you've changed a lot since you've met her
She left you and hurt you more than once
you still love her
She's cheated on you more than once
and you still love her
And you forgave her and took her back every time
I was your friend
I tried to help you
But you pushed me away
by ******* me off and using my weaknesses to hurt me
This is what has happened to you
you turned into a *****
And you said you saw why I tried to **** myself, but did you see why your girlfriend did too?

You told me you never wanted to lose me
But your actions said otherwise

*You said **** me in your worse way possible

When I'm gone you'll never know
You'll only feel what is in my soul

People love to break and torture each other for what they don't *have.

You tried your hardest, you really did
Too bad it was still soft as a flaccid ****

How come it takes so much effort to get something good
And none at all to get everything bad?

Every time I look at you
I die inside because of you
You did me wrong
The time is due
That I clean the gutters out with you
Clear my mind
Cleanse my soul
I'll throw you out like I should've years ago
Every time I looked at you
I died inside because of you

Surprise!
I was scared when they yelled at me
Smiling and holding a cake covered in candles near my face
Smiles among the faces I had met just the other year ago
Seems happy but it's just a dream
The faces I met the other year ago weren't as cheery or nice as this
Nor have they looked like this at all

And just like that the illusion is gone
You're no longer you
The dried up flower petal falls into the now dusty gloom
You remember all you have lost
And suddenly
The color drains from your skin, from your soul
And you become as grey, white, and black as the dust and ashes
Soon you also start disappearing
Soon the scenery becomes cold and weary
Soon settles in the snow that makes you freeze in this moment of time
This is depression deary

Use me
Use me
Use me
Life ain't nothing but abusing
But I'm seeing all my musings
I've regretted all my choosings
But I'mma learn from all my losings
And get better at what I'm choosing

I wonder if she regrets anything at all
I wonder what she regrets
Maybe I should ask
Unveil the things that are carved and masked
But at least she's alright now
On her ride away to Hell.

The real monsters can be rather close to you...
*Whispering in your ear to you...

•                                                            "He­aven is forever."
       "Then                                              "Hell is eternity."                                   •

I try so hard to explain my feelings to them
But they don't want to hear it
Or they cut me off before I can really explain it
And seeing as I am a very verbal person
It takes time for me to figure out what to say
No one has the time of day
They hardly care what I say
That's okay though
Even if it's why I've never felt important
I just gotta make my own importance

Some friends are for different seasons
Some friends stay for different reasons

For once, I need to be alive.
**** me and revive.
**** me and revive.
“Will reviving ever work?”
Rid the body, and never lurk

I am a rose
I grew from the toxic waste of society's wasteland
There are many of us,
Most of us are side effects of blue
Some of us are beautiful, and our petals easily bruise
No one ever sees us, we're translucent
We give the illusion of lightness around others so that there isn't more pain
I am a rose, withmutilated petals to attract someone to dig me up from this Wasteland
And nurture me in their home
Some have picked my petals to distract themselves
Shredding them and throwing them away,
Focusing their attention on me for only what they momentarily need
For every petal that's been plucked I have grieved over,
They are the parts of me that has long been gone
They were never buried, they decayed and withered into the ground
I've never dreamed
Never have I rested this **** soul
What's the point in opening myself if I have nothing to bloom for when the sun rises
Maybe someone who doesn't know what I am will pluck me by accident

That's all I'm good for anyway

As life goes by
I lose my mind.

The moment I explain to you how my mind's chasing my heart
And my heart is running the arctic of my soul you'll never get it
It's brilliant really
How I'm so non-resilient
And Darwin's theory has it's momentary achievements
This is the time to reinvent
So sorry I'd rather be beneath pavement

"She kisses me like she's trying to **** the life out of me. Who'd have thought those are the moments I feel most free."

If the love always feels the same
May it's your heart that's playing games

Don't knock it till you've walked it!

Have you ever felt like breaking down, pull your hair out and scream?
Have you ever almost fell apart at the seams?
Have you ever felt like clawing your eyes out so that you could no longer see that nightmare again?
Have you ever felt like crawling out of your skin so that when someone touches you you won't flashback to it again?
Have you ever ran away from love, cause you were scared to love and trust another again?
Have you ever felt like setting fire to your brain with alcohol and drugs just to numb the straining pain?
Have you ever broke your own heart by breaking someone else's heart too?
Have you ever sliced or burned your skin, or choked yourself to help your emotional and mental pain go away?
Have you ever regretted living just for everyone else?

Well, I have.
I have felt that way
I have ran away cause I was scared
I have wanted to
I have broken my heart by breaking someone else's
I have to everything I've asked

*And I always get the overwhelming feeling that no one feels the same
And that everyone has left me in the corner for me to fall upon the brink of insanity

She's got mommy issues
That is why she relies on another woman's love
*That is why I do too

The uneven-ness of my femur bones
Hurts further than bone deep.

People are never satisfied
Not with themselves
So they can't be with others.

Cheap actions
Causes high cost in consequences.

Sunlight kisses
Petals bleeding hue
These are my thoughts
I can never be without you
My train keeps on rolling
But it has no definite track
There's no destination that I ever knew of
With the parts it lacks
It's not safe to board
It's not safe to move an inch, for fear of it breaking down
It's okay to laugh
I'm a sad clown
I can take the pain
I've had it all my life
I just have to stay sane
And try not to lash out from strife
Maybe baby
I'll sing a lyric
Maybe baby
I'll sing you to sleep
Is there anything else you want
Is there anything else you need
Just tell me
Whisper it heavily and sweetly
You can take me
You can tame me
Believe me, I'll enjoy it ever so slowly
You can take every inch of my body between your teeth
You can invade every aspect of my mind
You can steal my heart when the door is open
You can devour every part of me
I really want you to

Spring
            Mother dresses herself
    Fall
  Mother starts to reveal herself
*Winter
       Mother is naked, and maybe puts on a white robe
               Summer
   Mother is showing off her hot ***

It's so funny how unfunny **** is.

Love

What can I say when I've only set these words to ink for you?
What can I sing when I only use this voice for you?
Why do you play my body like music using my heart for strings?
Why do you dry my ink by blowing on it gently?
What can I do to prove I'm yours?
What can you do to prove you're mine?
Kiss me
Kiss me in front of everyone and I'll share every bit of my soul that I can to you while you share yours with me
What can I play to show you how I feel?
What can I say to describe how I feel for you?
I do and don't know what to say or do
*Not when I'm around you

If I am wrong you may punish me now
If I am right may you be flooded with doubt.

You're too needy,
I am too
I'm just ******* the life on of you
*None has a clue

Love them and leave them.

You hate yourself
You let it woe.

What could have been
Would never happen
I smile at day dreams
While the sky keeps laughing blue

I wish I could change the way I think
But I can't!
I can't when it's the only thing I know