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Broken Arpeggio Jul 2017
Unknown memories
Keep invading my mind
A buried time capsule
With an arsenal decimated by time

Wrestling with the muddled thinking
Accompanied by a paralyzing fear
Happens when undeniable flashbacks
Become all too uncomfortably clear

A pain ignites and starts to dig
Burning all the way to my core
Breathing only fans the flames
Incinerating all I've ever adored

Sifting through the ashes
Of a war that's raged within
Still finding untarnished pieces of self
Longing to be whole again
There's an untarnished piece of "true self" deep within us all...One just needs to look for that unwavering spark!
Broken Arpeggio Jul 2017
A complete state of well-being
Is something we all hope to achieve
Though my mind constantly questions
If it's nothing more than an idealistic belief

What is truly well
What definitively is not
How does one get better
When the mind intentionally forgot

Will I ever find what I'm searching for
Will I set my demons free
Can I allow my will to loosen its grip
Just enough to find inner peace

Somewhere there must be a blueprint
Stamped upon my soul
The mind and body connection
That can one day make me whole

For now, I ponder the questions
Cause answers I have none
Yet staying true to my intent
Of finishing the journey begun
Steps forward are simply that...The size of the step doesn't matter, the forward movement does!
Broken Arpeggio Jul 2017
I am dangerous...

It's haunting
This hold I have over you
You become so weary and weak
My grip tightens
And everything slowly fades away
Until you can hardly breathe

You mustn't ever speak of me
So they will never know
Exactly what I'll do to you
And the shame that starts to grow

My deceitful assurances comfort you
They entice to draw you near
My promise is I will hurt you
And prey on all your fears

The only guarantees I have
Is that my promise is a lie
You cannot take the beating I'll give
No way that you'll survive

No matter what you say or do
You know how this will end
So consider turning away right now
Your last chance before we begin

I am dangerous for you...
It's haunting how an ED vows to conquer every aspect of one's life until rational thoughts no longer exist!
Broken Arpeggio Jul 2017
Please unsee me
For I cannot take the glare
Nor the crippling affliction
Of unwanted stares

Transparency remains elusive
And is a most formidable foe
Whereas invisibility is ever enticing
That old friend I've come to know

Please unsee me
I do not shine in the brisk light
But take comfort in the shadows
Offered up by the solemn night

Finding bright amongst the dark
Gives power to one's dreams
Though I wonder, through enlightenment,
Can I still remain unseen
An open mind can illuminate the darkest of corners...

— The End —