A cry for attention.
You don't want it.
You want their help.
But no one helps.
They will never care.
Because you are weak.
They can't fix you.
Too many shattered pieces.
An old broken reflection.
Not feeling yourself anymore.
And how could you?
Pieces are still missing

Your parents don't get why you blare the music so loud. They don't understand that you're trying to block out their sounds. Their useless words from their mouths won't help them now. Let's walk through the day in your shoes. Wake up and wish you didn't. You look around and feel the skin you barely fit in. Your step-mother calls you down but you already know what you're getting. She'll talk to you like you were less then throw a fit when you tell her you're not listening. But why should you when it's not even her house you live in. Now you're in the bus waiting for your hell to get in. It's hard to survive the ride. You barely get by, when you get to your school and waste another six hours of life. In class and all you can think is "stop the tapping!" or these ******* lights shine to **** bright. Detention after school, but you don't care tonight. These bus ride parasites don't care and are only seeing through their blind *** eyes. They can't even read your heart with their ******* crippled eyesight. You get home and all you can hear is the sound of your parents fight. Not again when mom's wrong and dad's right. Seems backwards until mom leaves again that night. You go upstairs with the same frown you wore all day, with only one thought in your head. "How selfish of me, to want to be dead." Because you are sick of these constant repeats and the daily life circle. You just want to escape the cage of it all, but if you can't then you will continue to hurt 'till.....

Exponentially we are all but one.
But separately we are all for one.
Morbidly we are one without all.
But spiritually we are one in all.

Okay, you started this. I'll open up. I guess I'll get first move.

I'll move my pawn to G-4 and you'll counter with a horse. Face to face they'll battle until what's mine is finally yours. Pawn from F-2 to F-3, now there's no way your knight is getting past me. Next you take my queen, and I go from a king to a man. It's like comparing *Kings to Castles. Which has a better move span? Not like movement, but in strategy. Now see, you're like a white knight and I'm a black castle. I'm a pawn who got strong so he wouldn't have to take **** from *******. The world doesn't revolve around, this is a life that can work without you and I can make it all happen if you put me in the wrong mood. I'm more powerful than you could fully comprehend. You can threaten me and show off all you want, we know how this'll end. Try not to copy me, and do or say the exact same thing. I'll get my queen back, before my pawn takes your king.

I don’t think I can explain my thoughts in this little amount of time. I’m so sick of giving my time to give a piece of my mind to these people who don’t even read between the lines. I mean, I’m not a boy who writes the same old ****. Every single day I write about a new topic, and now my candles lit and I’m about to light this wick on my brain like a dynamite stick. Today, you’ll be another outlet for me to vent *******. This’ll be as straight forward as it gets. *******. That’s it.

Killers can be spotted by how many hearts they broke. Thought it but never should've spoke. I'm a writer with his words stick in his throat. Speak with the pencil. Pencil that writes pain and the pencil stuck in my spoke. Bite your tongue since I can't speak with mine. I don't want to again say goodbye. I've had to say it one too many times. But what happens when I lose what I covet so much. Give you all I got, and still it ain't enough. I can't find the words to say to you. But you'll know when I do.

I wrote all of these little words for you but without them I don't know what I'd do. I refuse to again lose you, because now I'm losing these too and I'm so afraid of what's next.

I'm like the ocean and babe
you're like my sky
I promised I wouldn't be just another guy
Honey, remember I am always here for you
And when you feel down
we can both be blue.

What if we traded places? Keep the same feelings and kept the same faces. If I'm the sky, be my perfect blue. Because even with all my clouds they'll still think of you. At night be my shining stars. People around the world will find beauty in you miles apart.

Babe if I'm the sky please be my ocean blue; an infinite amount of perfection, an arrow in the right direction; I just wouldn't be me without you.

I'm like the ocean and babe
you're like my sky
I promised I wouldn't be just another guy
Honey, remember I am always here for you
And when you feel down
we can both be blue.

I hid my misery in apathy when actually you would never understand what it truly meant to me. This agony is atrophy and it's atrocious how anxiously you wait to push me off the balcony. I'll call that anxiety. You'll wait till I'm feeling better and laugh at me then rapidly and happily you calumny push me off the mountain peek, but my vitality has helped me survive this fatality. Then you have the audacity to think that I will accept an apology from the very first person I trusted with every part of me when you were the first person to question my loyalty? **** that, that's insanity if you think you can walk away from me and come back so casually and the way you broke my heart is a catastrophe, and when they see the damage they'll call it brutality. I'll tell you so even you will see. In all honesty, I couldn't see a better reality than one without you and me.

The wall you built closes in all around you. Time to finally see what the world is without you. Your parents are out and your brother's asleep. You text all your friends and say goodbye to each. You think of all the pain you've been through. It's unfair to make them stay alive when you don't want to. Grab your bottles, your knives, your rope and lock your door. Pick one of these ways and make your life no more.

A human only means as much as their monetary value.

A complete and total misconception. Misconceived with another misdirection. You may misunderstand of who he is, but on the other hand, you never really knew him as a man. He was the brain behind the voice. The thought of every choice. The sound of every noise. Just because he wasn't the face of every lie, doesn't mean he wasn't there every time.

Let's cut down a weeping willow
Plant it's roots beneath your pillow
Sleep over sadness
Too much leads to sickness
In turn introduces anger
And broken dishes
I won't stand by and be a witness
I am not worthless
I'm more than the words I'm hit with
And no less than my definition of perfect
I won't be bullied
You've hurt me
Shards of glass lay scattered
I guess peace of mind doesn't matter.
Because bronze beats brains
Even if it's mind over matter

So how long has it been since it's stopped? Since I've been disgusted by rain drops? It's almost as if we all stopped breathing, and for a second teenagers stopped breading. It's almost as if we all stopped screaming and for a while we all stopped cheating. So how long will this go on before we start needing this ever lasting feeling of real things? No, the world isn't perfect, but you need to give it a chance, so don't stop caring or it'll be out of your hands.

So how long has it been since I've stopped fighting? Since I've been distraught from my writings? It's almost as if the world stopped turning, and for a second we all stopped hurting. It's almost as if adults were finally taught the lessons we've been learning, and for a minute our hearts stopped yearning. But is it plausible? That maybe the world isn't as colossal as the fossils and we just turned the impossible to possible?

*Only if you put your mind to it

It's like
as we grow
older
we lose the
unicity and uniqueness
that made us
who we claim to
be
Like drowning
in water
we die from the
thing that keeps us
*Alive.

You wanted it so bad? The truth? How deserving are you as a liar?

I love these people beside me. They don't look past me. They care about me and don't hate me for laughing. They ask me why I'm crying and they know when I'm lying and they'll laugh with me even though they see my smile is dying. Even though I'm alone at these tables, all of no one.  I'll spin another fable just to remain numb. You see, I watch, I learn and I listen. I hated seeing all these cut wrists and so I stopped everything, and quit *******. I was alone for a while. I guess I wasn't fit for the dog-pile. I wasn't smart enough for the nerd **** and I wasn't cute enough for the cool kids. I learned to fight for your life. It was do or die. I was living outside and dying inside. A constant fight for myself. Now I'm back there; stuck in my hell. Everyone's got it worse than me. So why do I get to complain?  Because everyone is impacted differently, in different ways. I shouldn't at all really, but no one could punish me more than me. So just hug me tight and tell me it'll be alright. At least for tonight.

I don't want you to be another pretty face, that's stuck, in time. You told me it was such of waste; Your hand, in mine. You told me of your past, and all, your lies. You told me all the times, that you, had tried.

I'll tell you right now, that I don't care what you're gonna go through. You'll never be alone. I'll tell you right now, I'll go through it all with you. My arms, are home.
Either I die for you, or together we fall.

I don't want you to be another untold story. I'll tell, you mine. You told me that you were such a waste, of, my time. You told me how no one had ever tried, to be, your friend. I'm here to tell you that I'll be here, until, the end.

I'll tell you right now, that I don't care what you're gonna go through. You'll never be alone. I'll tell you right now, I'll go through it all with you. My arms, are home.
Either I die for you, or together we fall.

Suddenly a smile washes over your face. I can't help but think. I think your beautiful. Even the scars on your skin.

I'll tell you right now, that I don't care what you're gonna go through. You'll never be alone. I'll tell you right now, I'll go through it all with you. My arms, are home.
Either I die for you, or together we fall.
Together tonight.
Together tomorrow.
You'll never have to be alone in this sorrow.
Together we fall.

One last shudder. My final words were stuttered. Not worth the final energy I had to muster to mutter these useless sounds. A silent cry from deep inside. A free-for-all for the blind. It's all a lie and I searched my heart and I found.
Just let me go. It's my time. My finale comes when I say my final line. I accept these words as useless and feel like I can't compete. Most times these words are fruitless so I won't speak at all.

People are like flowers
                  We wilt.
                            And then we die.

I swear this world is an illusion
So mundane; it feels diluted
I know that I’m delusional
But I'd rather feel more than just the usual
I’d rather fall down the rabbit hole with you
I used to think that I was a boat, and you were the sea
I’m only good for you while
You’re still beautiful without me

I swear I'll change it
I’ll weave a different fate
This isn’t just another reiteration

We’re running out of time
Our clock begins to tick by
Scream all you want
You won't fix this flawed design
We’re running out of time
You can't stop this clock
Scream all you want
It's flaws will never be a fault of mine

Interesting the life you made me
And oh, the confidence you gave me
But the sea is rising
And I think I’m drowning
Our worlds are changing
And for some reason
The walls are caving
Neither of us can breathe

I swear I will change it
I’ll weave a different fate
This isn’t just another reiteration

I’m running out of time
I’m going insane
Scream all you want
You can't fix this flawed design
I'm out of patience
I'll leave you my name
Scream all you want
You'll never find out where those perfect days went

This will never be a better place
Shadows fall on those who shine brightest
So I’ll look you in your face
“I won’t miss you in the slightest”

You’re running out of time
This world isn’t the same
Scream ‘till your lungs give
You won’t fix this flawed design
You’re all out of time
It’s better of this way
Scream all you want
Your flaws will never be a fault of mine

Sometimes when I'm alone
I dream that I'm at home
And maybe one day I'll find where I belong
If my thoughts start to scream
I'll show you just what they mean
With scars amongst me, I know where I went wrong

I'm just not sure how to fix myself. I'm a broken mirror trapped in myself. I'm don't know that I can make it. It's fight or die; make or break it. If you could help me forget you, I'll help you forget me too.

I'll show you just who I am
What truly makes a man
Not just another pathetic human being
You make me think I'm broken
But you make me think that I'm useless
So how can you claim you cared at all for me

I'm just not sure how to fix myself. I'm a broken mirror trapped in myself. I'm don't know that I can make it. It's fight or die; make or break it. If you could help me forget you, I'll help you forget me too.

You don't deserve to live another day.
You don't deserve to see me again.
Never.

I'm just not sure how to fix myself. I'm a broken mirror trapped in myself. I'm don't know that I can make it. It's fight or die; make or break it. If you could help me forget you, I'll help you forget me too.

I'm about to explode on someone close to me. I'm about to be as good to you as you were to me. I'm so close to an disastrous end. My sword is a pen and I'm about to slay a dragon and fend off my demons and knowing me I'll fight 'till the end because I can't stand to give up or give in no matter if this is a fighting I will be winning. Get it? I won't stay another night inside my head because I'm so sick of feeling like my body is made of lead. I just sink deeper into this depressive state like a rock to water. No matter what I feel like I know that someone has it harder. Like some father who's worried a boy'll knock-up his daughter. I'm sorry that you can't handle what your friends think of me, so you'd rather be a martyr to a cause that isn't even worth the cost you'll pay. I know the games you'll play. Watch. She'll ignore you and you'll act sad so she'll feel bad and look at that, you got her attention back. You'll memorize all the little bad things they do. Even if it's an accident and no one cares, except for you. I'll watch from the sideline as you continue to hurt them. You'll eventually run out of pawns for your sick game of *******. We all know this nice act of yours is just a diversion. I don't know how they keep falling for your story. It's like Marley and me; the **** version. So when you're done and finally end up alone, I won't be lonely. I'll sit at home with my wife, Trinity, Jacob and Jamie.

Forever frozen in this space in time. What god given right let's you take away mine? You're not my creator, nor are you my savior. So what the hell do you think causes all my anger?

You're no better than me, and I know that you'll remember. My name will be as cold as mid-December. You'll get frost bite on your breath, you'll see the beauty in your death, you'll fear the sunlight like I do, and see horror in finesse.

I'm so sick of honesty
I just want to lie here and be me
Cause the only thing I want to be
Is the thing that makes me happy
And I know that I can't be that thing
But, hell I'll keep trying
This isn't my last scene
I've got another act to go
But you're saying cut and I listen
As I’m about to, you yell no
Like which one is it?
Am I doing what’s right or what isn’t?
What I want or what you’ve written?
Well too late, what’s done is done
But you’re yelling at me for things I’ve not done
I'm a dead-shot with my words
But yours shot me dead you see
Cause I'm not missing you
And you're not missing me

Let’s pick up where we left off. With one intact and one broken heart. Where he picked you up, and then dropped you off. But I don’t think you understand, just what I have lost. Don’t expect to get helping hand if you guess wrong. I just wanted somewhere where we would all get along, and you just wanted somewhere where you belonged. I must have made you strong. Because now you expected something a little more. I trusted you so much, I ripped the door of my mind from it’s hinges. And I left it open so you could get in it. But it’s none of your business to worry about how much time I got, who I spend it with. But if you wanna start a civil war over something stupid, good luck with that. I just wish you’d see what I stand. I’m only human, but once I start yelling get the **** back. I’m sorry. I couldn’t say it anymore sincere. Just give me space. Back the **** up and get out of my face. I warned you not to get close to me-I’m a walking ****** case. You don’t wanna be friends? Fine, it’s about time I cut my loose ends. But what ***** is that since then, for months on end, you’re all I could think about. But just when I thought you were gone, you came back and I wrote you this song.

You’re my ghost, someone that I can’t see.
I’ll pretend, that way we won’t speak.
I only want you to be happy.
So why can’t you help me move on?
Because I’m running out of choices
I’m grasping at straws

I could think of any better day, then when we just slept and didn’t have a single word to say. The smile I wrote on your face was just the beginning. And every time you saw your beautiful face, it was just the best thing. And even at six in the morning I can’t help think of words I never got to say. I’m sorry for everything that I said. I’m just a little messed up in my head. I can’t stand these empty lies anymore. I’ve got to tell the truth before I walk out the door. I’ve had it with doing what we must. Because we all know that it causes us to combust. You say it’s for the best, of the rest. But what about me? We’ve come too far, dealt with to much, fell too far in love, to let you just, self destruct. That night, I had enough. I couldn’t understand why you loved-, someone you never met. I wanted to be the reason you were alive, not someone who’s music you listen to when you were upset. I I understand now, how he kept you alive. But I regret it all now I know better than to talk to you now though, because what good would it get? But every day that passes by, I’m losing myself bit-by-bit. I wish that I could rewind just a little while, to change my past ways and erase this sorrow. Because I love you more than than these last days and less than I will tomorrow. Don’t worry, I’m not blaming you. I know it was my fault. I just don’t know what to do about the abuse I give myself. Well, I guess this is the last thing I can do, because…

You’re my ghost, someone that I can’t see.
I’ll pretend, that way we won’t speak.
I only want you to be happy.
So why can’t you help me move on?
Because I’m running out of choices
I’m grasping at straws

I was just a lucky boy I guess, I finally found the one. I was just another guest in this house that she made for one.

I know you don’t want to speak. But that’s what’s killing me. I miss the soft tone of your voice. I refuse to move on from you and I don’t know why. Because I just want to talk to you forever and ever. And never hear again, the words, Good-…..

You’re my ghost, someone that I can’t see.
I’ll pretend, that way we won’t speak.
I only want you to be happy.
So why can’t you help me move on?
Because I’m running out of choices
I’m grasping at straws
Grasping at straws
Grasping at straws
Grasping at straws

No one gets by without a scratch. No one survives a backstab. They leave scars that last. Kiss away my pain. That’s enough to drive a man mad, and tonight as you scream my name, our problems’ll fade away. For now.

Empty lies from a siren. “It’s alright” as I lay smiling. The only truth is behind the violence. It’s killing us both, or so I thought. “**** me now”, and you say with a  grin, “I’d rather not.”

I write stories and forget them instantly. Erase them please; “memories” I say peacefully and painfully they’re washed away, but never completely. It’s beyond me how I keep making the same mistake.

Empty lies from a siren. “It’s alright” as I lay crying. The only truth is behind the violence. It’s killing us both, or so I thought. “**** me now”, and you say with a  grin, “I’d rather not.”

If I start to believe, that it’d ever change. It’ll be the death of me, a little too late.

Empty lies from a siren. “It’s alright” as I lay dying. The only truth is behind the violence. It’s killing us both, or so I thought. “**** me now”, and you say with a  grin, “I’d rather not.”

If you're listening
the way you say you are
why haven't you heard
me calling out your name
like a wolf calls out to the moon?

I walked upon broken glass to prove myself to thee, cause if I can’t then who the **** would wanna believe? Someone as young as me. Someone as dumb as me. You tried to show me who to be. I shattered the mirror and told him he’s what I didn’t need. I got you down on both knees, you're begging me please. I shouted out I’m hungry. Lets feast. Let go of the beast and I let him eat. I’ll separate your bones from the meat. The hearts from the weak. Now you’ve planted a seed in me, and it exceeds all I thought I could handle of misery. It just keeps growing as it consumes me. And if you didn’t see it takes a keen eye to see, and I'll get hurt again as long as I continue to breathe. But my eyes as bright as the stars I see. But who else but me could see the emptiness between. I still got some fight left, but I’ll go down eventually. Softly I'll say as I fall asleep, “I’d do it all again, just you wait and see."

I still go back and fix my old writings. Keep it tidy and sing my own words so mighty. I allow myself to think it's still a battle worth fighting. Fooled by the faulty lighting and it's frightening to see his grip around you tightening and me just sitting there whining. Still stuck in here minding my own, waiting for someone to reap the what you've sewn. I sit alone on my cell phone in my room waiting for you to come home, but of course I'm trapped like a mouse when I see you. Amazed. Star gaze looking at you. My mind is out of ink so I'll write it on a blank page. Put the fire down while my heart burns for you; Set a blaze. Don't put me out and I won't let you down. Not until you put me six feet under ground. It's hard to imagine that I could be okay, when you say, "Today, I met a boy. I hope this one stays." Yeah until you throw him away like an old toy; Broken. Well let me tell you something, he's broken now and tired of running. I'll walk and when your castle comes crumbling down, you can come back with that beautiful frown and talk to my chalk. Oh my, oh my, It's true. Even after I die, **** right I'll still miss you. But the difference is I'll be free of this torture. I'll have peace and you'll finally be rid of me.

You can survive. You don't have to die. You just gotta believe in yourself to avoid your timely demise. Because what you're feeling can't be helped. I know you wouldn't wish it upon anybody else, but that's life. Yeah that's life.

One of these days when you sleep I'll admit that I am weak
But I know that I'll be alright, so just let me live my life
Because even through this unhappiness, I'll be okay
Yeah, I'll be okay.

You know that I'm right. You can pretend all like. Even if it isn't happening to you, doesn't mean I'm out of sight, and out of mind. When it finally comes around, I will be the only one to make a sound, but that's life. Yeah that's life.

"I'm the only one who gives a **** about you."
LIAR

One of these days when you sleep I'll admit that I am weak
But I know that I'll be alright, so just let me live my life
Because even through this unhappiness, I'll be okay
Yeah, I'll be okay.

Even if tonight I can't sleep.
I know you're a wreck without me.
You pushed me away.
It's your fault.

One of these days when you sleep I'll admit that I am weak
But I know that I'll be alright, so just let me live my life
Because even through this unhappiness, I'll be okay
Yeah, I'll be okay.

Like a body in water I float and I drown. Like worms to the earth I keep going down. Like a deer in my headlights I stop and I freeze, but just like that, you snap, and I'm back and I fall to my knees.
Falling like snow we melt on the ground. Crying and dying without a sound. I'll disappear and you'll never know. I'm a king and I'll be fine on my own.

Take my breath from me
Take it all and then leave me
I'll let you do all that you want to me
But don't pretend that It's happy
It's not okay, thanks for asking though
It's hard to say you sir are an *******
But it's just me, and I'm nothing special

So I'm sorry your betrayal isn't enough
I'm sorry your fairy tale was
But mostly I'm sorry that I let you

It's okay, I don't even look anymore
It's okay, I won't even speak again
Since I can't replace what you took
Well, I shouldn't even be writing this then
Should I?
No, even you can't control me
But since you know me, you know I'll let you

So I'm sorry I wasn't perfect growing up
I'm sorry that you got everything you want
But mostly I'm sorry I let you

Now, I know it's nothing I could help
But deep down I told myself
that when you finally break down
I will be the only one who isn't around
It's kind of sad to think about
Do you deserve it?
Of course you do for all the people that you've been hurting
me included
But it wouldn't make me any better than you
would it?
No, I would be worse than
I would be cursed then
when I finally found something good I would lose them
because then I would deserve it
So right here, I'm ending this endless cycle
I'll tell you what I'll do
I'll forget you as soon as I forgive you
Because I know that you love him
And I'm only sorry I let you

Oooooh

Don't be sorry, I did it to me
Blades could only reach my skin deep
But only some can get through
And I'm sorry I let you