i've made myself sick
my stomach turns in knots
i haven't eaten...
in a long time
and i just keep pouring
more and more chemicals
down my raw throat
because maybe one
will make the demons
SHUT UP
for a moment

I can’t tell
If I’m just depressed
For not having eaten
In twenty-two hours
Or if because I’m depressed
I don’t care to eat...

I want to write about love
To tell you the story
Of my first kiss
My first heartbreak
But I can’t
Because something about me
Everything about me
Repels relationships
With unrivaled intensity
I’ve always been alone

Interesting
A little flower
Dried and flakey
Contained in a pouch
Plopped into water
And that’s it
That seemed to do the trick
Maybe all I needed
Was a nice cup of tea

do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it
do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it


Do I Do I Do I Do I Do I Do I
Do I Do I Do I Do I Do I Do I
Do I Do I Do I Do I Do I Do I                                       Do I Do I Do I

Do I Do I Do I Do I Do I Do I

tell me

Do I deserve anything

No
No
No
No
No
No
No
No
No
No

I don't