Was it necessary?

To call me in the middle of the day

To remind me what could’ve been if i stayed

To tell  me all the lies before we parted

To make me realize none if it was okay

It’s safe to assume that life would never go in your favor
And the years you’ve struggled seem to last forever
But on nights like tonight,
Where the moon and the stars shine the brightest
You stop, and for a minute, amidst the chaos and pain
Amongst the darkness and cold
You feel at peace, almost as if preparing yourself for what's to come.
And that minute is all you need,
A minute to breathe and take in the sights
The beauty of chaos and darkness,
The beauty of your story and your fight.

Life without the stains turn one pristine
yet I’d rather the comfort of dirt
than the blankness of clean
***** and stained it may be,
it has given me great memories.
Memories that may soon turn to ashes
as I burn the bridges and every
opportunity to your memory

Can we go back?
To the butterflies and shy touches
To the drunk nights and soft kisses
To when you looked at me with stars
Instead of the darkness that clouds your eyes

Can we?
I wanna go back and feel the warmth of your hand in mine
while we walk in the cold of july
When you held me close and smiled

Now all that's left is the memory of bliss
As your distance grows while seated beside me
Laughter turns to uncomfortable silence that slowly engulfs my memory

You were gone before I knew it,
but can we?
Go back to the past
where I know you loved me.