I sit down and wonder
Of when my poems will not be of dismay
But of laughter and relief
Of joy and and uncontrollable bliss
Of charisma and positivity
Of hope and reliability.
Life is a feeling in itself
Full of perception I've invent
My thoughts and imagination
A clear reflection
Of a society I've have beget.
I can never really tell when the earth was formed
Or the number of people who've been here before
Centuries after centuries,
Societies have been cloned
With millions of generations
Getting to be born
So if change is inevitable,
Why I'm i still stuck
Stuck in the ways of the past
Clinging on to these memories
I've always despised?

Akwana Wa Odera
@therealakwana
© 2019

They made an underbid
When they said love don't cost a thing
Through thick and thin
My love life has been one best explained
With a grin
With hidden fears
Hoping for a shoulder to lean
I've never been anything close to perfect
But always tried to turn out the best
Among these other trying gents.
I practice to be true
So i never get to pretend
But seriously my true self
Is one you can never get to comprehend.
The thoughts in my head...
The fears, the jitters I've felt
The pains, the regrets
I fear might be the sole reason
If from my path i ever deflect.
So yes i believe I'm a misfit
But loving you has always been
My wish list
Despite my many imperfections
You are my new innovation
A new found escape
Every time my thoughts reset
You are my bliss
As i get stuck in oblivion
You are my fill
Quenching a thirst
I've always wanted to relieve
Be my fate
And I'll live up to thee
Because you my friend
Are the reason
I'm no longer struggling be!

Akwana Wa Odera
@therealakwana
© 2019

Twists and turns
Life shifts and stuns
Memories we once created
We evade and shun
Heart breaks
Headaches
Bae I'm sorry we reached this side
If only there was an anti clockwise turn
I'll ease your pain
Give you happiness in return
I'm sorry your feelings i hurt
Gave you a reason for you to despise
All the lies
For a while
Felt like by you i was doing right
The tears in your eyes
The anger in your replies
How could i not see how deep you were deprived
I'm sorry that i wasn't enough
All i need is another chance
To prove to you
That I'm the suitable guy
To call your better half
I'll promise to do you right
And with you we'll make solid plans
And fascinating memories
That would surely last
For a life time to come
I'm truly sorry baby girl

Akwana Wa Odera
@therealakwana
© 2019

I'm told its written in the man up stair's book
A camel could pass through a needle hole
But not a rich man to seeing heaven...
But how many are believed to have entered
If not more than seven?
I wonder if it's true with the souls
The good die young I'm told
Do they?
Or they're captured and put on hold
What's your say?
Or you think this is play?
I'll paraphrase.
How many times have you got all you wanted with less pain?
How many times have you discarded something just because it stained?
Or left your room with the bed neatly laid?
Maybe I'll give you a pass on laid and bed
I'm a character performing live in that show
On the first sunlight
For crying out loud,
Why do we applaud
When its our rights they try to fraud?
And prevent ourselves when they start acquiring fame
The swahili have a saying,
If you want to bend a tree stem
Do it whilst it's still wet...
Or is it fish...?
I think I'm messed.!

Akwana Wa Odera
@therealakwana
© 2018