lithium - Hello Poetry

lithium

21/F/Italy "we mothers stand still, so our daughters can look back to see how far they've come"

hope felt face bed remember men fck doll count spent day real focus thought worth kind grin arousing sit wrong sleep today woke played animal crossing ate ice cream binged microwaved salt water stupid calling binge small binges shallow cuts feel stuffing three cereal bars speed light storing sharp objects panic button wishing prettier disorder called whre crawling impossible challenge forgiving people suspected adhd hurt hug mania word handing ritalin paranoid poisoned written box smiley fcked spat minutes scratched bad girl notice treating cry help edge days missing bedroom cocoon lived inside years unlovable standards controlling neurotypicals life close dreams step ambitions death feels going grocery shopping exiting store knowing checked boxes list grandma safe passed heaven hymn grows convince danger mixed blonde ballad noise sweat feeling hands pressing neck wakes strapped hospital pushed forbidden oblivion punched asked forgiveness acting big lay scrubs floor wanted enjoying wake blood nails unzip