What kind of crazy loyalty
Does my boyfriend have?
It just struck me yesterday
How loyal he must be.

To wait three months
For the girl who made you wait,
Though it was her fault?
That's loyalty.

Five A.M.
I wake up gasping
Crying, Shaking
nightmares

You
I was talking to you
For the first time in a while
nightmares

That wasn't so bad
But then you told me
You hated me
nightmares

No, no.
I couldn't take that
I woke up sobbing
nightmares

Five thirty A.M.
Writing this down
So maybe, I won't have more
nightmares?

To bring us together,
But that has to stop.
We can't wait
Until people have died
To unite
Please, join me
If you find a poem
Saying the person will commit suicide,
Try and help
For Andy
(Even though he's not dead)

I got to 40,000 words in this month
And I may finish NaNoWriMo
I may win
I think that
For once in my life
I've earned the right
To be proud
Of myself.

Long distance
1500 miles
44 days to walk
Who cares?

If you love me
As I love you
We're not apart
Despite the the miles

We are together
Together at heart
Distance matters to minds
But hearts don't care

We fell in love
Long distance
We'll stay in love
Long distance

Our hearts are together
Though we're far apart
Though we fell in love
Long distance

Why do I think of the best poem ideas
When I can't write them down?

You can't keep Storms
and Stars apart.
They're inseparable,
joined together.

You always have both,
you can't have just one.
Bound together,
sealed forever.

The bond they have
can never break.
With Storms there are Stars,
with Stars there are Storms.

There's always both,
two, not one.
Never alone,
for they have each other.

You can't keep Storms
and Stars apart.
Whatever it takes,
they'll be together.

Storms and Stars are always together.

Andy
Let me just tell you
That I...
I love you.
You're my best friend
I'd never want more
Then that.
You made me smile
For weeks we would talk and laugh and I would nearly get in trouble in math class just to see what you had to say.
You're honestly one of the best friends I could hope for, you showed me purpose when I believed there wasn't any
You don't know how my face and heart would light up when you replied to me
And though we haven't talked in a while I miss you
I'd get a plane ticket out to you and help you accomplish your dreams if I could
Remember when you said we could go live in Seattle and hire an actress to go to gym for me?
Remember?
And we could go to Kansas and you could teleport to get me?
Andy, please...
I know you have no control over it
Three weeks to live...
You deserve three eternities
I'd give them to you if I could
But I can't
No one can
Though I know we all would.
So live your life to the fullest
Use those three weeks to the max,
And never, never give up dear Andy
Fight for us
Fight for me
But don't give in
You
Don't
Have
To
Die,
But
Even
If
You
Do
You
Will
Live
On.

Daniel, you are
My perfect boyfriend.
You listen well
And play guitar
You let me rant
And never ignore me
You talk to me
Before anyone else
You laugh at
My dumb jokes
You tell me my poetry
Is the best in the world
You make me feel
Beautiful
You come back to me
Even though I was the one
Who got you in trouble
And forced you to leave
You never forget
A special event
Or anniversary.
You give me
The most thoughtful gifts
You love me
And even though we're
1,608 miles apart
You fell in love
With me.

Any advice on how to tell them so they'll freak out less?

Or should I not?

I need you
I want you with me
now and forever
to be by my side

We have a chance
it might work
We might see each other
as we’ve always dreamed.

I can’t imagine
I’d love it so much.
I want it to happen
I hope it will

If it does
If I see you there
wherever it is
it’s home.

And despite all the longing
despite all the pain
If I see you I’ll be complete
If our eyes meet, I’ll be home.

If I’m with you, I’ll be home.

Who says we can't have
A long distance love story?
Who says the miles
Will change the plot?

We're still in love
Though far apart
We still care
Despite the length

We shouldn't be in love
Shouldn't but are
So why can't we
Have a love story?

If Our love story exists
We're living it
So why can't we find
The happy ending?

What's our love story without a happy ending?

I have no doubt you're in heaven right now. if prayers can help a soul that was already unscarred I alone would have already saved your soul forget about everyone else. So if you read this from heaven, I love you. You deserve this buddy. I'm glad you finally were able to fly without the limitations of our earthly forms. I may do one final person with wings, just for you, because all the beautiful colors yours would be amaze me just the way your soul and poetry did. I'll save it and frame it because I never want to forget you. And I will move on because you wouldn't want me to waste my time crying over you, but I will also have some days where I just curl up and cry because you are my best friend and I lost you to the void of death no one living can breach. Honestly though I would never erase a moment of talking to you. I  would do this all again in a heart beat oh Andy if you can read this I would do everything again. Except I would meet you sooner and talk to you more so we could have more time. R.I.P Andy, you will live on in our hearts

Once a wise person said "if someone lives on in the hearts of men, he lives on." I think. If not, I just said it. And from what I can tell that's true. So Andy, though he may not have his physical body anymore, still lives, in the minds and hearts of all of us.  Andy lives on. We can repost his poetry and write poems in his honor. We will move on, but a part of us died with Andy, and part of him lived with us.

I think Andy is talking to me, or his spirit watches me, or something because I have the inexplicable urge to just address the air around me as if it were him. I want to talk to it, interact with it, ask it questions and say what I never got to say to him to it. Call me crazy but I want to talk to Andy. And I feel like he's listening.

Our angel has gained his wings. While we grieve, parts of us should rejoice, because Andy is in a better, happy place, and finally he can fly

Fly fast, fly far, fly anywhere.
We love you
Andy

Look at me.
Am I not a real, not serial killer thirteen year old girl?
Yes, I am real and I feel emotions and I love him.
So why can't he be real too?
Why can't there be a real, not serial killer sixteen year old guy out there?
One who feels emotions and loves me.
Yes, what if he's a serial killer, I've heard,
But what about this:
what if he's who he says?
Because despite all the what ifs
All those scenarios you make up
You never mention the fact that he could be real
If we call and video chat and talk all the time
Who are you to say what we have isn't real.
You keep your relationships in your way
But if you'real not going to support mine
At least just let me be.
There's an honest-to-goodness reall boy on the other side of that screen
And *I love him

I did it
I won NaNoWriMo
AND I'M FREAKING PROUD OF IT
HECK YEAH
FIRST TIME WINNER!!!! :)

To make this a challenge,
I'm doing me.
So, good things on me....
I can write pretty well
I finished NaNoWriMo
Uh.....
I type pretty fast when I get into it
I'm in chorus
I can do school stuff if I try
Uh....
I'm alive?
Is that a good thing?
Not everyone hates me
I may have a few friends
Um.....
I don't know any more
But thank you Andy
For that challenge,
It sort of did help.

Who says we can't have
A long distance love story?
Who says the miles
Will change the plot?

We're still in love
Though far apart
We still care
Despite the length

We shouldn't be in love
Shouldn't but are
So why can't we
Have a love story?

If Our love story exists
We're living it
So why can't we find
The happy ending?

What's our love story without a happy ending?

Last Visit: September 3rd
Replied to this topic July 19th

why don't you talk to me?
I give you messages, loyalty, love
You gave me a broken heart

Last Visit: September 3rd
Replied to this topic July 19th

You never post anymore
You never come online
I wait for you, still hoping

Last Visit: September 3rd
Replied to this topic July 19th

No emails, no phone calls, no posts on the forums
You make me feel abandoned
You used to make me feel loved.

Last Visit: September 3rd
Replied to this topic July 19th

They tell me to give up on you
I tell them I would die.
But what cause do I have to wait for you?

Last Visit: September 3rd
Replied to this topic July 19th

Every day, I wait for you
Staring at my screen
Because one day you'll come online

Last Visit: Now
Replied to this topic Today

Don’t tell me being numb
hurts less than a scar.
Don’t tell me feeling nothing
hurts less than a bruise.

After a while nothing
is, but not caring
turns to more pain
than you can imagine.

The only reason not to feel
is because of pain.
I’m told to feel nothing
because words don’t hurt.

Words hurt more than anything
the names I was called
changed who I was
and still hurt now.

You may say it once
but I repeat it.
over and over
until I believe it.

It turns to reality
my whole life story
'till it’s all I see
when I think of me.

And you can say it’s me
who picks up that knife
to hurt myself
but it’s not my fault.

It’s your words
that lift that knife.
And it’s your words
that put it in my arm.

And it’s your words
that I repeat
as I search for death
in everything.

It’s your words
that make me hate me.
And it’s your words
that made me this way.

Your words
take the form of a knife.
The knife that hurts me,
The knife I now need.

And I stand here
wondering how
you could possibly
not know.

Am I really that good
at pretending I’m fine?
that the words you’re saying
aren’t cuts in my arm?

Or is it just
that you don’t care?
That I’m really a no one,
just like you said?

Because to myself
I’m just your insults.
I’m just what you call me,
a person to hate.

All I am is your cruel words.

Have you ever stopped to wonder at the trees, or look up at the clouds with awe, or just think about the world? Sometime, I bet you have, when you were a child.
As children, we marvel at everything in the world.
Everything's amazing.
You know, children are right. Everything is amazing.
Look around you. everyone here had a one in a million, million, million chance of existing, yet they do. One in a number too big to count to in a million lifetimes, and yet you all exist. Think of the world, now. Every part of it, the trees, the grass, every particle of water and  air, had a one in an amazingly high number chance of existing. Combine, the odds of this world existing the way it does is nearly impossible.
When you believe you aren't special, remember. Look around and remember you had a one in a million million million shot of existing. But you do.
Maybe, just once a day, stop. Look around you, and remember.
Remember everything here faced nearly impossible odds, and yet it's here
Maybe, next time you face impossible odds, you'll remember: you already have done the impossible
You exist.

Is falling in love with all the characters you write

But every time I check my email I still have a faint hope that maybe you emailed me?
Listening to our song and thinking of you during class love.

I want to fade
Out of this world
Like the day
Fades into night
Slowly, calmly, peacefully
No. More. Pain.

It's because I don't want to stop talking to you

Light green sunset
shines in my window
wherever you are,
Do you see the same sun?

The stars come out
one by one
some hidden by clouds
Do you watch them too?

And then the moon
the sky-ocean’s pearl
It shines on my house
Does it shine on you?

Worlds away
we watch the same sky
it reminds me of you,
Do you think of me?

When you see the sky
in all its beauty
the one thing we share,
Do you think of me?

Whatever I say, someone takes it wrong
Whenever I defend myself, people tell me I'm stupid
I get ignored by everybody
And so, I've decided,
I give up
So hate on me all you like
Tell me in the comments
Message me if you don't want everyone to see
But tell me how you hate me
And my poetry's awful
And I'm just a stupid child
Who doesn't know anything
And hasn't got any right to hurt
Tell me again
Not like I'll care
Because I hear it enough
But right now,
From today on,
As long as I live
Which may not be very long,
*I GIVE UP

Long Days
Without him
Days I dread
And want to miss

Long days
Stretch ahead
Days I fear
Days without him

Long days
Stretch behind
Days spent crying
Days without him

Long days
Fill my life.
Can't I just skip
These long days?

I was sittin' in math in the middle of class in the middle of my work
I had one thought on the questions, the other on You
I turn around as the song turns up and realize there's something wrong
It's nothing, I was just thinking.... We don't have a song.

Then I think
Our song is the clack of key boards
Sneaking on late just to yo-ou
When we're on the phone and we talk real slow,
Cause it's late and our parents don't know

Our song is the way we type,
First time you asked
I didn't say yes
And I should have

And when I log out,
'Fore I close the lid,
Asking God if he,
Could play it again.

I was walking down the main office steps  
After everything that day.
It'd gone all wrong, I'd been hated on
And lost and thrown awa-ay

I got to the  hallway
Well on my way
To my normal seat.

My mind started thinkin'
Of all the things we did
And I began to si-i-ing,

Our song is the clack of key boards
Sneaking on late just to yo-ou
When we're on the phone and we talk real slow,
Cause it's late and our parents don't know,

Our song is the way we type,
First time you asked
I didn't say yes
And I should have

And when I log out,
'Fore I close the lid,
Asking God if he,
Could play it again.

I heard every album
Listened to the radio
Waiting for something to come along.
That was as good as our song.

Cuz Our song is the clack of key boards
Sneaking on late just to yo-ou
When we're on the phone and we talk real slow,
Cause it's late and our parents don't know

Our song is the way we type,
First time you asked
I didn't say yes
And I should have

And when I log out,
'Fore I close the lid,
Asking God if he,
Could play it again.

I was sittin' in math in the middle of class in the middle of my work
I grabbed a pen and an old assignment and I wrote down our song

What do you give the guy you love for Christmas?
I gave him poetry,
He loved it
I gave him a song
He loved it
I gave him all the words I could think of
And he loved them
But what can I get him now?

I reload the page
And smile
Because Andy
Replied to me.

Now you might think,
Oh, you're in love,
But no, I'm not,
He's just a great friend

Andy is kind
Andy is amazing
Andy makes me smile
And makes me laugh

Andy, I just want to say,
Thank you so much
For making me laugh
For helping me smile

You are the best friend
I could ask for
I hope we stay friends
Forever

Thank you so much for everything Andy

I love you more than there are stars in the sky
2. I'd send a post card to you dear, cause I wish you were here.
3. I love you. Forever. They can never take that away
4. When I think of you, I don't feel so alone
5. You are, and have always been, my dream
6. As many times as I blink, I'll think of you tonight.
7. This is falling for you when you are worlds away
8. Sometimes the only part of my life I'm sure of is the part I share with you.
9. ThunderXStarry since 8/14/12
10. You've been number one since the day we met
11. I wish I could cross my arms and cross your mind
12. Circle me and the needle moves gracefully, back and forth, if my heart was a compass you'd be north
13. Risk it all cause I'll catch you if you fall,
14. wherever you go if my heart was a house you'd be home
15. If I had one wish I'd wish for you
16. I'd walk the world for you
17. It's not going to be easy, but it is going to be worth it.
18. I'm amazed when I see you because I'm looking at everything I ever wanted
19. You see, there's this guy.... And he has my heart... And he's you.
20. Without you, I have nothing, but with you I have everything.
21. You are my world
22. Cute memories of you are what get me through rough days
23. I don't care what we talk about, I just want to talk to you
24. To the world you're one person, but to me you're the world
25. If I'm with you, I'm home.

why did you leave? Last time was bad enough,
he broke my heart,
even though he
never should have had it

Why can't you be online?
i* miss you and I
love you more than
life

You might never think of me, I might be the cloud
Over you head or maybe the monster
Under your bed

Reality is hard
enough with you, but now wherever I
turn there's darkness
Until you
Return my world is gray when you come back I will
never let you go again
*?

How you've been gone
3 months
And I might have never crossed your mind
But I can talk about you
For an hour
And have told that person
Almost nothing
About You,
We,
And Us.

**** me now, please

I step off the plane
Into the terminal
After scanning the crowd,
I put my head down
And head to baggage claim.

I wait as I look
Up at the board
And I hear a voice
Behind me asking
"Hello, do I know you?"

I turn around
And stare him in the eyes
For the first time
I see my love in real life
And I can only smile

When I recover,
I look up at him and say
"I don't believe so.
Nice to meet you,
I'm your other half"

Laughing, he hugs me close
"Hello, other half.
Funny, weird name,
You look like a Caroline,
Or maybe a Starry"

I laugh and just smile,
Then, pulling away,
I look up at him
Look in his eyes,
And tell him
"I love you"

Have you ever stopped to wonder at the trees, or look up at the clouds with awe, or just think about the world? Sometime, I bet you have, when you were a child.
As children, we marvel at everything in the world.
Everything's amazing.
You know, children are right. Everything is amazing.
Look around you. everyone here had a one in a million, million, million chance of existing, yet they do. One in a number too big to count to in a million lifetimes, and yet you all exist. Think of the world, now. Every part of it, the trees, the grass, every particle of water and  air, had a one in an amazingly high number chance of existing. Combine, the odds of this world existing the way it does is nearly impossible.

You may not always shine
As you go barefoot over stone.
You might be so long together
    Or you might be alone.
And you won't find that love comes easy
    but that love is always right.
  So even when dark clouds gather
      You will be the light.

I've had a few issues I was taking care of. I'm sorry I forgot to come on here.
But I'll get up a poem before tomorrow night, promise.

I guess I should write a poem
but all I can do is cry
because it's six months past
and you're not here.

Darling, what kind of time do you call this?
it's late
too late
and I've missed you

oh I miss the old days,
"our friends would all make fun of us
and we'll just laugh along, because
we know that none of them have felt this way."

I guess what I'm saying, in simpler words, would be I miss you
and I love you
and come back to me
please

Always do my homework on time
2. Get all A's or A+'s
3. Write more
4. Get off the iPad and help mom and dad/explore the outside world
5. Scar free arms
6. No falling in love or crushes on anyone but my boyfriend
7. Learn when it's appropriate to hold on, but learn how to let go
8. 125 followers on hello poetry by the end of the year?
9. Be a tiny bit more social?
10. Somehow be able to talk to my boyfriend by the end of the year
11. Earn that ipad mini
12. Organize more and be cleaner
13. Learn how to stop procrastinating
14. Smile. The people around me it was beautiful and helped them smile when I smiled, so I will
15. Be a better friend
16. Read more
17. Improve people's lives, maybe save one?
18. Stop lying, it's okay to say that something hurts
19. Sing out in chorus more, participate more in class in general
20. Love myself

So far away but you could be with me now </3

They never realize
A single shoulder brush
Can send a girl's heart
Racing.

They don't know
A few words
Can make a girl's
Whole day

They never see
A girl's eyes light up
As the glance at her
From across the room

They never can tell
That what's to them just normal
Makes a girl's smile
Reappear

Valentine's Day
And now I have back
The person I love
my reason to smile.

It's been a long time
5 months without you
but it felt like forever
without reason to smile

Then came that day
friday the 14th
My lucky day I guess
I got back my reason to smile

I now have my light
after months of darkness
for you came back,
My reason to smile

Is it even possible
to write out my happiness?
if it is
There's not enough paper.

Valentine's Day
And now I have back
The person I love
my reason to smile.

You are my reason to smile<3

(I know my day isn't as bad as yours, neither is my family, but please don't make me feel worse.)
Okay so I've been sick for the past three weeks, not anything that shows just nausea. I told my mom and for some reason my whole family thought it would be extremely funny to laugh at me for being pregnant. FYI I am thirteen and have never dated a boy in my state. They all know this could never happen, but for some reason they decided to all mock me because of it. When I ask them for help they don't help. My mom nearly made me walk to school on streets that were so icy I couldn't go ten feet without slipping, even on the grass. My friends pushed me away and seemed annoyed with me. I snapped at everyone. I have a ton of make up work that I have to do. My dad cares more about my grades then if I'm sick or not. My brothers found out I'm scared of them and are using it to make me feel even worse. My friend yelled at me, then got even more upset when I couldn't answer for five minutes, and told me she hated me. Right now I have one friend telling me I'm worth surviving but a whole army of people in my head screaming "DIE!" On top of that all I still feel horribly sick and nervous and stressed and just overall depressed. No one believes me or seems to care about me and I don't know why I should live anymore. So if this is good bye then I love you all, but it probably won't be because I could never finish anything anyway, another reason why I'm a ***** up. Well, good bye guys. Maybe.

and I can't love this much baby,
and love you from this far