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star Jun 18
untitled (7:22 pm / 19:22)
i don’t want to live i want to die
what’s wrong with me
what did i do
it’s all my fault isn’t it

it’s so hard to go on
and for no reason
no reason other than myself

looking up overdosages of pain meds on incognito
or even antidepressants
but doctors, they’ve made sure i can’t do that

i want to die because then it’ll be peaceful
quiet
nothing
darkness
no one
Kaley Jun 18
They ask me why I hide my arms,
Why long sleeves cling in summer’s heat.
But pain, when caged, will find a way
And silence cuts more sharp than steel.

It’s not for death I chase the blade,
Not drama, not a cry for eyes.
It’s something deeper, raw, and still:
A scream that ink or words defy.

Each mark a moment made to feel,
A bruise that tells me I am real.
The ache inside that had no form
Now written in a skin-wrapped storm.

It’s not about attention’s flare.
I want no stares, no pityed care.
I only want the noise to stop
To trade the flood for single drops.

But wounds don’t heal from out to in,
And pain ignored will just begin
To rot beneath the stitched-up smile,
Unseen and growing all the while.

And so I try on better days
To find new ways to let it speak.
A pen, a walk, a trembling call,
A tear I finally let leak.

I am not broken, weak, or wrong.
I’ve just been hurting far too long.
And every scar though born of night
Is proof I’ve made it to the light.
#sh
eliana Jun 16
Roses are red, Violets are dying
Outside im smiling and inside im fighting
With all of my fears that keep telling me to stop trying
And all night long i have been crying because im scared of hanging and dying.
Cutting my wrists like its nothing but i just wanted to feel something
My family doesnt care but i think i just found someone who might dare.
Dare to tell me to stop all this sadness and finally feel some real happiness.
Kai Jun 13
My life
Practically meaningless
Im useless
People would like me better if I were dead
People wouldn't care
Who would
They wouldn't
It'll be fine
1 slit
2 slit
3 maybe 4
Watching the blood drip down
Down my thigh
Down my arm
On my hand
Dripping
Down
Painful when touched
Its fine
Painful in the shower
Oh well
Painful with clothes on
Im fine
It doesn't matter
No one will notice
No one has to know
The blood dripping
Blood dripping
Dripping
Down
Over and over
No one cares
Where is it?
Where is the blade
No
Don't touch it
Its fine.
Everything will be fine
Just a little pain
Let me just....
Cut...
One more...
Just one more....
Just one more time....
Please..
It helps the pain..
Amy Childers Jun 11
There is a melody in the
Ripping, splitting, snipping
Of my words on the page.

Constantly vying, trying
To convey the way I feel
Inside the cage.

Breathe slow
Don't let go
Hold it in so you don't break.

Swallow that bile down
Don't let the thoughts win now
Rebel against the cage.

This is not weak
Move past this peak
Keep the word ***** on this page.

Break the cycle
Break the chain
Your strength within will reign
Over the thoughts in your mind.

And the only thing bleeding
Will be the ink on this page.
The cycle must not start again
Rebel against the pain.
Nobody Jun 11
god, i'm so sorry
last time was really close
i'm doing better now
i promise

just don't look under my sleeve
and it'll all be okay
star Jun 10
sadness 6.9.25 (7:04 pm / 19:04)
sitting   h e r e
in the dark
i can feel her presence
sadness is a strange all consuming friend.
she takes all of your time
she feeds off of your happiness

i know how this goes, this is how it is with me and friends
but
this is something else

she sits by your side while you cry in the unlit room
she brushes out your hair and whispers nonsense in your ears
until you stop breathing hard
and your heart stops beating fast

until you stop breathing
and your heart stops beating

sadness will not stop you when you drag razors across your arms
sadness will not care when you hold her, she will not hug you back
but at least she won’t be afraid
at least she’ll never leave

she holds out your hand
for you to take
and she crushes your fingers
pushing you back down to the ground

sadness is a fickle friend
but she’ll always make sure you’re never alone

playing: yours by conan gray
tw: self harm, depression
Elena Majors Jun 9
like a fire on a cold winters day
the warm blood seeps
from my leg
from my arm
reminding me
i am human
i am alive
the warmth is comfort
when all is cold
the blood is my own
2 months sober.
Ria Jun 9
I sit alone
In my bed
Wrapped in a blanket, four walls, and a beautiful home
I have never felt so alone
Will I ever get better?
I want to slice the pain into my arms
and a mother who loves me
and for someone I could talk to
literally anyone
I am drowning and I am begging for help
Ria Jun 7
When I hear that my friends put lines on their wrists
And draw their struggles in blood
I get mad
The same lines cover my body
My skin is marked by my past
And cannot be erased
Am I jealous?
Or am I angry to watch someone else take the same path I did?
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