I’ve learnt how to hold you back during the day,
To the point where you become invisible
And i forget about your existence.

However, at night you consume me
To the point where I don’t know how I can forget about you at all...

I did this to myself
and what hurts the most is that
I have no one else to blame

this world has somehow taught me
that everything is easier
when there's someone accountable
for every pain  

it's hard to let a corpse go  
without knowing who the murderer is
because isn't this how justice works;
played by the victim and the manace?

Too many times to count,
I've changed
My mind.
Too many of your doubts,
Caused me to stay caged,
Disappointed to find,
Me.
    

                                      «c.h.b.»

Lights have to flash brightly
in our poor old eyes
the ones we use to cry
cry ourselves to sleep each night