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Kryptonite Aug 2017
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After an eternity,
Blossoming and blooming
Closing, dying
Forgotten.
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Kryptonite Mar 2019
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For so long feeling every little thing
Day by day thoughts fading until
Now experience all as numb
No, feeling nothing at all.

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Kryptonite Oct 2019
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is it not such a muddle
to attempt at pretending nothing comes to feeling  
when all that is desired is protection from
unable to simply unfeel the past stings
Kryptonite Mar 2020
do you ever ask yourself
if everything you feel and experience
is just settling for something
because you've let the truest one
slip through your fingers
never to be seen again
worst still, never again
to be felt
did i make the wrong decision? are there any wrong decisions?
Kryptonite Nov 2023
I doubt you’ll see this but
I want you to know I’m thinking of you
I want you to know I wish I could be there
To hold you and tell you it’s going to be okay

I may not feel the way I used to
But id do everything in my power
To try to ease the pain away
However I’ve learnt I cannot help
So it pains me to know I should stay away

I just hope you know
There’s nothing I wouldn’t do
To help you feel a little better
To show you that there’s hope
To take comfort in this weather

I’m here for you
Even if it seems like I’m not
It pains me deeply to stay away
But I’ve caused enough harm
Take care, my dear Essam.

The storms never last forever
You’ll find your four leaf clover
Till then, if its all I can do
I’ll keep praying for you.
Kryptonite Oct 2023
I was calm, peaceful, content
Then you came along an it was lively
As time went by it just turned to anxiety
It peaked, the anxiety overwhelmed me
And then, once again the depression set

You’re the last one I thought would trigger this
Feeling worthless, empty, without meaning
Fun metaphors we made A & B, thinking
That someone who’s B could never hurt me
I laugh from the depths of this well
Maybe with this echo, there’s a way out

I worry, I worry so much once again
You’re so stiff, all of them as they led me
I wanted to say, I know, I wish I could relax
The pain I feel inside barely allows me to move
Let alone twirl and dance the way I used to love
Even that has been tainted by you
Yet I am not angry, just void of feeling

I worry, I worry so much its all crashing down
My time, my mental space I sacrificed
To think I could make a difference in someone
I was just sabotaging myself concurrently hurting you
Man, how I wish what I did brought some benefit
Maybe then I could sleep in peace

Now I might not have a job anymore
I might not have a home
I might have no friends
And I might have no direction
I might have absolutely no one

These were my choices
This is my karma
Ive lived before and I can live again
So comes, as so goes

But hey, maybe I’ve still got me
And I guess that’s worth something
Even if everyone thinks its not.
So comes, as so goes

I’ll find another sense of meaning
Kryptonite Dec 2018
two in love, a picture found
hair as dark as midnight brushed up
against olive skin carelessly their strands
strayed in a lovely mess feather light
jawbones grazing the scalp
of this lost, doe eyed girl

straight, long eyelashes batted
against the eyebags you never had
somehow still those eyes were
never truly asleep in a facade
without the guilt of a lie

a gentle smirk painted across
that beautiful face you had
lighted treaded freckles
the softest of brown eyes
that always held cunning

mysterious how those eyes
asleep against her waved strands
managed to pretend for care
a yellow collar you had
a woman under your spell

and i had too, those brown eyes
beneath the thinnest lies
stood betrayal beyond lust
unimagined sin
without regret

in this picture
we slept
a picture i found of us, 1 december 2017, it showed up on my memories. it pains me still to write of each excruciating detail there is of this mere picture, but that is how i scrutinized that face of yours, so intricately bound by your deceiving facade.
Kryptonite Oct 2019
guards up, defenses strong
holding an indifferent glare
treading, walking, running on this path
confidence strongly shielded from attack

charged on the embodiment of strength
adorning armor of pain and feeling
crafted in bitter portrayal and forged
with the much hurt he had caused

presumptuous ego from long nonchalance
a journey coldly carved so clearly forward
time only reaffirming the deepened beliefs
that the unguarded to feeling are indeed weak

unbeknownst to the soldier, a universe
would soon make itself known, inescapable
dawning in the most inconspicuous ways
it would seem as though it were all his doing

creeping in oh so subtly, fear greets the soldier
alas! The enigmatic enemy slipped his defenses
the birth of emotion announces itself gallantly
fireworks shoot through his long barren skies

never anticipating that his ultimate defeat
would be through brown eyes so kind
they bring life to a heart deadbeat
hope illuminating a hallowed mind

by falling into the trap so greatly feared
he found solace within unending chaos
bridging insanity an epiphany so sure
he had lost nothing that was his

in belonging an ego is not owed to man
rather amass the one treasure which he
had long been running from in twisted irony
accepting fate that he, possibly was worthy
After all love, he finally embraced his savior.
inspired, very much inspired
Kryptonite Dec 2018
Each morning remember that you may not live until evening;
and in the evening,
do not presume to promise yourself another day
Be ready at all times,
and so live that death may never find you unprepared,
Many die suddenly and unexpectedly...
Kryptonite Oct 2019
Strong urges for release, to escape
Energy to break away, change I may
Give it time they always say
Who are they to promise another day
The start, the end, we never get to stay.

Questions I hold inside far too many
Keep silent keep it together or its insanity
Look right its a cliff, left, the gun clocked
Forward it holds the keys, the keys, then
Tell me why I can’t look ahead with peace

No, I, keep searching
always astray
they keep saying
not to walk away

Why , why do we walk this path
we say is written , I wanna run
not write our own with passion, rhythm
You know the song  the one we all
dance to, it is singing deep from your soul
But we keep it buried, from the fear,

We are dying
not from growing old
but selling our souls.
Kryptonite Oct 2019
blue peonies
the dragonfly swifts in
pink lilies
landing behind the windowsill
green orchids
piercing screams the creature exhales
one last glance around the empty room
the dragonfly flies out
a pin drops
day 69
Kryptonite Oct 2019
hold me close but do not hold me tight
when i look into your eyes i see light
fear overwhelms me to run in fright
what comes after the joys of the night?

happiness if its the truth of the word
overcomes me in waves of washing glee
smiles that can't be helped but painted
on a face once believed barren

too good to be true an endless ponder
does this feeling come time bound
or restrained by hidden conditions
surely something intricately wonderful
cannot be so simple?
Kryptonite Mar 2019
There is a time between us, when the pebbles of the sea
and the darkness of the moon will seem one.
Where the lilies and the starlight falls,
and my hands and bones will sleep.

See in our sleep, the world can be one, and
the flowing waters will be like Chardonnay.
Our memories will sing so wild and free.

Under the moonlight, before your lips,
I give you my breath and the secret beneath
my soul, where my soul falls underneath.

Awestruck and charmed by the precious jewels,
in your eyes. You are my beloved,
Leaving my breath to you, my very life,
I lift you up like a rose stretching for the sea.
Kryptonite Sep 2023
In my invisible corner
You don’t see me
When my mind is clear I know that
Why do I pretend that you do?

Maybe she was right, in trying to be
A martyr, I’m only inflicting pain
Giving hope where there is none
Maybe that’s how it gets fun

In my invisible corner
Any picture I paint is seen
Just an empty white canvas
An overlay is not my canvas.

The colors are there, pastel, dark, neutral
Why are my shades so easily hidden?
Are my cloaks so opaque I’m forgotten?
Or are the eyes I seek simply untrained
It’s apt to say my attempts were in vain

In my invisible corner
Stop peeking out to see if they’re looking
They’ve long forgotten about you
No one cares about the invisible, the intangible
Accept it, what you crave is insatiable.
So stubbornly clinging onto your cloak
I feel as though I’m alone at sea on this boat.
Kryptonite Feb 2019
If I tell you I’m not okay
What will you even say?
Don’t worry, it’s fine, i understand
I do, its not, don’t say I can

Questioning why mediocrity is, has
Never been an option in these eyes, was
Bliss such a hidden gem or grey
A colour never set in my way.

Intensity, passion every single day
Beautiful moments happiness with a
Mere flower, yet raging storms when
The skies change, already lost my den

Some a million times over, I ask
When will i find my four leaf clover
Will I ever see beyond strong colour
Emotions dreams nightmares all together
Maybe grey was never made in my favour.

He showed me peace in chaos one day
I felt strong with the word you don’t say
Just don’t tell me its going to be okay
Don’t tell me how to feel.
Kryptonite Nov 2020
I would be blessed to live a life
Gratefully face many years of strife
Just to be able to hold your tender face
Kiss your supple, sweet lips
Stroke your fine brown hair
spend every day in existence to
tell you in every way I can
what a beautiful universe it is
to be able to love you
Kryptonite Nov 2021
One day ill stop staring at the screen of your chat
Waiting for something to come
Waiting for sweet words once again
Even though its been months

One day I’ll stop waiting for you to come back
One day I’ll stop hoping to see your car on the highway even to pass a glance
One day I’ll stop hoping you’ll love me even a slight amount of how I hopelessly love you

One day, I’ll stop hoping that you’re thinking of me
One day I’ll stop hoping that you’ve asked about me
One day I’ll stop hoping that you dreamt of a life with me
One day … my mind will be at peace without the thought of you in it
One day, I will not feel every ounce of heartbreak coursing through my fragile being from you leaving me so harshly
One day, I wont see your face shouting “Go”, right at me to get out of your car, to leave
An image burned into my mind
One day, maybe the pain will go away.

And although today may not be that day
I will persevere
One day.
Kryptonite Nov 2023
I kissed another man yesterday
He wasn’t you, but does that matter?
Do you even care? I doubt it…
So why do I feel like this?

I let his lips sink into mine
I allowed it, heck, I kissed him back
My mind immediately rushed to you
But this felt good, and lately
I don’t even know where are you

You’ve been missing, missed
Work, you’re busy, business trips
It’s not like there was something
Why does it feel like times changing?

I miss you, dear eternal
Maybe I imagined thats what
Your lips would feel like
If I ever got to kiss you

Here’s a man that’s sweet and kind
We dance, we talk, but I’m not blind
We’re new here, seeking refuge in the other
Its convenient, and he smells of sweet lime

Is this wrong? Am I hurting you?
God, I wish you’d care about this
Then maybe I wouldn’t feel so
Crazy for missing you for missing
Something that never existed

He pulled back and asked me
Was that okay? I smile and say
Yeah, that’s definitely okay
He intertwines his fingers with mine
I breathe out a deep sigh
Wishing those hands were yours

We had a lovely evening
Kisses, caresses, soulful tunes
Dancing however we felt
I felt quite free, we
Laughed with a lot of glee

I told him I’m not looking
For anything or anyone
He said its okay, I still like you
That’s a dangerous game

I like him, that is still true
But, dear love,
He’s just not you.
end
Kryptonite Mar 2017
end
The pain spreading everywhere
You never understood me
But then again who has
All alone in this cold dark vessel

How sorrowful it is to know
No one out there cares
If I wake up tomorrow or not
If I did not benefit them somehow

This crushing reality is too much
For a little individual like me
How have I sinned so hard
For not wanting to hurt another

My times up
Enough of holding on
Letting go
Giving in
Goodbye.

You wouldn't miss me anyway.
Kryptonite Oct 2023
The way you look at me
The burnt orange in your sleeve
The piercing glare that holds me
The touch strong yet soft as the sea

The way you listen intently
Without saying a single word
Emotions flowing off your face
Hours with unwavering presence

The way you clutch me gently
The way you say I’ll be okay
I actually believe you
I want to prove those words true.

The way you call me sayang,
Oh the way it pierces my heart
Mending the gaps and wounds
It feels like a flower beginning to bloom

The love in your voice, as you say
Sayang, I know you’ll be okay
Sayang, don’t you want to rest today?
Sayang, we’ll eat what you want today
Sayang, its your day.

You say that everyday, I protest
No! I don’t! You sneakily grin
I roll my eyes, feeling blessed
You twirl me and I spin

Opening your arms wide
Embracing me from deep within
Never, have I felt so seen
Letting me rest, I learn further in

You wrap your arms around me
Mending all my broken pieces together
Somehow saying its all me
You kiss my forehead and say
God is with me

Forever in a second,  staying embraced
Chests rising and falling in unison
We’re in perfect sync, breaths away
There is only peace in this space

Oh how wonderful it feels, to be safe.
I so wish you could keep me in this embrace
I really wish you didn’t have to let go
My soul will stay dancing, deep in this tango.
Kryptonite Mar 2020
you are all but poison flowing through my veins
cripplingly sweet, oh honey is brought to shame
a needle gleefully I stab myself with daily
a agonizing slow demise a choice I take greatly  
over a bleak existence without you.
i love you but you hurt me.
Kryptonite Mar 2019
When my sun was down
You were nowhere to be found
When nothing but smiles all around
You bask in the joy of all our fun

So when I do the things you don’t like
When I say what you think isn’t alright
How can you look at me in dismay
Point fingers whisper rumours away

When my skies were nothing but gray
Tears falling every single day
All you did was look away
Pretend everything was okay
You were never there anyway
Kryptonite Oct 2019
humans are such confused creatures.
indeed what muddles our minds so
more than wanton desires and curious pain
like blind hamsters trapped in a vicious wheel
Kryptonite Oct 2023
*******
*******, for asking me to open up
*******, for using that as fuel to shame me
*******, for hurting me exactly where I begged you not to.

***** you, for pretending soft voices and nice words are compassion
***** you, for taking my words out of context
***** you for acting like you understand and then changing your mind
***** you, for making me feel seen for a moment before turning me into a villain

You praise me for the compassion I gave
For the shame I was without
The empathy I scraped from the bottom of my soul
Hoping, praying maybe this person will give this to me the moment I need it
You silly girl, haven’t you learned your lesson
People always turn
They don’t just leave you empty,
They take everything they can salvage and then some
Leave you with absolutely nothing but self hatred, when you were just fine
And still make you the villain

And you say you have love to give
Stop ******* kidding yourself, silly girl
The only love you’re ever going to receive is the one you give yourself
Why do you still hope that what you give could be returned?
They only know how to take, how to hurt
And then say that you were never there

When will you ever learn your lesson
That’s what they all tell me to do,
Why do you care Kisha?
Why do you do so much for them?
I see pain, I see pain I’ve felt and I want to make it go away, because no one did this for me
Maybe it will bring some solace, some good
Stop ******* caring
I wish I ******* knew how.

You say you hurt
Well good. The care always goes to those who are asking for it, showing their emotions
You’ll find another one to care for you
And I’m stuck in this dark empty hole

Where no one sees me
I’ll stay here where no one sees my pain
The place Ive always been in
You shamed me even for that, ha!
Show your feelings you said
****** *******.

Make me the villain, go on
Do it. I dare you.
You’ll just be another one who’s never seen me
What makes you special?
Join the crowd
We’ll host a party.
At least I’ll be laughing
No one’s sleeping tonight

Let this cruel nature seep out again
I’m ready for you
And let me remember this every time I enjoy the pain I inflict onto myself
So sweet, don’t think twice, ah yes
This is exactly why we do this
I’m never letting someone tell me otherwise again
How foolish, from fools who have never seen me
To tell me how to live?
Ive got one thing to say to you
*******.
Kryptonite Oct 2023
it started with a long drive
It continued with good music
a tragedy twisted the tale
and it ended in a sky full of stars

more stars than you’d ever seen, you said
the air was cold, as it was crisp
lightning shuddered the sky from a distance
Seeing the skyline of the city from afar
I can’t remember the last time
I saw something so beautiful
I breathed it in deep, holding onto the memory.

You let me fall asleep
As you took the wheel
Taking me right home
Look, its another sunrise!
Kryptonite Sep 2023
life always comes full circle
sometimes it will be good, other times hard
when it gets too much, just stop
close your eyes and go inside
ask yourself
what really matters
who am I
is this real?

why am I experiencing this emotion
your thoughts are created from your mind
are you the mind?

if you are not the mind
then you have the ability to handle this mind
and those thoughts
most of the time we get intertwined and lost
in the thoughts that create more thoughts
then we get lost in the games of our mind

but when we realise that
we are not this mind
we are a spirit
you are not your thoughts
you are not your mind

Shiva is the real you, stillness
Omnipresent spirit within you  
Is watching everything

the mind never stops, it
needs action
always
to do something
to feel anything?

your real purpose, true potential
it is a tool given to you
but now the tool has overtaken you
Oh how it turns into anxiety
As it has spiraled out of control
Like a wild horse broken free

It is all simple logic
we are just caught and overwhelmed
Shackled by our environment, held
you think you need to fight for it
so everything becomes a battle
but the moment you feel like you own it, you already have it
see how everything flows
you are in a prepared state
to receive

have faith and trust
that everything will come to you
nature has given us this body
to live a joyful life
we always have a choice
either to carry it and cry pain
or drop it and say
I don't want this

no matter what it is
just stop
this is not you.
meditate
clear your head
you choose your battles

be more forgiving to
yourself especially
don't be so ******* yourself
you, me, we are the creators

we hold the magic to create beauty art,
paintings, poetry, romance, all in vain
thinking we can control, inflict pain
running into shells like a shy turtle
this is the thought, the mind from which we suffer

life always comes full circle
Kryptonite Aug 2023
I want you, all of you
Your fingers caressing my face
Our bodies intertwined
Your eyes in my soul
Or so they feel, when
you gaze at me so

The space you claim in my mind
Calmly, gently creeped in
Stay, dear one, won't you?
Let me embrace your smile
Let me carry your pain too
Let me journey with you

In this beautifully tragic world
That so many exist in yet
It feels as if, its
just us
here.

But you will not stay, this I
feel it coursing through my veins
I did say I would rather feel and be hurt
than to feel nothing at all

I guess I
just got greedy
to dream of
you to stay
Kryptonite Mar 2019
Wake up early
Do things that make you happy
In hopes they make you happy

Push them out
Not down
If they are out they might come back
But if their down they can only come out

In time you will forget
And they will forget
And it will just be another
Forgotten

Wake up early
Do things that make you happy
Until they make you happy
Kryptonite Feb 2020
I danced to the tune of your heartbeat
I love to the memory of your touch
I'll bleed just to see your smile for one more fleeting moment
I'll give up my soul just to hear your Angelic voice calling my name

In the bitter end
The truth decaying my numbing mind
Words like daggers through a fragile heart
These words floating in a river of hatred
The honesty of your love undefined

You moving forward in life
leaving me broken and blind
Truthfully, love and hate both have four letters
This time your love was unkind.

When love only flows one way
no matter how hard you try
When every part of you is craving their touch
when they say that they love you
Yet it's the kind of love that's never enough

It's a love that hurts,
It's a love that lost all the smoothness of being gentle
a love that wholeheartedly rough.
Kryptonite Aug 2023
today was the first day
after over four months
that I created art from food
the first time since
I left that place
I once called home

It is seemingly meaningless
So typical, so insignificant
But I felt the deep stinging pain
The one of not belonging
The one of fear, of loneliness
The one that slapped me
right across the face

How could something I
once loved so be deeply
poisoned by a memory
pushed so deep down
I barely remember it

My body, betrays me
with these crippling feelings
of pain, anxiety, my world
starts to blur, shake

They told me I was getting better
I was stupid enough to believe
Healing, such a silly phrase
I mock now, to mask the pain.
Kryptonite Mar 2017
Hello, this is me
Yes again, do you see
I left once out of fear
Afraid you'll see or hurt me

Its been two months now
I've been away from you
My love for writing remains
Why must I hide
From a mere two human being

How may you hurt me
In ways I havent already hurt myself
The depths of sorrow you may fathom
Has only made me realize
I will never be afraid again

I am just as bold
Strong and courageous
You thought you could scare me
Oh my dear
How wrong you were.
Kryptonite Oct 2023
Yes I am pushing everyone away
Yes I hurt everyone close to me
Yes I am shutting myself in
Yes I know no one can help me this way

This is the only way I know how to feel
This is the only way I know how to be numb
I’d like to believe my doors are soldered shut
I just wish someone would care to knock
Let alone break them down
You hear the screams
They’re just tears

I don’t bite, I promise
Kryptonite Aug 2023
I cannot feel this now
I cannot feel this now
I do not feel for you
maybe if I keep saying
it will become true

hold me, while I
break and
fall apart,
won't you?

why do I do this to myself.
Kryptonite Aug 2023
Crying, but these are empty tears
Trying, but only wasted efforts
Believing, but we are hiding fears
Living, but not of the dreaming sorts

Dying, maybe this one hits the spot.
Or maybe, just maybe, trying
Flying, so we finally soar
Who are we kidding,
Lying, there you are.
Kryptonite Sep 2023
…for what, exactly?
One day you wish for tulips
The next its climbing volcanoes
Another it’s lazing with cabernet
Maybe seeing the skylines from above
How dare you even try wish for love?

I once read that if you truly want something
You need to make space for it to have being
Space for it to grow, nurture, breathe
Maybe I misunderstood what that was
Maybe leaving myself empty wasn’t the answer
Maybe not trying to fill it with busy thoughts  
Maybe not quieting my hopes, wants, dreams.

Oh simple mind, how easily you’re mistaken
You want the tulips, hydrangeas, lilies
Yet also the mountains, waterfalls, trees
And the comforting embrace of a home
Didn’t you learn, my dear?
You can’t have it all

I think I exist in a place called a dream
Born there, grown up in a daydream
In a place where fairytales take heed
I hear the sound of quacking ducks, and geese
Maybe its my refuge to seek comfort in
A world that exists only in my mind
Alice in wonderland, no wonder you were kind.

But whether it’s a fallacy in my mind
Or something that unfolds in this dimension
I’ll accept the insanity if it brings me there
I gleefully accept that any day over
The mediocrity they try to feed me
You see, the thing is,
I still believe.

I still believe its out there
I still believe my love is mine to give
And one day I’ll receive it too
Without sacrificing the lilies
Nor the mountains and tulips
Should that drive me to insanity
I happily accept the calamity.

I’ll keep waiting
I’ll keep believing
I’ll keep giving
Most of all,
I’ll keep loving.
Kryptonite Mar 2019
So afraid of the hurt that comes after love
I push away anything that could become
Making a mess of feelings attractions
Hiding from anything that could be real

You came to me like a little child
Opened eyes pure soul a big hug
So fragile so innocent sadly
exactly my fear, kicked myself into
the dirt before anything else could

How could you possible understand
Me and the things I do when even I
Question myself every single day why
Chasing a could of insanity straying
From the peace and the calmness

Presented infront of you all the right
Choices decisions option lined up
They seemed to make sense but no
You had to pick the one less travelled
Risk everything you had and live with
Absolutely no regret
Kryptonite Mar 2017
Gotta keep telling myself
Over and over again
I can do this
I don't need anyone
I can be strong

God's making me realize
I've been sacrificing so much
For all the wrong people
Giving away parts of me I'm left with nothing
Thinking like an investment they'll be there
But always proven wrong

You may all leave,
I may cry for now but you
Can never break me down
I can do this
I can do this
I can be strong.
Kryptonite Feb 2019
Sometimes we are forced to hurt
The ones we love so much
Because for them we want the best
And that isn’t always pretty

And the worst part is when you
Can’t even explain the to them
Why you’re hurting them they
Get confused , hurt and then of
Course they have to leave but you
can’t do anything but watch them
Because its you who caused the pain
All because it’s what’s best for them

As much as you want
them always in your life
You love their souls so
You can’t tell them
You watch them
Walk out that door
I am so sorry.

I wish there was another way
I wish I could tell you
How much I truly love you
But not in the way you do
I wish there was another way.
Kryptonite Feb 2019
Bound by invisible chains and shackles
People were not meant to be fit into boxes
Lies ingrained to a innocent child, lays agenda
Like puppets to discard once the shows over

Perspectives open them, free your eyes
From these illusions that have trapped you
What you are chasing it comes at a price, once
a rebel disappears another is chosen sacrifice  

Think once, twice looking at material things
Is it really your heart, soul, desire burning
Or them feeding you a broken rhythm
Do you not long for art, music and truth?

Could we possibly be, born simple
believed to be made complex
take a second thought
is this what life is really about?
Inspired by a beautiful soul
Kryptonite Mar 2020
what a beautiful thing it is
to find someone who you
want to spend a lifetime in laughter
and someone who desires
to laugh with you forever
nothing more
nothing less
will I ever be so lucky
I truly wonder.
Kryptonite Feb 2019
seeing an array of colours
walk, walk stand, people with
lost wandering eyes
feet in search, directed at
aimless circles to be fulfilled

a heart of purpose
sits quietly cornered
in a wooden four legged
chair, fixated eyes

searching for that same
direction within means
filled with hope to seek
purpose behind people,
lost in the
invisible.
a sudden burst of inspiration from a girl at the corner of the coffee shop, always invisible to the wandering crowd, a wandering heart.
Kryptonite Aug 2023
The poet lives two lives.
One on the outside,
And one in their mind.

When you look in their eyes
You could see an abyss.

If you looked long enough
You could sink into it.

But most people don’t see it.

Take the time to read the words, though,
And you would know for sure.

The poet lives in two different worlds.
Kryptonite Feb 2020
ink flows from my pen onto the
painfully blank starchy paper
the lines form words then sentences
still, those sentences mean nothing

my chest vibrates and moves
sounds echo through my throat
my tongue strings them together into
an encapsulating phrase yet, insignificant

the dance of my wrists with a pen
the rhythmically pressured air of voice
from a vessel with a soul lacking meaning
unable to communicate my truest emotions

with thoughts never to see the light of day
endless trapped inside that I could never say
the puppeteer within strayed far from her puppet
dancing along a floor dreadfully covered by carpet.
who are you?
Kryptonite Mar 2017
And in the end
Im so proud of you
You've come so far from your pain

I know if I was you I wouldn't of made it
Running running that's what I always did
Looking for a shield to protect myself

You faced the truth head on and let it cut you
It shredded you and hurt you so much
They laughed and I was ashamed,
Today you prove to be the man you are
Standing tall and strong

You proved you love us
I love you and I'm sorry for hurting you
I love you so much
Thank you.

You both proved me wrong
So wrong just when I was about to end it all
You stood up and fought for me
I'm so proud to call you my family.
Kryptonite May 2019
write write stop,
some call it loss
some call it a writer's block
i call it a run from
seeing things so real
they terrify you

this one is not meant to rhyme
not meant to fit stanzas in lines
rather open up a filled black hole
with sorrows regret guilt of escape

this one is meant to show
its okay to not know
its okay to fall down
even if it happens
again and again
and you don't quite
know where to go
its okay not to know

as long as you get up
you want to learn
you try to grow
you know you want
to be a good person

the fight still lives in you
even if the light's been turned off
you can't quite see it anymore
its there, trust me its there
i believe in you

with all your flaws
your beautiful curves that don't fit
that don't match what they tell you
that fabulous uniqueness, oh my
it leaves you extraordinary

i believe in you
keep going.
Kryptonite Jun 2021
everyday i fall deeper and deeper
into this bottomless pit of love for you
my dearest love, how you ****** me so
drawing in my mind and soul
into the depths of your never ending wonder

in bewilderment I sit, that one
so gracefully entwined with the universe
can even prove to exist
thankful to my senses to experience you

my love, I have lived years before you
But I have not felt the blood rushing through my veins
my love, I have heard the birds chirping
But I have not felt their singing in my heart

for even if one day you cease to exist
i saw colour
i heard sounds
i felt joy
i experienced love

all because
of you.
my darling, sometime you overwhelm me with love, with the connections we have, you live not only in my heart but in the seeds of my mind.
Kryptonite Oct 2023
One last time, how will I choose to spend it
I can choose me, or I can let the moment
Take over reality, and get lost in time
Would that make me regret?

I leave in less than 24 hours
We have even less than that
How do I want to spend it?
Putting myself first?

Keeping my walls up?
Or tearing them down
And seeing how flying
Can feel like falling

You’re walking towards me
Eyes shining bright with glee
Excited, I clutch the wheel tightly,
So the answer is I guess we’ll see
Kryptonite Feb 2019
full leather brown circles, his
irises lightly lined black
a gaze so sharp, bliss
none from years of strife
a calm of pain held back, with
a smile that dripped honey

all so effortlessly.

oh how i miss those eyes.
an excerpt from a poem that was so hard to write, a piece of my soul you hold with you. knowing you will never see this but you stay in my heart, always.
Kryptonite Aug 2023
Peace, a simple yet meaningful symbol
To some it is calm through a storm
For others it is a ray of hope
To a few, a hippie stereotype
To us, it meant forever, or
At least it did

Those three lines enclosed by a circle
Such an odd little symbol, isn’t it
I often wondered how it came to be
And mean so much, to so many
I guess it’s just funny

Its been so long, I almost forgot the story
About how we promised forever no matter
What came between us, pain, loves, glory
Solace, we’d have each other when it got cloudy
You committed to it, so it seems
But only with your words and body
I might not of done the same but my
Heart was in it all the same

I wonder if it ever hurts when you look at that
Symbol, even the one burned into your body
Or is it just me, who sees it in everything
Even though I did not do as we promised
Maybe if I did, it would mean a little less to me

Funny thing, memory
It seems to serve you well
Maybe if I burn some light
Into me, it will try as well
Maybe I’ll forget all that I want to
Just like you already do

Maybe you’ve made up another story
To cover up that little symbol of joy
One that you’ve somehow believed
I’ll take comfort in knowing that we
Once knew, that peace was ours to be

I’ll take comfort in knowing there’s
A little piece of the old you in there
the little peace symbol you swear
An undying place where you care

Even if it only exists in a few inches
Of skin that’s been burned in
I’ll take refuge in there
I think my friend’s still in there.
Kryptonite Oct 2019
How do you become a writer
First you take a whole heart
One that can’t shine brighter
Slowly but surely rip it apart

And in sewing the ragged patches
You in the darkness of a lions den
Wishing the fathomable pain of scratches
Final saviour, some of us found in a pen
We need to get our heart broken immensely before we truly felt
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