No more love poems to be written
In this heart of mine
Only feelings of loss and resignation
Take over my soul and cause me agony
It seems like I've been down this road one too many times before
And I sit here wondering why I did the same things
Thinking of all the signs I chose to ignore
I wonder if I'll learn my lesson
I wonder if I'll ever heal
Heartbreak takes a toll on people
And I've been suffering for so long
Thoughts and wonder fill my brain
About if I'll ever love again
If I'll ever find trust in another

This relationship is impossible
How do you expect us to maintain our love if we hardly speak
Especially since we live across the world from each other
I'm always the one to drop what I'm doing
I do it to take advantage of the small window of time that we are given
Considering the fact that there is a significant time difference between us
You go throughout your day easily ignoring me
How is your love and devotion real when you don't get upset by not talking to me
Nothing you say makes sense because it doesn't match your actions
You've proven nothing to me
All you have proven is that you do things with thoughts of your own self interest
All you have proven is that you are selfish
All you have proven is that you are a liar
I make effort after effort
I think about you, I dream about you
I talk to you, I long for you
I attend to you, I shower you with affection
I'm through with the days that are filled with me waiting around for you
I'm through with the impending doubt that I feel on a daily basis
I'm through with your inconsequential "I love you" that you repeat to me whenever things get bad
I'm through with your guilt trips that reel me back in whenever I try to leave
By the way you act, I mean close to nothing to you
From now on, I'll attempt to train myself to get over you
So that eventually, you'll mean nothing to me too

dear the love of my life,

thank you for waltzing into my world
so quickly and so unexpectedly
i think we are nothing more
than the perfect stroke of destiny
we are meant to be
there is a reason we found each other
to cure one another from hopeless days
and finally live through our own cliches
you are my sun, my moon, and my stars
without you i am nothing
but a body full of scars
you cure me from self doubt
you fix me from self hate
make me realize i'm unconditionally loved
make me truly believe in fate
you are my mantra, my muse, my woman
i can't breathe without you
not with the absence of your love, i just couldn't
thank you for being mine
and thank you for giving yourself to me
no amount of time or words
could allow me to ever express that to you adequately
give me your forever
not a day less will do
i will love you until my last breath
and when my spirit thrives after my body has died
you, my soulmate, will always be by my side

A few days in now
Never will my skin look the same
I'll always be reminded of this pain
I thought I could be strong
But every day I grow weaker
Give in to the urge and grab the blade
Run it across, not feeling any shame
Crying, smiling, laughing, glaring
It's more than just ****** up
I've truly lost myself
I've no idea what I'm doing
The only thing I'm sure of
Is how worthless I feel
And how ugly I look
My wish to disappear
Conflicts with my wish to stay
I tell myself through the flow of years
"I don't want to die,
I just want to be happy for once"
I wonder if this will ever stop
Or if I'm slowly destroying myself
One cut after the other

Date night
It feels so right
Being with my man
Fun adventures
With the high class
Makes us feel special
Makes us get out
Of our comfort zone
And try something new and fun
Good eats
Intoxicated by drinks
And drunk off our love
Kisses are the cherry on top
Of this perfection
Nights like this are proof
That this love is never ending

Scorching heat casted upon me
Squinted eyes and drops of sweat
The cold pool, a pleasant shock
Oozing confidence in my bikini
Tan skin, mermaid hair
Behold, this is not my life
I'm not that girl
I hate the summertime

You always said
That you were a horrible person
And I never understood
What you meant
But now I do

My body is weak
My eyes wish to close
My limbs feel sore
My desire to sleep forever
Outweighs anything else
I had in mind for my life
If only I could stop the madness inside my head
If only I could have one moment of peace
Then maybe I would get the rest I need
My body battles my brain
Tossing and turning
Wishing it would just shut up
"Stop, please ******* stop"
Sleepless nights and thoughts of rage
It's like I'm stuck in a cage
And someone threw away the key
I'm left alone with only me
Insanity strikes
I'm starting to think things that don't make sense
I've become this unrecognizable being
Who am I
What am I doing here
What is my purpose
Once a girl so sure of herself
Now all I think about is death

these night are lonely without you, my love
but i possess no fear
i know my life will be full of nights with you
the nights where we stay up for hours talking
the nights that lead their way into dawn
when the sun begins to come up
peaking through our window
as i tenderly kiss you
as we softly fall asleep
lying in each other's warm embrace
the nights full of passion and excitement
the eagerness to please one another
the deep kisses, the stares full of longing
the moans, the breaths
the ultimate pleasure in our hands
where nothing could possibly stop our love from blossoming
and the nights that we call early
the nights where we are too tired to even speak
but never too tired to softly kiss
subtly caress each other
admire each other with just our hands and lips
the nights where we fall asleep within moments
only because we are at such peace with each other
next to the one we love
for eternity
for always
thank you, my love
for a future full of endless nights
tonight i look forward to you
to them
to forever

Straddle me in your pink robe
Lean down to kiss me
As I pull the strings
The sides fall away
Exposing you to me
My hands wrap around your warm skin
And feel your perfect body
As my lips feel your kisses
Soft at first
Passionately growing
You're my muse
You're so fantastic
This life is nothing without you