Janet Brown

Janet Brown Jun 2014

Silken square fills with air,
So warm, so very warm...
Hotter, higher...
Pumping in, and in,
In... more air, please, more...
Falling…, falling...
****! Really falling!!
Strong arms drag me to center.
Hotter, higher, further and farther,
and Oh! Oh!!
Tighter and higher than it can go...
and Implode! Explode!!...2...3...
As the colored patches swirl around me, strong arms
Pull me up and over (breathing and uh...wheezing!)
Landing sideways, mixed together, to sleep.
Huddle of humans, one or two?
Arms are somewhere, leg over leg,
You hold me,
I pass out.
Best is ...
Opening eyes,
Nose smashed in stubbled cheek,
Seeing my son's chin.
Thank You for Now,
Thank God forEver.

-2007 This will always be reunion day to me. I don't even blame me if I couldn't parse it to perfection! :)

#love #passion #reunion #relatioship #rekindling

Janet Brown Jun 2014

The Old Moon

The old moon wanes
Her light so sweetly,
As dawn is breaking over neatly.

She's nestled in a cove of clouds.
I watch and know she is too soon
to be engulfed by their onrushing banks
and I can't bear
To lose the little light she bravely
Chose on me to shine.
Oh little light,
Please.
Be mine.
As if she heard when I looked up,
A miracle!
The clouds broke up!
And there she was, my yin-yang crescent - snuggling cold against her Warm black velvet twin. And nary a cloud in sight
Against the movie screen glow of periwinkle light.

Sweet!! Miracles still happen when You say.
God, please! Remind me of this fact every day!

-2010 Couldn't make it rhyme, and refused to delete it, 'cause there was something about it...

#moon #clouds #miracle

Janet Brown Jun 2014

Text

(Text:)
In all the world, there'll never be
A man I love as much as Thee!
(Ans:)
Even on the clouds or the deep blue sea?
That's a lot o' love for me!

(and then:)
I sent my dreams to look above,
And see if any other love
Was away up there and could be found
But woke up lying on the ground!
So I pushed my heart into the sea -
I have been told, so many times,
How cold my heart is- frigid me!
Alas! there's no one quite like thee!
So, Zeus, with all his charms and flair
Can keep his castles in the air!
And Neptune, though his cold match mine,
Must swim alone and drink his wine.
For all the changing shafts of light
That pierce the depths of deepest seas
And all the twinkling hosts of night
Can never match the depths I've seen
In those most twinkling human eyes.
that constantly can change their hue,
And taught me about the color Blue.

In all the world
There'll never be
A man I love
As much as Thee.

-2011 A poem grows from texting. Truly 21st Century!!

#love #eyes #romantic #human

Janet Brown Jun 2014

More

More than any song could ever sing
More than winter ever wanted spring
More than any words could ever say
More today than you heard yesterday

More and more and more, round runs the ring
More and more and more than anything
They say in years that time will numb the sting
And less will be the thing that time does bring.

  But night still follows day in it’s own right
  As evening follows noon and dims the sight.
  The weeks pass into months with a fine blur
  And in your heart you dare not feel a stir

  As year turns into year, still my heart waits
  The turning of the hand that wields the fates.
   Eventually she’ll turn my way and see
   I’m here for you, and I need you for me

~1993 Ouch. In real life, I should not have had a second chance. But this is my life, apparently not necessarily Real. Of course, it was more than 12 years before Fate thought she'd take a look at my loss...

#love #pain #loss #forever

Janet Brown Jun 2014

Entangle me

Entangle me, Entangle you
For what’s a friend supposed to do
But live inside each other’s dreams?
It’s never really what it seems.
I never made a worse mistake,
I won’t live through a second take.

       Recycle me, recycle you
       We split this crazy world in two.
       And all our kids sleep in their beds
       While all our friends just shake their heads.
       But no one here will ever know
       How hard it is to just let go.

Immortal me, immortal you
The only way to join the two.
So live inside my sweet, sweet dreams
Where all is really how it seems -
And put outside your weary chest
Your pain and fear and on it rest
      My head throughout Eternity
      Embracing me…
   Entangle me.

~1994 Oh, my. Why is it that as a poet I keep telling myself I can pour my feelings into words and it will make them go away? Really, it seems I just store them up for later.

#love #loss #relationship #immortal

Janet Brown Jun 2014

Rondeau #1

There is no hope in wishing, my dear
Still I wish I could make myself clear,
For as far as I know there's no star
Will make miracles grow where we are
And I can't keep on living this here...

And yet while I can hold you near,
I am sorry if you see a tear,
'Cause I don't want our time to be marred...but...
There is no hope.

No! I will not succumb to the fear
That this is the last time when we're
Being together and you will not bar
Me from knowing the real you inside where you are.
It's the same sad story year after year.
There is no hope.

-2011 Trying for a" real" rondeau. It says what I want, and comes close to the form at least...

#love #regret #loss #relationship