There's nothing more impossible
Than the trick of this ****
When you do what you can
But they choose to ignore it
You're labeled as an other
Because their conscience can't sit
And they tear you down
Whatever way they see fit
And you don't know why they do it
And you're not a half wit
You just trust and think the best
But the pieces don't fit
So you try to ignore them
And beg yourself not to quit
But you end up tired
And with nothing to show for it

How foolish of me
To think that love was more important
Than happiness

I made a list of the things I need
And it’s only ten lines long
You were almost all of them
Except for the very first one

I let myself skip over the first line
And didn’t even know
I saw you for how wonderful you are
Not knowing butterflies wouldn’t grow

I keep forgetting
The weight that was lifted
When you let me go

I keep forgetting
The light in my eyes
That reignited

I keep forgetting
That I am whole again
All on my own

But I won’t forget
What I’ve learned
From being hurt

So much of me
Is still entwined in you
Every memory
Stuck to my heart like glue

I’m hoping I don't go under
And trying to let it go
But I can’t help but wonder
If a better love I’ll ever know

All the time
You told me that it was for forever
That there was nothing better

All the time
You said you could not believe I was real
And I thought that told me how to feel

All the time
I ignored the little signs
Because you kept telling me it was fine

And all the time
I loved you and didn’t question it
I never thought you were full of ****

And all the time
I told you all I needed was trust
And you agreed it was a must

But all the time
You were lying
And now I feel like I am dying

Now all the time
I wonder why I kept it going
When deep inside I felt myself knowing

Now all the time
I question how I feel
Because if it wasn’t, then I don’t know what’s real

All I can say
Is I hope neither one of us dies tonight
Because if todays the day
Then you shouldn’t have left me hurting this way

All I know
Is if one of us should die tonight
Would you regret letting me go
Without telling me you love me so

All I can do
Is hope neither one of us dies tonight
Because you didn’t think it through
Got tangled up in you

All that can think
Is if one of us should die tonight
My stomach would sink
Knowing you chose to drink

Over me

The only thing you have to do is die
But I won’t be up there in the sky
You’ll just have to trust
I’m tied to the earth even when I fly

But we’ll escape this curse for now
Find comfort in our vow
We won’t let it keep us
We’re better than it anyhow

The earth beneath us crumbles
Gravity slips away
We live among the stars
Come back another day

It’s hard
Cause I’ve been there and I’ve felt it
But it’s okay
Because I’ll be there again and I’ll feel it again
Just in a different way

I seek the thrill of knowing
Of knowing it all
I seek the truth it tells me
The truth of it all
Cause this world is empty
And full of lies
But there is more on the other side

The answers it brings
Lead to more questions
An endless road
It’s the answers that keep me going
And the questions that bring me back

All these unanswered questions
Are the payback for the wisdom
I am found
And yet more lost than I was before

I yearn to be free
Not held back by thoughts
But I yearn to know just the same
It’s an addiction I can’t stop

Is enlightenment just a trick
Or do we really know it all
When we know nothing

Moving past the guide they’ve given
And knowing what is right

Moving past the guide you’ve given
And doing what feels right

Forget what they’ve told you
Forget what you’ve told you
If you give love
You’ll get it
Everything else
Just forget it

I try to write a happy thing
Something that’s inspiring
But nothing seems to come out right
I’d rather try to pick a fight
Against the world we’re living in
Full of hate and ripe with sin
I’ve seen the better side of life
But those moments seem to end in strife
Because the imperfect place in which I live
Has nothing more to me to give
It doesn’t deserve a happy song
For everyone to sing along
And ignore the reality that surrounds us
There’s nothing left to discuss
Our world no longer has a meaning
The importance being what you’re gleaning
But that’s not what our lives are about
So I will choose a different route
And if it means I walk alone
I can’t undo the stitch I’ve sown
I’ve committed to my destiny
And it will be enough for me
Enough without the false appearance
Of happiness and self assurance
Fulfilled without the needless *******
That likes to get my fire lit
And this will be my happy thing
To forget it all and just start living

She said that’s not the point
But I know it doesn’t matter
The point to her is not the point to them
It’s the way our thoughts can scatter
We can’t focus on the core
Get caught up in the minutia
We’ve forgotten how to love
And I’m not talking about medusa
I mean love in stepping back
And seeing the world as more than us
But a working system of plants and animals
Built on more than trust
Because we recognize our luck
In knowing and feeling more
But it’s our deepest curse
Because our egos keep us poor
Poor in love and selflessness
Weak in strength and will
But we ignore that we’re insensitive
Because we won’t die before we’d ****

I’ll go for a walk
And take a long shower
Sing for awhile
And draw for an hour
Make a list of my worries
And put it to flames
Sleep for forever
Not sure for what I aim
Just trying to find some peace
In the crazy world we live in
And help myself ignore
All that might have been

What makes you think you’re so smart
What makes you’re point is right
You should look at your own life

They didn’t ask you what you thought
But you gave your opinion freely
But you’re not very nice, really

You’re not fooling anyone but fools
And they won’t be there when you fall
That’s when you’ll know what it feels like to be small

I hope that one day you wake up
And see the potential in the world
But for now you’re just a mean girl

But it doesn’t really matter what you say
They’re all just words anyway
I could hear them all day
And I know I’d still be okay
It doesn’t really matter what you do
Only who you do it to
Because they might give up on you
And find someone new
Nothing doesn’t really matters
Until all that climbing ladders

Takes you nowhere

It feels easier to let the time pass by
And not do a thing
Just let the days count on
Waiting

It’s easier to hope that that something will happen
All on it’s own
Just let the years go on
And sticking to what you’ve known

But nothing ever happens
When your head is full of dreams
And your heart is empty
From not doing anything

It’s hard to make the change
But it’ll be even harder
To look back at your life
And know you should’ve been much smarter

Those fears and apprehensions
Can only hold you back
Let go of what keeps you down
And get your life on track

It’s that bittersweet feeling I can’t ignore
As the waves lap against the shore
Everything’s perfect I know that much for sure
But I still sense a sadness

The clouds mean nothing without the sun
But the sun is only light
And the clouds look beautiful tonight
Yeah it’s the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen

Sitting on the beach
Touching something I thought I couldn’t reach
But it’s partly cloudy

I was given one life
Planned for me to waste
Where I am not told to draw
But the right way should be traced
But I don’t believe in rules
Or being told what to do
So I’m ignoring all this *******
And starting something new
I was not born to learn
What has already been found
I am here to discover
What is left to do with sound
So next time you say it isn’t that bad
And I should learn to deal
Think of how you feel
And if it’s all that real

Finding a the dawn in the dead of night
Can’t let the goal get out of sight
I’m hoping to find that in the end I’m right
And we’re right for each other

I am told that I am free
That I can be whatever I want to be
As long as it fits within the confines
Of our society

I believe that I’m a slave
And if I misbehave
They’ll curse me until I break
And forget the freedom that I crave

My words don’t seem to be all I hoped they’d be
When I put them together they sound wrong
But we are just the sum of our parts
And words are less than equal
To the meaning of our hearts

I’ve been drowning in the ocean of your eyes
It’s turning into the only thing I know
And it may be the thing that breaks me
But I can’t forget it’s the thing that waked me

Treading water when I long to fly
The way you smile when I want to cry
This just might be the roses thorn
I’m torn

I’ve grown tired of caring
And I’m sick of feeling
What am I even hurting for?

I’m moving on to living
I’m trying out my new eyes
What was I even seeing for before?

I can’t muster the courage
To let myself take things on
So why not let them go?

I wonder what it would be like if the tables were turned
You could have all the knowledge that I’ve learned
But hurt in a way that wasn’t earned
Swap you’re heart for one that yearns

I wonder if you hurt like the ones who are alone
The ones they would disown
A reality you can’t postpone
All the more real when you are grown

I wonder if you spent a day ignored
Feeling like who you are just makes them bored
Everyday leaving you floored
Alone in the world

Would you stand up for yourself
Or hide behind a smile
What is easier?
Facing your fears or letting the pain compile

Or you could just give up
Not give yourself another day
But that’s no solution
There has to be a better way

Some might pray
Some might run away
But you can choose to love yourself anyway