why do I cry when I look at the sky?
knowing one day, I'll say goodbye
leaving all my hurt and all my worry
life is slow, but deaths a hurry
I only hope I did all I can
wishing God has mercy, he'll understand
apologies to women, sorry to man
at Heaven's gate, I'll proudly stand!

I know I'm running out of time
fear has stolen what is mine
legs stuck, unable to move
too many roads in life, which one to choose?
2 steps forward , 5 steps back
my life's purpose is under attack
I hate defeat, can't stand to lose
**** this mid twenties blues

heart in your large hands
legs weak, hard for me to stand
held captive to a evil man
I could leave, I know I can
but its scary out there
foreign land

I promised not to fall for you
quick sand
I promised not to love you
feelings banned
but I live for you

----your biggest fan

cologne in the air
can't help but stare

not sure why I care
skin flawless and fair

in my blue heart lies a tear
which for you, I shamelessly wear

you don't deserve me I swear
yet even with options I'm not going anywhere

winter is near
and loneliness is here
I want to hug you like the sweater you wear
but in my heart there is a tear
because I miss you like sailors miss a swear
like a blind man, I can't find your love anywhere
and that's not right my love, it's just not fair
you may not mind this and you might not care
but while you are away, your body and your love
please do not share...
because you are all mine
and we shall return to one another in time.

I had never felt rejection to your degree
I was charismatic, who could resist me?

you turned away from my tender kisses
though my direct passes never misses

I'm left asking what went wrong
did I come on way too strong?

you were the sweetest most sour person I've ever known....

woman was not made to be alone
on her own faking to be strong.

woman was not made to *******
such a thing as ******* requires a mate.

woman was not made to cry in solitude
for comfort on his shoulder is true soul food.

woman was not made for this world
for men prey on and devour innocent little girls.