I want to sink
feel the water
like a new winter blanket
feel the sunshine peek through waves
like a sneaky bandit
feel my feet go numb
like they refuse to walk again
feel my thoughts drift away
like I’m in a state of zen
feel my hands tingle slightly
like I’ve just told a lie
feel my lungs pound against my chest
like they’re drums trapped inside
feel weight over my head
like it’s being strangled by a crown
I want to sink
**but I refuse to drown