through words,
I heal my wounds
by completely exposing them

you placed flowers in my heart and bees in my stomach

I wonder how belittled
The world feels
When it's compressed
Into just a globe

If my hands can hold
The entire world,
Then all I am
Is God's atom

I hope you choke on every lie
You've ever told
And get slapped by all the hands
You used to hold
May you taste the tears
Of those you upset
And feel a hole in your heart
Filled with other's regrets
You shan't hear another
"I love you"
Since you're the worst person
I ever knew

Before I met you,
I had not been searching
For my other half
Because I considered myself full
But now you're gone
And I have never felt so empty

your sunshine rays are no match for my lightning bolts

I need to escape
The grave weight of my shadow
It always haunts me

You are an annoying insect
Slithering into my space
Swarming around me
Ticking off my patience
Crawling up my nerves
Buzzing in my ears
Infecting my happiness
Bugging me more each moment
Yet I cannot bring myself
To **** you

I was high on flowers
But ready to inhale winter

I trace places you used to touch
Looking for echoes of your fingertips

I light candles where you used to stand
Trying to recreate the warmth you exuded

I wrap your sweaters around my body
Mimicking the sensation of your arms around me

I listen to the clinks of wine glasses
Pretending we're back on our first date

I stare at your lips in your pictures
Wishing I had kissed you longer

I thought losing you would get easier
But I miss you more every minute

we are all stories
instead of paper and ink
we're of flesh and blood

Our hands held each other
Yet, I missed you anyway

I can't touch the past
But I let the past touch me

I'm somewhere behind the moon
I've escaped the weight of the world
And there's no sunshine,
No light, no heat
But the thought of you
Keeps me so warm
And I'm content staying
Somewhere behind the moon

you played me like your favorite instrument
and plucked out all the joy from my life

at first, we lived in harmony
but then you destroyed a part of me

we said no strings attached
but now I'm tied in knots

we said we'd try and improvise
but ended up telling all those lies

you amplified your complaints
and struck me with a beat

even though we ended on the wrong note
our lyrics still get caught in my throat

When you said hello,
I said goodbye to every other person
I had ever met

When you said goodbye,
I heard goodbye from every other person
All in one moment

like an ocean,
you appear to be warm
because you reflect
the sun's light
but truly
you're so cold

like an ocean,
I can't be quite sure
of your depth
until I have dove in
and sunk
to the bottom

Your garden is trying to **** me,
It reminds me of all the beauty I do not possess

A world where
clouds rain heavy glass
onto birds that shriek
above butterflies that breathe fire
over oceans made of oil
near grass made of needles
below trees made of knifes
holding leaves that release toxins
would still be a nicer world
than one without you

A human says,
"Last night I dreamed of…"

A poet says,
"You made me dream of…"

the sound of your voice
reminds me of an ice cube
cracking against water's touch
maybe it's because
your soul is frozen
and your words are cold

your red lips
were red flags
warning me
not to trespass
but I did anyways
and now I’m trapped
in your jail
for a crime
I innocently committed

I'd say I love you
But I think love always dies
I cannot risk that

I thought I could
hear the roses
smell the colors
taste the fire
see the halos
control the mind
kiss the storm
touch the prayers
swallow the lies
hold the centuries
and
escape the world

Jumped into lava
Still not as warm
As your touch

the only things we share
are mutual hatred and air

indigo passion
rose elation
cyan desire
salmon fire
azure agony
golden happy
and finally,
some crimson zeal
(these are the ways you make me feel)

Words dance around in my head
And I choreograph sentences
But when I present them to an audience,
Nobody gives a standing ovation

you tattooed worries in my mind and sorrows in my heart

Do I find comfort
In your words
Or your voice?

she was strong enough to jump and weak enough to drown

in the space between life and death
we're so fragile

when the bird is living,
the bird eats the worm

when the bird is dead,
the worm eats the bird

I have only two desires:
To feel and be felt

I realize that I
Will not live for forever
But my poems could

Can forever last a moment
And a moment last forever?

When I was ten, I was given a purple pill
I took it twice a day, without complaints
Doctors said it would make all well
But it made me pale and slightly faint
Little did they expect, the pain started to spread
The disease was no longer concentrated in my chest
Just two more months until I was supposed to be dead
My parents made plants to put me to rest
Somehow, years passed and my health improved
But I write this to you with an IV in my hand
Knowing that my illness with never be fully removed
And I wonder why life will never go as planned

I have been forgotten
By someone I could never forget

I kissed you
Among the tangled grape vines
Now I sip sweet wine,
Taste the tang of your lips,
And I am reminded
Of our tangled love

There are two forms of regret:
Wishing you had
And wishing you hadn't

Death slowly approached her bed,
appeared only to her and calmly said,
“Come with me, just grab my palm
and soon all your pain will be gone.”

She’s no longer alive,
I guess she believed his sneaky bribe.
Her body lies on Earth as an empty skeleton
but her soul lays with Death in heaven.

Now she is enveloped in Death’s wrath
and will never escape his tight grasp.
Death took the person I love most,
and now she’s a hostage in his dark abode.

my silence says more than my words
and if I choose to never speak again,
just know that I loved you

"Our love is a burden."

"Then it isn't real love."

He is the universe
Expressed as a human
And I can only hope that,
One day,
The universe will love me back

you lit a small flame inside of me
and then everything caught on fire

clouds shot down heavy bullets
but you were kissing me
so I didn't feel a thing

you touched me
without using
your hands

it could not
have felt
any better

I hadn’t heard of anorexia
Until they diagnosed her death

I hadn't seen true horror
Until her body was merely flesh

I hadn’t felt true pain
Until they laid her down to rest

I hadn't felt true loss
Until after she took her last breath

I want to sink
feel the water
like a new winter blanket
feel the sunshine peek through waves
like a sneaky bandit
feel my feet go numb
like they refuse to walk again
feel my thoughts drift away
like I’m in a state of zen
feel my hands tingle slightly
like I’ve just told a lie
feel my lungs pound against my chest
like they’re drums trapped inside
feel weight over my head
like it’s being strangled by a crown
I want to sink
**but I refuse to drown