"unwove" poems
Your words are a runaway train
Cart after cart
Of regret
And disappointment
You can’t stop explaining
And justifying
The reasons and the choices and the decisions
And why this and why not that
Your tremor
Holds back the true, paramount fear
Of living a life empty and unfulfilled
Dried up oasis
Of what was and never was
We always forget that we are going to die
I wish I could tell you that it’s okay
I love you and your golden brown eyes
I love touching your hand
And having something to love
When my heart gets down to its lowest point
And I need someone so desperately to hang onto
So my panic
And my emptiness
And all those people
Don’t close in on me
With intentions to violently consume me
Dragging me
Into their cold irreparable pit
Spitting me back out
just
tatters
of
flesh
and
bone
left
Sometimes I forget that I need you so much
And if Death suddenly snatched you away
Took you apart
Unwove you
Through my eyes
The world would stop spinning
The sun would stop shining
Every flower would rot
Every building would fall to the floor
Because you may have felt nothing while here
But you are everything to me
And without you
The world isn’t a bearable wasteland
It’s just a million broken pieces
Cutting into me
As I wander aimlessly
******
Disillusioned and hungry for what no longer exists
And I’ll never be lulled into a comfortable slumber ever again
You don’t love me
I want to be hard and impenetrable
I never want to feel wanted
Your fingertips
Tracing themselves over my arms
Again
And
Again
In perfect unison
“I do love you”
“I do love you”
“I do…”
Until my eyes give in to your hypnotic reassurance
Forever and always
Nov 3, 2011
Nov 3, 2011 at 11:05 AM UTC
It was
A beautiful unfolding,
The way his
Words
Unwove
All the intricate knots
That held together
The pieces of
My tender heart.
Oct 10, 2020
Oct 10, 2020 at 10:53 AM UTC