at first things were great with my mom and my dad
she should have stayed best she could have had.,
most would call it shallow to leave be on  your own,
not some tantrom all around disaster
day by day a year matured faster
I was only nine helping mamma cross the line,
child support goes for my stepbrothers fine.
maybe when he was my age he belonged in a love cage,. 10 His own mind rage,.
but sneakin out at night for some hood fight !  back to 21 remember  that he died right.
only one who cried long my heart syed a new song,
never understood. cant we just get along?
yea you say a bad kid, as a parent not helpin had did..
with learning had hid,
hurting words created
    thats why my brother deflated...
mom I was good kid seain what was right never under stood you'd rather quit or split
You know I was you're hero you made me just some zero...
once was indepenent then boom the mind flent,
now your'e just insane controlled by cliffs chain,
but you know that I dipped along the way I tripped
one thing that I fell, atleast I'm out my shell
led out on the train achieved my life regain,


sorry that I hit him,
your hubby just was  cruel
as a lil Rhym he through me in the tubby
hit me with his bottles called me fat and chubby
beaming red eyes screaming  all night crys,
all on my own,
brother helped when I got thrown.      

even at four got pushed to the floor.... by the way just more to say
Once i hit twelve I ran for he door
Thid bad man for the rest of her life
she said yes to be his wife,
with his big ring knee on the floor
I just think 'Ding hells at the door...
      moms the baby inside screams save me

  plus her dad got out the knife he was crazy her whole life
by time i Got to ten my mind was in a den,.
every day was yelling,
      just be soft and sweet by telling,
I know you are just scared And once you really cared.
with your so called man,
the one with no life planned
  You see I left the road called far west
with out your'e hand I just want the best,
one day mom you wont see me
one day mom you'll be at rest..
cause that mess left bullets in your'e chest :'( </3

Arrywillbeloved2013© copy right protected

I guess it's the end of my need for some ****,
I guess all I got is thid lsd
     Gee,
but really what care,
I'm not even hear
teleport to the couch,
met a pink bear,
he ate all my hair,
**** In my eye he cussed not to cry,
MR BEAR!
mr bear
you think I wont trip?
one hell of a fry,
YOU **** IN MY EYE!
back to the room bad trip oh woah doom,
hit my head 'Jingle~
      ;oh yea and I'm single
hey mr. spider, lend me your lighter
back in an hour,
I thaught you died in the shower?.
itsy? bitsy? ,
I'm just rather ditsy..
wait why am i wet?.......................

all for one bet,


;)_    jesse *mckush

can it just stop?
this pain, well can it?
if one more time it wins thid game,
i swear to you i will drop,
this wretched life and all the bads
this pain will never pass,
so thannkful yet im still mad,
so when will this ordeal pass?
can it just stop?

no need to go to school
but my hands work independently from my hands
science can
bring azn explanation but I
can't
so I'm sitting here ha;f in the dark but can't svoid thid dickness called sdavark but i'm to used to half of ordnance givwn to living quarks
I'm dying

There once was a SOMETHING , that i couldn't see
a dark shadow lurking,Waiting for me
No matter how many times I stayed in the light
I couldn't quite shake it
out of my sight
And when the darkness came
And I couldn't see
this  dark shadow lit the way for me
not seeing any other way through
And just not knowing what else to do
so ****  it, what do I have to loose
what  other option is there to choose
I'm climbing the walls
trying to find a way out
But nobody's coming
No matter how much I scream and shout
So eventually after growing tired and weak
sick of this game of hide and seek
I decide to choose the obvious way
no longer able to resist it's compelling sway
because at this point I just want saving
Will this lead me to my haven

So  This shadow with his teeth shining bright
blindingly dazzling and pearly white
Once it was seen it branded its mark
pulling you into the impossible dark  
no matter how hard I tried to stay strong
time turned to eternity, a never ending long
So what would you do if you were in the same boat
do you think you would sink or be lucky enough to float
do you go left or do you go right
do you fall deeper further
or strive for the light
so I made a choice to follow this path
and for a while it was great , I had a good laugh
But I got distracted and soon became lost
and before I knew it I found out the cost  
I thought I could trust this invisible D
but I should of realised he was always coming for me
Thid invisible man, only mouth on show
If he gets you lost i told you so
Coz really are you that nieve
To trust blind talk and believe
That a mouth with no face  could be your guiding light
Well do you think they really might
So why let an unknown voice lead the way
Surely you want to have your own
say
To make it clear what's on your mind
It's down to you which path to find
So take a breath and clear your head
And read back all that i have said
Why follow a voice when you can light your own way
It's a huge step I know,
today may not be your day
but keep these words close for one day you will find
that one morning you'll wake and realise it's your time
To brave the darkest tunnel all on your own
But when you finally come through,
It's like no feeling you've never known
It's going to be hard and proper ****
But it won't last forever , just for a bit
so Prepare for a journey like youve never known
and then at the end see how much you've grown

With the ultimate prize  on the other side
it will be the ultimate high
just one small step will set the right path
Just take it slow and the distance you'll  last
So take a chance on yourself
you may be surprised
this could be your time to truly rise
what's truly important, what can't you loose
well have a good think
only you can choose
We all sometimes struggle to see the wood for the tree's
But after this trip you'll be shooting the breeze
So never give up, for life is a maze
Sometimes you get lost , forever and a day
But like with a maze there's always s way through
It's up to you what you do
You can run round like crazy
always hitting dead ends
or twisting and winding round every bend
chasing your tale and doubling back where you've been
And repeating mistakes you still don't mean
trying to cut through the bushes to cheat a quick path,
it might make you happy now
But I guarantee it won't last
because no matter how many shortcuts in life you try to take
It's always going to end up being a mistake
I think most of us feel lost most the time
am I coming or going ,**** it pass me the wine
So let's loose myself ,disappear in style
Even if it only lasts  a while
Coz after 3 bottles and I'm saying I'm fine
while grabbing thin air to get that last bit of wine
And it finally happens and you fall flat on your face
And it's clear to all your fall from grace
and there's no sickening feeling that utter shame
and knowing you only have yourself to blame
For there is only so long we can put  blame on others,
my mother did This and my dad is a ******
And just like this poem
I'm.not sure where I'm going
haha the ****** up me is showing
I'm trying to say something but not exactly sure what It is
my heads going nuts I'm in a right tiz
in fact I don't even remember how this poem came to light,
Maybe it's a sign that's it's time to step up to fight







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