"studdering" poems - Hello Poetry

Studdering, stammering, but still softly laughing, My mouth cannot formulate the correct feelings Or even the right idea Of the things I want to tell you, and the things I want to hear. I'm sorry my voice lacks such confidence, I just never really felt like this, What a blabbering fool I must seem to be. Not only because of you and me, but you see-- My heart governs my mind and at the right times, I can't seem to produce any sort of sentence, I can't seem to shake that sickness. I'm sorry if I seemed so brash, When I came to you the night after last... It wasn't my intentions and now you play your defenses, All I really want is a smile, and to feel like it's worth my while. I hope that isn't too much to ask, but given the past... I understand that your wings feel clipped, I understand that you're probably scared shitless. I've seen your wall, and I've stood at the gate, wondering when it will finally break. For now, I'll just sit here patiently; Holding my breath almost effortlessly Because I have no idea what I want right now, honestly. (I'm just not into playing games) But if you lean in close enough, I'm sure you will see I still get nervous when your name flashes on my screen, Sometimes I still get butterflies, and you leave me weak at the knees. And I know that's a lot to muster, but I also know I've got a lot to break, and I am keeping that part of me hidden and sealed, while giving you blind faith. But I know that I am not ready, to put my guard down at your feet, I still draw my daggers, at the first sign of defeat. There's still a vice-gripped cage, in between my ribs, and pardon me for seeming indecisive, But I, myself, still can't allow anyone in. I need some affirmation, that you aren't going anywhere. I really need to feel like you do, honestly, care. Just remember that I'm just as nervous, and just as scared. When it comes down to it-- I'm completely unprepared. If the right words would just bounce, Off the tip of my tongue, I wouldn't be sitting here struggling, Making an effort to avoid the wrong ones. All I really want to say here, is that you've made an impact on my life, and hopefully someday we'll see each other, In the perfect light.

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Sep 29, 2011

Sep 29, 2011 at 10:56 PM UTC

jessica-rojan

Words I Could Never Say.

Studdering, stammering, but still softly laughing, My mouth cannot formulate the correct feelings Or even the right idea Of the things I want to tell you, and the things I want to hear. I'm sorry my voice lacks such confidence, I just never really felt like this, What a blabbering fool I must seem to be. Not only because of you and me, but you see-- My heart governs my mind and at the right times, I can't seem to produce any sort of sentence, I can't seem to shake that sickness. I'm sorry if I seemed so brash, When I came to you the night after last... It wasn't my intentions and now you play your defenses, All I really want is a smile, and to feel like it's worth my while. I hope that isn't too much to ask, but given the past... I understand that your wings feel clipped, I understand that you're probably scared shitless. I've seen your wall, and I've stood at the gate, wondering when it will finally break. For now, I'll just sit here patiently; Holding my breath almost effortlessly Because I have no idea what I want right now, honestly. (I'm just not into playing games) But if you lean in close enough, I'm sure you will see I still get nervous when your name flashes on my screen, Sometimes I still get butterflies, and you leave me weak at the knees. And I know that's a lot to muster, but I also know I've got a lot to break, and I am keeping that part of me hidden and sealed, while giving you blind faith. But I know that I am not ready, to put my guard down at your feet, I still draw my daggers, at the first sign of defeat. There's still a vice-gripped cage, in between my ribs, and pardon me for seeming indecisive, But I, myself, still can't allow anyone in. I need some affirmation, that you aren't going anywhere. I really need to feel like you do, honestly, care. Just remember that I'm just as nervous, and just as scared. When it comes down to it-- I'm completely unprepared. If the right words would just bounce, Off the tip of my tongue, I wouldn't be sitting here struggling, Making an effort to avoid the wrong ones. All I really want to say here, is that you've made an impact on my life, and hopefully someday we'll see each other, In the perfect light.

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Sit upon your chair and act a fool Smile like you always do Do do do-doo Love of this world, why don’t you act a fool? You can’t stop these words from happening You fail masterly They are elusive to the kindest of people But I hear them quite clearly You’re do do do doing it again Stud stud stud studdering, You’re a stud my love, of this I know is half true Love of this world, why don’t you act a fool? Your tongue is a road of bad slang I’ve walked it many of times And come to know nothing Of happiness in your life. Oh love of mine, why am I your fool? I lean on your empty pew And laugh with easy Breathe with discomfort Heart break; so many ways I am mirthful for you Congenial and noteworthy, you fill the sun and the sun consumes you The highway is over there, I’ll be traveling it soon The mason is out to make my star, going to stop you in line Line of my law love baby Oh love of this world, come stay the night with me. How I love you so oh oh oh, what’s your name again? I can’t remember, I was so busy blowing your mind. Let’s get together and start a riot, love of mine I can’t remember who you are Your name was lost in paper work But your face is burnt to my skin The last place you touched Has been cold ever since.

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Jun 26, 2010

Jun 26, 2010 at 1:17 AM UTC

nikkie-smith-john

Wont you stay long time

Sit upon your chair and act a fool Smile like you always do Do do do-doo Love of this world, why don’t you act a fool? You can’t stop these words from happening You fail masterly They are elusive to the kindest of people But I hear them quite clearly You’re do do do doing it again Stud stud stud studdering, You’re a stud my love, of this I know is half true Love of this world, why don’t you act a fool? Your tongue is a road of bad slang I’ve walked it many of times And come to know nothing Of happiness in your life. Oh love of mine, why am I your fool? I lean on your empty pew And laugh with easy Breathe with discomfort Heart break; so many ways I am mirthful for you Congenial and noteworthy, you fill the sun and the sun consumes you The highway is over there, I’ll be traveling it soon The mason is out to make my star, going to stop you in line Line of my law love baby Oh love of this world, come stay the night with me. How I love you so oh oh oh, what’s your name again? I can’t remember, I was so busy blowing your mind. Let’s get together and start a riot, love of mine I can’t remember who you are Your name was lost in paper work But your face is burnt to my skin The last place you touched Has been cold ever since.

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I drown my focus to my shoes. Slamming up and down against the pavement, left right,left right,left right. I finally look up, terror overwhelms my body. I start to shake uncontrollably, walking faster and faster. Trying to get there unnoticed, but I contract a heavy limp. Walking alone,terrified. I arrive at my destination. My shaking legs are starting to feel to weak to hold up my sweat covered body. My head starts to spin when I realize how dangerously fast my heart rate is. My breathing increases,kind of like a panting dog trying to cool down. Which is what I need to do, it feels as if my blood is boiling. My mouth as dry as a dessert and my eyes feel like matches in my head. But instead of feeling better I keep feeling worse. I look around quickly then back at my shoes. Just that slight movement made me feel as if I was going to faint. I look up as I'm called upon, my heart racing faster. I stumble over to the counter. Where my fear looks me strait in the eye. She says how may I help you today. Awkwardly studdering, I state my business and do what needs done. I then run away, and rush back to my car. My eyes locked to the ground avoiding eye contact with anyone. I reach my car and sit down to slow my heart rate, then race back home. The only place I feel safe.

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Jul 27, 2016

Jul 27, 2016 at 11:35 PM UTC

angel-chester

Life with social anxiety

I drown my focus to my shoes. Slamming up and down against the pavement, left right,left right,left right. I finally look up, terror overwhelms my body. I start to shake uncontrollably, walking faster and faster. Trying to get there unnoticed, but I contract a heavy limp. Walking alone,terrified. I arrive at my destination. My shaking legs are starting to feel to weak to hold up my sweat covered body. My head starts to spin when I realize how dangerously fast my heart rate is. My breathing increases,kind of like a panting dog trying to cool down. Which is what I need to do, it feels as if my blood is boiling. My mouth as dry as a dessert and my eyes feel like matches in my head. But instead of feeling better I keep feeling worse. I look around quickly then back at my shoes. Just that slight movement made me feel as if I was going to faint. I look up as I'm called upon, my heart racing faster. I stumble over to the counter. Where my fear looks me strait in the eye. She says how may I help you today. Awkwardly studdering, I state my business and do what needs done. I then run away, and rush back to my car. My eyes locked to the ground avoiding eye contact with anyone. I reach my car and sit down to slow my heart rate, then race back home. The only place I feel safe.

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