Puke.

No girl would like me
Uuuuuuuugh
Look at my *** belly
Uuuuuuugh
Today somebody sqeezed my "man *****"
Uuuuuuuugh
Somebody called me a ****** but its a "joke"
Uuuuugh
Don't eat that you'll feel worse
Uuuuuuuugh
You're so full
Uuuuugh
You gained some weight dude jeez!
Uuuuuuuuugh
No breakfreast or lunch only dinner
Uuuuuuuugh
Feel the acid in you're throat
Uuuuuuuugh
You're a boy so of course no one will know,
Uuuuuuugh
Wear big shirts and baggy cloths
Uuuuugh
Don't go anywhere without a hoodie
Uuuuuuuugh
No *** for you you're disgusting
Uuuuuuuugh
F#ck a big heart, look at that belly,
Bbblaaaaaauuuuugh
Get out of the shower...

I dreamt that wax
sqeezed out from my ears
like toothpaste.
Dripped onto my feet
casting a mold.
Statuing my legs.
Zipping up my hips.
I dreamt my throat
was a metal pipe
running dry.
Vibrating echoes
cut short and
replaced with a dusty ellipsis.

Passively shrinking
inside a shell
that I'll never be
strong enough to crack.

How did this happen?
How did the thing we're made of
become the thing to **** us?

It has been a rare kind of day
I woke up feeling refreshed instead of the usual toss and turn
White omlett with cheese, freshly sqeezed OJ fried taters and greens done right
The water pressure did not falter this morning and relaxed all the right muscles
My dress felt extra crisp and my nails were on fleek
No new scars in sight, I was atually glowing
No highlighter necessary
Shopping was enjoyable and not so much a chore
I saw something I liked but didnt bring it home
Catching up with freinds and discussing plans for the summer and upcoming gigs was a breeze
Lunch was delighful because I got the table i really wanted and that cranky tight lipped waiter was no where in sight
Rice and balsamic salmon with a much needed lemoncello hit the spot
I was ok with no dessert
That an with the sad eyes and cute accent at the next table did make serious eye contact with me though
Ah- maybe next week, I bet he will get bored of that brown haired spray tanned ***** hanging on to his every word and carrying a pink rhinestone celly everywhere
I mean everywhere!
Maybe I will stop by at the jewellery store to add on another charm to my bracelete
A lady bug or a daisy I saw a few on the way here
Sketch a little, I think im finally sit still
I should be going home soon
I feel like painting tonight in shades of blue black and grey
A face in the distance
Hope
A fighting spirit
Not sure yet but this is a start
I still miss you daddy

Eating a Passion

Eat do not, like there is no tomorrow.
If persist we, it will only bring us sorrow.
Learn to balance , so that we enjoy the 'morrow.

Dhanshak our weakness, evidently is;
But eat let us, a small portion please.
Or we may, because of it, som eday cease.

Fresh fruits, nuts healthy definitely are.
Chutney of mint, coconut n corriander from a jar;
Or even salads some, with lime sqeezed, are at par.

Butter milk, curds enjoy we can, along with lime juice.
Have you ever tried, to carrots n oranges fuse?
Boiled  peas, beans yummy are; why them, refuse?

Vegetables for Bawajis should be a must.
Every day eat we cannot puddings , pies or its crust.
Or we soon, certainly n surely will burst.

Armin Dutia Motashaw