"reproval" poems - Hello Poetry

You’ve given me life And raised me on your own Because my father’s in jail And you always felt alone When I was young, You paid attention You gave me love, And so much affection As I grow older older You only grow colder Brush me off your shoulder Then blame me as our lives molder You tell me I’m selfish And call me a liar Your love is my one wish My deepest desire I crave your approval But I’m never enough All I get is reproval And I can’t take it I truly believed You’d be relieved And you wouldn’t grieve If you lost me Because my whole life You’ve shown little respect All I did was hurt And all you did was neglect You saw what was happening As the man you married put his hands on me And yet, you just stood there You watched as I was beat When you had found out That I was harming myself All you did was shout And said all I wanted was attention When in reality, I did it to feel Because your neglect numbed me I wanted to know I was real And you told me you hated me You said there must be something wrong with me To need that much attention So you agreed to take me to therapy Where I was diagnosed with depression You stormed out of there Saying “you have no reason to be depressed” But you didn’t know me at all All the feelings I’d repressed How could you not see What you were doing to me All I wanted was to flee I wanted to be free I sunk into a hole Of darkness and pain and anguish It swallowed me whole And you left me alone Then one day you said “Why don’t you talk to me?” And I said “Because every time I try You never listen, just scream.” “That’s ******** Grace!” You screamed in my face I said, “This is my point.” All I did was disappoint No matter what I did I wasn’t good enough No matter how hard I worked You made everything rough “Mother knows best” I don’t know about that It took me so long to be happy And this is a fact You didn’t try You made me say goodbye To the few people who cared You made me feel scared I didn’t feel safe You’re my biggest fear At night I’d lay awake Wondering “Why am I here?” I reached rock bottom And once I was there I knew how to dig myself out It made me aware I stopped trying so hard for you, Mother And I instead tried for me And since then I’ve been thriving I’m finally on my feet Because after years of falling And nobody calling I knew what I needed And that I wasn’t conceited I wish I could say My mother helped in some way But she just dragged me down At the end of the day So I believe That I know best What’s best for me Now I can get some rest I can now be happy With those who stand by me And for them I’m so grateful I don’t have to feel shameful

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May 18, 2019

May 18, 2019 at 12:41 PM UTC

GraceElizabeth

Mother Doesn't Always Know Best

You’ve given me life And raised me on your own Because my father’s in jail And you always felt alone When I was young, You paid attention You gave me love, And so much affection As I grow older older You only grow colder Brush me off your shoulder Then blame me as our lives molder You tell me I’m selfish And call me a liar Your love is my one wish My deepest desire I crave your approval But I’m never enough All I get is reproval And I can’t take it I truly believed You’d be relieved And you wouldn’t grieve If you lost me Because my whole life You’ve shown little respect All I did was hurt And all you did was neglect You saw what was happening As the man you married put his hands on me And yet, you just stood there You watched as I was beat When you had found out That I was harming myself All you did was shout And said all I wanted was attention When in reality, I did it to feel Because your neglect numbed me I wanted to know I was real And you told me you hated me You said there must be something wrong with me To need that much attention So you agreed to take me to therapy Where I was diagnosed with depression You stormed out of there Saying “you have no reason to be depressed” But you didn’t know me at all All the feelings I’d repressed How could you not see What you were doing to me All I wanted was to flee I wanted to be free I sunk into a hole Of darkness and pain and anguish It swallowed me whole And you left me alone Then one day you said “Why don’t you talk to me?” And I said “Because every time I try You never listen, just scream.” “That’s ******** Grace!” You screamed in my face I said, “This is my point.” All I did was disappoint No matter what I did I wasn’t good enough No matter how hard I worked You made everything rough “Mother knows best” I don’t know about that It took me so long to be happy And this is a fact You didn’t try You made me say goodbye To the few people who cared You made me feel scared I didn’t feel safe You’re my biggest fear At night I’d lay awake Wondering “Why am I here?” I reached rock bottom And once I was there I knew how to dig myself out It made me aware I stopped trying so hard for you, Mother And I instead tried for me And since then I’ve been thriving I’m finally on my feet Because after years of falling And nobody calling I knew what I needed And that I wasn’t conceited I wish I could say My mother helped in some way But she just dragged me down At the end of the day So I believe That I know best What’s best for me Now I can get some rest I can now be happy With those who stand by me And for them I’m so grateful I don’t have to feel shameful

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Sitting here on the rooftops, I watch the sun set over the city. A single, fiery red ball Staining the surrounding clouds a bright pink. The wind, herald of the upcoming storm, keeps playing with strands of my hair which hangs over my shoulders like a veil heavy, warm, protecting. And I give myself up to the daydreams. The distant rattling of the train paints the image of you sitting in it just on your way to see me. I can almost feel your warm touch on my shoulder and hear the reproval in your voice telling me, I must be crazy to sit in the cold like that. My eyes closed, I'd start explaining, how beautiful the world seems upon dusk. How the blue hour makes all the colours burst. How the clear air seems to fill every cell of your body. I'd breath in your sweet, well-known scent as you sit down next to me on the roof, I'd put my arms around you to keep you warm while you huddle closer. No need to tell just how much I missed you or how months can turn into years. Together, with a mix of melancholy and ease we wait for the close of the day. Then I open my eyes to the pitch black, shivering for the want of your touch and the comfort of your presence. Once again sobered by the incipient rain.

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May 11, 2013

May 11, 2013 at 3:05 PM UTC

p-s

Dusk

Sitting here on the rooftops, I watch the sun set over the city. A single, fiery red ball Staining the surrounding clouds a bright pink. The wind, herald of the upcoming storm, keeps playing with strands of my hair which hangs over my shoulders like a veil heavy, warm, protecting. And I give myself up to the daydreams. The distant rattling of the train paints the image of you sitting in it just on your way to see me. I can almost feel your warm touch on my shoulder and hear the reproval in your voice telling me, I must be crazy to sit in the cold like that. My eyes closed, I'd start explaining, how beautiful the world seems upon dusk. How the blue hour makes all the colours burst. How the clear air seems to fill every cell of your body. I'd breath in your sweet, well-known scent as you sit down next to me on the roof, I'd put my arms around you to keep you warm while you huddle closer. No need to tell just how much I missed you or how months can turn into years. Together, with a mix of melancholy and ease we wait for the close of the day. Then I open my eyes to the pitch black, shivering for the want of your touch and the comfort of your presence. Once again sobered by the incipient rain.

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Heart broken wounds open words left unspoken head pounding heart ache hounding tissues mounding go NO stay please come play? Let me see your insides lets see where the pain hides take down your confines I am a child again craving his approval watching my hearts removal all the whilst his face scrunched in reproval am I ugly on the inside too? Thoughts racing pain facing its okay babe but this may sting cutting deeper, oh god whats left you've taken it all my heart, my life, my breath just a little more princess dont stress the way I make you feel in between shall repress all the times you said goodbye all the lows but never the highs ill make you feel new again dont fight me, its all in vein I promise this one last cut and no more pain!

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Apr 11, 2018

Apr 11, 2018 at 7:24 AM UTC

Rae

No more pain!

Heart broken wounds open words left unspoken head pounding heart ache hounding tissues mounding go NO stay please come play? Let me see your insides lets see where the pain hides take down your confines I am a child again craving his approval watching my hearts removal all the whilst his face scrunched in reproval am I ugly on the inside too? Thoughts racing pain facing its okay babe but this may sting cutting deeper, oh god whats left you've taken it all my heart, my life, my breath just a little more princess dont stress the way I make you feel in between shall repress all the times you said goodbye all the lows but never the highs ill make you feel new again dont fight me, its all in vein I promise this one last cut and no more pain!

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