"mindgames" poems
threads of sanity cascade
through empty spaces
where thoughts no longer hear
my words not spoken
through empty spaces
where shattered dreams contain
my words not spoken
shouting through my hollow body
where shattered dreams contain
syllables of silence
shouting through my hollow body
through blue river veins
syllables of silence
reaching out for empty spaces
through blue river veins
where thoughts no longer breathe
reaching out for empty spaces
touching faraway mountain tips
where thoughts no longer breathe
black across the midday
touching faraway mountain tips
threads of sanity cascade
black across the midday
where thoughts no longer hear
Apr 16, 2010
Apr 16, 2010 at 8:30 PM UTC
If I think back to the time
that I am fond of most
I think it would have to be
drifting in the boat
peacefulness was abundant
on that summer day
floating about aimlessly
playing funny games
Looking to the sky I seen
a hole right through th clouds
so I fantasized that it was
a time warp here and now
I wondered if I'd get ****** in
if I went below
but all that came through it was
a lovely rainbow
It came down to the surface
and from there it did grow
So I thought that maybe this mirage
wouldn't go
but it faded quickly
into the growing mist
there I saw a dragon
its tail slowly flicked
as it let a deep roar
from its parted lips
I daresay I was mezmerized
by this very sight
this is why to this day
I shudder with the fright
of seeing something so unique
it cannot be explained
I can only chalk it up
to the games the mind can play
Feb 23, 2013
Feb 23, 2013 at 6:32 PM UTC
Sanity
Lucid, rational thinking
Looking in mirror without blinking,
Sure of judgments…
Raison d’être abundant.
Insanity
Unpredictable, laughter and wrath
Faltering life’s path…
Complexities of mind,
Seeing yet blind.
Oct 4, 2014
Oct 4, 2014 at 6:11 AM UTC
A name I will never forget,
Boring into my skull like a drill.
Her face,
Her laugh,
Her talents,
Made me love her.
But all I got back was
Mindgames,
Abuse,
And contempt
For all of my love and devotion.
I'd love so much to hate her,
To hang her picture high
And toss her knives and darts
For abandoning all her friends
And the people who loved her like me.
But I can't will myself to do it.
So she will live on forever
In my tortured head.
Oct 25, 2010
Oct 25, 2010 at 4:26 AM UTC
hope you read my poetry now
you *******
maybe you''ll understand how i've felt for the last year
for ******* once
i'll give you
mindgames
Feb 8, 2015
Feb 8, 2015 at 1:10 PM UTC
She stand back from the crowd
music blasting in her ears
so she can drown out the world,
she pulls her sweat shirt off
and puts her hat and mask on.
Stepping through the crowd
making her way to her podium
her pedestal, her stage.
The whistle blows loud and
she snaps out of it coming back
to the real would.
She steps onto her platform
digging her feet into the sandpaper
so she wont fall. The director
says the words she has herd all
her life and she does what she is told.
When the beep sounds she flies
off her platform with so much
strength and enter the water free,
her body flows through as if she was
made from water. Someone walks by
bumping her accidentally throwing her back
to reality, music still pounding in her ears
she pulls off her sweat shirt for real this
time seeing the eyes of her competitors on
her, sizing her up as she does the same.
But she hears there thoughts in her own
head instead.
Impostor.
Pretender.
Fake.
She turns the volume up a little more not wanting
to hear the unsaid words. But looks up to see
she is to late. She takes her music out with
shaking hands and puts her hat and mask on
and makes her way over to her block when
the impossible loud whistle blows she climbs
up shaking. She hears the beep but the
powerful dive doesn’t come, instead she falls
in, she moves her muscles trying to find her spot
but all she can hear in her head are the words
unsaid, and the stairs of her competitors,
herself.
Feb 15, 2014
Feb 15, 2014 at 1:37 AM UTC
Today her name is amy
Amy is strong
Amy is bad
Amy doesnt take your ****
Amy is confident
Amy doesn’t love and doesn’t expect it in return
Tomorrow her name is Jane
Jane is weak
Jane is good
Jane breaks down at your ****
Jane is insecure
Jane loves too much
On tuesdays her name is Jade
Jade is as strong as her name
Her name of stone
Jade seduces every man she sees
Every sad man
Jade doesn’t care
Jade eats his sadness up and licks it off their lips
Eventually the names change and they go from Ana- the ***** then Sady- the free spirit, maybe even Victoria who is exactly her name
Crazy they all are in their sick twisted ways.
The way that Cassie is the picasso of con artists.
The way that Emily is a **** for mindgames
The way that Carly will never find love.
They all are different, no two alike
But they come together as one
To create this monster
And that monster is me.
Mar 29, 2017
Mar 29, 2017 at 7:46 AM UTC
Empty wine bottles
Boardgames
Makeup stained sheets
Give it a few weeks
Our periods sync
our hair clogs together
in the shower drain
We lose track of who's is whos
And share laughter clothes and virtue
DIY haircuts
Phobias
Leftovers
Milk carton sniffing
Living with women
We scrape around
Recycling Tuesdays
Two pound for the bus to town
But I like to walk around
rents gone up
So has life
Overpriced
Cod and chips
Read my lips
Pre-drinks so we can afford
to go out on the ****
Self diagnosis
No sleep
Sore feet
Feed the cat
Call me back
Borrowed socks
All I've got
Something always missing
Living with women
Gratitude
expired ****
Deliveroo
No looroll mid poo
Overjoyed
Underpaid
Petty fights
Pilau rice
Love of my life
what's should we watch tonight?
Deadlines
Parking fines
2 sugars please
Mind at ease
But eek those shoes don't go with these
Panic attack
Midnight snack
Summers gone just like that
Stick and pokes
Just for jokes
Long weekends
Best friends
Manic episode
Girl code
Sound proof
Shortbread
Bed head
Bad breath
Razor blades
Lucazade
Feng shui
Hungover for days
Like we're running out of ways
keeping entertained for free
Bordem beginning
Monotonous misery
Fomo
Comrodory
Unnecessary jealously
But you bring out the best in me
Sloppy secrets
Morning mindgames patrol
Toilet bowl throw up goal
Empowered
After hours
Talking till it's all said twice
247 advice
Ready salted luck you've been given
The days you thank ****
To know these women
Feb 22, 2024
Feb 22, 2024 at 2:41 PM UTC