I want to say I know how I feel
But to be honest I have no ******* clue
Am I happy or sad? Am I green or blue?
oh how I wish I knew
What triggered this?
I don't know
But maybe it’s ok if I don’t
Do I always have to know?
I don't know
And I think its ok to not know
Because I feel like it’s bigger than me
feelings, emotions, love, hate, jazbadi, barbadi
Sure I feel them, and sometimes I recognize them too
But all of these things are beyond me, and my current body
that this soul has wanted to reside in this time
i wonder….
Do I get to claim the body or the soul?
Which one is truly mine?
i guess it depends
Who is I?
The body or the soul?
maybe I am the emotions themselves
Maybe I am the feelings that arise when the soul and this body align
Am I the electricity that runs through this body when it feels exhilarated
Am I the feeling of warmth when a loved one gives this body a hug
Or am I the rage that causes this body to feel like it wants to explode
Possibly, am I the boulder that sits on the heart of this body when saddened
i am all of those feelings and more
I am THIS soul that chose THIS body at THIS time of space continuum
But what I can’t say is why? because That’s someone else’s job
Thank god, because Lord knows this job is no joke
what I can say is whoever is doing all of this, thank you… thank you so much
For letting this soul experience the closest thing to magic there is… INSANIYAT
jazbadi - good feelings, happy ones
barbadi - the opposite, bad feelings, feelings of destructions
insaniyat - humanity
