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EarthGurl2004 Feb 2014
i'm spacey i'm astral out of my body
out of my mind unable to conn
ect to this world and it's sys
tems begging the cosmos
to restore within me a fir
e for life a hunger for other hu
man beings i often wonder abo
ut the urge to touch some
one tenderly or my lack thereof
i am unable to connect to this
world and it's systems it's worth
less paper everyone mani
festing their biological agen
das when i'm not looking mine
leaks out of my pores like sweat
i can't help but see through th
eir motive charged words but
you have potential i want your
soul not your flesh i want to vib
rate in an alternate reality with
you i want to die and be reborn
with you i wanna chew a hole
through the wall of the ameri
can psychosis rat race for
you i am awake shak
ing your body i am
unable to connect
to this world
and it's
systems
CallMeVenus Nov 2017
I don't have any amazing stories about my life and about who I am
I don't even know who I am

And I wish I could lose everything and everyone so I could have a valid reason to end my life

I have the best parents
A loving sister
Dear friends
And they don't deserve the pain that would demand to be felt if I killed myself

I don't deserve what I have
I keep letting everything escape my fingers because I never held on tight enough
And pain is festing on my soul like a hungry animal thirsty for blood
Because lately, I am sure there is something wrong with me

My biggest punishment is being aware of the consequences people around me would endure, the aftermath of suicide

I pay my sins with having to live and disappoint over and over again

I am so so sorry. And I know you are tired of my sorrys. But you are never letting go. Because you love me. And I do not deserve that and it's only making things harder

Please hate me. Please.
TigerEyes Jul 2014
I set the table for seven
for dinner at eight
telling all my demons n' an angel
"please don't be late"
dress was casual but I said let's have some fun
let's see who can out do the other one
So there's a knock on my door at seven thirty...
it's my first demon guest n' he looks nasty n' *****
I have to hose the dude off before shaking his hand
He introduces himself as he swaggers on in
"Nice joint ya got my name is, Pan"
The other demons finally showed up...
There was Guilt
n' Shame
Anger of course
Grief came along
Sadness too shuffling on by
(looking Oh/so high)
singing a sad song
about how he didn't belong
I cut them off n' said before we begin...
you've been guilt festing me
"like I have sinned"
I'd like to announce you're all going to hell
when my angel here rings this bell
Sorry I must send you away tonight
n' where you're heading
there ain't much light
you've all been a big pain in my a**
cheers to you
(as I held up my glass)
I bid you goodnight for the rest of my life
You've served not one purpose..
just a whole lot of strife.
© 2014

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