pete called me and said that he wanted to talk man to man finally battered and emontionally wounded he said his girlfriend was gone drained and tired of the questionable and uncertain path the relationship had taken he should've realized that women, like men need emotional nurturing and centering in themselves- which helps them to grow in a positive/sane direction i've often wondered why the wrong people fall in love and become a pair... what causes cracks in the foundation of love- some warp in the chromosomes,some flaw in the genes, a thin film of paranoia in the embryonic sac ? is it the stresses of modern life or Mozart's Requiem of the full moon or no moon? was it the march beyond being strangers,perhaps- that destroyer of great expectations? or does love bring forth a dormant madness that always begins on a day that other wise seems normal- beautiful even fate thubing its nose at the future ? mutual sharing is required for any lasting relationship but sharing is not in itself what i'm talking about nor is relationship i'm talking of capacity to meet and be met in the soft unkown part of your being such meetings from time to time are the essential growing points in any live relationship can hardly be used. it is possible i'm sure for more than two people to meet at the same time the modern emphasis on relationships between only two people can degenerate into mere exclusiveness and a self-conscious sharing which though it is, may become an infringement of privacy, or an abuse of intimacy. deliberate sharing is sometimes as dangerous as sympathy new ideas which are forming in the depths of the mind can actually be destroyed or crippled by being shared to soon it is like dragging a baby from the womb before it's ready to be born or digging up a tulip bulb to watch the sprouting of the roots respect for another person's privacy is as important as sharing thoughts for the deepest communication will in any case take place in moments of silence every time i think its one's own attitude, not the relationship on which one needs to work its a fact that in any partnership if one of the partners becomes quite clear in himself what it is that the situation requires the chances are it won't even be necessary to voice it the other will somehow pick up the point and comply with no words said internal clarity anywhere seems to have the effect of an invisible guiding force which can be trusted to affect not only personal relationships but other situtions for the person who has achieved inner clarity new paths appear and doors open without the need to knock
