"dispised" poems
I haven't been honest,
I'm at war.
A war with no treaty.
A war I fight alone.
I have a confession,
Before you judge
hear me out.
I'm a prisoner of war.
Depression my captor.
Crimson regret bled out.
I am broken I can't move.
My heart crushed.
A fake smile my shield.
I haven't been honest,
Bulimia tortured me.
My body I dispised.
You wont understand.
Your painful words
Break me.
Before you judge
Listen,
I'm a slave with raw hands.
I'm in love with my sorrow.
My veins pour out,
Crimson regret.
You wont understand.
Depression not beautiful
I'm in an unending hell.
I haven't been honest,
I have a confession,
I cry alone at night
Silent cry unheard.
How the **** can you judge?
You don't know me *****
Now I'm stronger
I'm better than depression.
My scars
A memorial
Remembrance of things past.
Look both ways *****
I'll run you the **** over!
I won't fall this time.
To the girl that slits her wrists
Time to rise.
To the girl that purges.
an attempt to gain
Beauty
Time to rise.
To those fighting
The same war
As I have
Time to rise.
We will rise together.
Our voices will be heard.
We will not be silenced
We will scream
A chant of hope
starts with you and me.
Apr 25, 2015
Apr 25, 2015 at 9:00 PM UTC
There is a man who has a large beautiful home
And a grand yard behind it
His sheets are made of Egyptian cotton
And he imposes his fit body onto them every night
On his bed he dreamt
The sky was quickly changing from pink, to blue, to grey, and so on
The ground was made of mirrors so he felt sorrounded by the clouds
He wasn't afraid even if it seemed strange
So he starting walking the set path in front of him
He came upon his house and went inside
And in it he saw nothing
And the nothingness hit him
He swore it off with anger
And went out to the large yard with shrubbery sculptures
The grass in the yard breathed
Ominously so
The ground had cracks but wasn't dry
And there was a spiral labyrinth
There were no trials in this maze
Only one task
To follow it all the way down
The entrance, stone with etched words he couldn't understand
Grew as he approached
And he felt the weight of the world like a roach
The hedges inside the labyrinth stared down on him
He felt the hedges stare all the way down
They dispised him for reasons unknown
And whispered
"What would you do in our shoes?"
At the center of the maze was a blood filled, oozing, heart
Every beat was slower than the last
And he understood it as his own
The sky turned a strict, brooding grey
Frantically, he searched his mind for answers
He blamed the people around him
"They're poison!" He shouted
But that couldn't be true
He wept, for he didn't know what to do to make the beating regular
And the hedges stared
And the sky closed in
And the whispers turned to shouts
Then it all stopped
The heart, beating
The hedges, staring
The sky, moving
While he was glad, he felt alone
But then it seemed the world spoke all at once
"Give us your all, we shall return the favor, and we will be one."
And he awoke in his beautiful home
And he wept in repentance
Mar 1, 2016
Mar 1, 2016 at 2:34 PM UTC
The sweetest wine to be had
Withers untouched on the vine
Bound by time
Bound by these chains of lace
Unbreakable the crimson smile
Idle wild eyes
The spies unmistakeable
See secrets of my soul
Secrets and lies
Beautiful the scars dispised
That remember the fires of yesteryear
Apr 30, 2012
Apr 30, 2012 at 1:13 AM UTC
Theres a tired tiger
And a lyin liger
The lion liked her
But her pride dispised her
The panther preys for her hungers sake
And the vultures try for the tigers take
But as fate would have it
As is her habit
The earth reaches right back around to grab it
But no before death can stab it
From dirt to flesh that we carry on our skeletons
To carrion to dust and back
Oct 2, 2015
Oct 2, 2015 at 3:20 PM UTC