this girls got it down
when she stomps on the ground
the whole town
looks around
"say what"
what
what
what
(no thanks, macklemore)
when she flips her hair,
and it's in dee air
the boys all go
"heyyoo"
and shout the whole dayyo
caz look here allison
i know you like peanut butter cookies
and your percy jackson bookies
and singin' josh groban
like (you gotta be jokin')
really girl,
you think you got it goin'!
you inspired me
and to climb up in this tree
and write this poem
just so i could show em
that i can take it
as well as dish it
and girl
you the best roommate
you got the best traits
even though you keep me up
caz you be watching 30 rock
and wearing my fav pair of socks
but that okay
caz with you girl, every day
is a par-tay

There is one person you should love
Before you love anyone else
This person needs to be put high above
And be first from everyone else
This person needs love and care
For they are in this room we share
Being not treated right there may be a war
For mental health they store
This person should be your world
The person you feel comfortable with
The one you tend to first
The person you laugh with
This person is i or me
This is self love
Caz this is where you want to be
Giving love to I or me

I learned never to fall too fast
Caz when you fall you crash & burn
Sometimes you might catch yourself
Because before you had learned
The hard way is never easy
To give your heart  away
Because people are always fleeing
When you thought they'd stay
Their past may have you puzzled
As to what part of that remains with them now
Try to put those thoughts away try to figure out how
Far you both will go
How strong the trust will be
Hope and try to keep the bond from breaking
Never wanting to be free
From their arms
Because you love their embrace
And whenever they catch your eye a smile appears on you face
But sometimes you doubt their loyalty and you want to up and leave
But if i left right now i couldn't be free
Because im here falling
Falling surely but slow
I feel that i can trust you
But my  doesn't know
See I've been hurt before
So think twice before you take it
My  cannot take anymore
Treat it like glass; dont break it
My feet dont touch the floor
So yes,I learned never to fall too fast
Caz when you fall you crash & burn
Im leaving my trust & faith in GOD & you
That you and i will work out this turn...

Take my kindness for weakness
Then take me for granted
Water a seed of of anger that you jus planted
The hurt will grow
Water it with pain
No one can wipe these tears away
Its so easy the one who makes you smile can make it fade
Time can only tell
How things that were going good are not so well
I ask questions and When u reply
Nothing changes
I still want to cry
And though it pains us
Time will change us
We become strangers
Only me it angers
How could something i thought would last
Would tire me out so fast
Caz every time ur name is mentioned i jus wanna cry
Due to all the hurt you've caused inside
My smile is upside down
You thought id always be down
Rocking, riding
Up and downs
When i needed u ,u weren't around
You dont say i love you
The feeling is no longer mutual
Thought the one was you
I asked for an explanation
You gave me an abrieviation
I'd give you this citation
But you'd probably ask me why
Why!?
You are why
Why. Everything is wrong
I used to listen to love now i listen to sad songs
Music is the only one that didn't do me wrong
I promised myself to never get hurt again
I put so much trust in you my friend
That was my mistake
My fault that you do not comprehend
But if i had to do it all again
It would be with another man
There's no knowing that he would understand...

I miss you when something really good happens Caz you're the one I want it share it with. I miss you when something is troubling me Caz you were the only one who understood me so well.
I miss you when I laugh or cry Caz you were the only one that made my laughter grow and my tears disappear. I miss you all the time but I miss you the most when I lay awake at night and think of all the wonderful times spent with each other; for those are some of the best times of my life......!

It's a duty we were given
With a heart that can't repel,
Missing everything that's taken
'Caz our role's been made unfair.

Where to look when it unchains?
I try to find some evidence
That its worth more than my pain
Becoming who I really am.

Every single step to climb
Asked a question in my head:
If I now opt for a decline
Will I ever resurrect?

Now that I am up this high
It is easier to see:
How risky has been to climb
But at least here I'm free.

heard you got the C word thats not nice to know
now theres lots of treatments that can make it go
it may take a while  and some bravery
youll get better soon just you wait and see.

you have got the will and the fight within
also got the courage this fight you will win
you can show the c word its not there to stay
you will fight and fight until it goes it away.

to a special friend get well soon Caz
and to everyone with the  C word

BIT BY BIT
bit by bit they seam to fall.
Piece by piece they come along,
hear I stand in a mix,
hear I fight,
trying so hard not to give in,
fighting myself as I yell out loud,
searching and searching for a way out,
as I get ready to fall to the ground,
hear I fight as one hand has it all,
another is holding me in a stand still,
the white die is there in the mix of the can,
pulling it up with the cotton so bright,
I am sick to the bone and as I shake for one last take,
the rush that my mind is craving,
the dive in that warms my soul,
hear I go to a point that is so strong,
diving in, it takes it's toll,
the pinch of the skin in it goes,
the darkness of my blood shows it all,
twisted up it the white mix,
holding on to that one last breathe,up it goes like a rocked ship the vines of my soul that once was rich,
carrying me thou this rush that is so true and real beating my heart,
that is hanging on by one little peace of heaven and a hole lot of hell,
I turn to run Caz my body just went off to a world that no one should ever see,
but to me the felling it gives every time I spend in a rush of sadness,
twisted it may seam crazy they say, but to me the felling of being free,
is the felling that I love to take,
the shaking is all over my body the clothes fly off as my skin seams to leave,
from head to toe only I know what it fells like to rush so good,
hell is my friend with death by my side,
every time I feed my vain with white die inside,

baby cakes 1/21/2017

when you get some bad news turn it into good
carry on with life just the way you should
dont let it get you down playing on your mind
then you will recover leave bad news far behind

fight the thoughts you have chase them all away
find the strength within fight another day
wether its your health or other matters to
think of all your friends that are there for  you

then it will get better the bad news it will go
then life it will return to the one you know
think of what you have and everything youve got
and to all the others that you mean a lot.

to a  special friend diagnosed
with breast cancer.get well caz