Are you asking me out?
Do you like me?
How do you know my favorite color?
Why do you care about me?
Did you want to eat there?
Should I be your girlfriend?
Should I marry you?
So you didn't want to move?
Why can't I have kids?
How come I feel sick all the time?
Do you want to go to the doctor with me?
Are you sure I should start the treatments?.....

Can you live without me?

It feels like a cat
clawing its way up my leg
digging into my back
cutting into my spine
producing a shake in my entire frame
traveling up into my teeth
chattering as I wait
for the next bus.

Sometimes, I can see them
shimmering on the edges

My vision blurs
not able to be straight on

Foreign thoughts and feelings
struggle and fight against me

Blinking hurts
even making the tiredness worse

Then a light sparkles
then another and another

Suddenly there's dancing spots
eddying around me

I try to connect one to the next
spark flitting across my room

There's too many
I get confused

The lights all begin to gather into one
beam of light as I awake the next morning

Fluttering
on the walls
of your mind,

watching,
waiting for you,
invisible