She walks through the door,
Confidently
Her personality shines bright
She is a light kite that flies through the sky
Fearlessly
Joy is everywhere she goes
She struts around with noticable feeling
And that feeling is happiness
Never shows doubt;
In anyone or anything
Always looking for someone to help
Without ever needing to tell
And her friends agree that they do not see
One flaw in this girl
This girl, is radiant.

He had this way about him
His smile radiated
He smiled like he knew every single thing about you
And he did
He laughed like he'd never been hurt
Yet he confided in you about all the times he had
His light brown curly hair swooped
Just above his perfectly shaped eyebrows
His hazel eyes looking deep into mine
With all the love in the world

I asked,
Begged,
Pleaded
For you to stop.
But the truth of the matter was
You were a train without brakes;
You couldn't be stopped
Until you ran out of tracks to guide you.
And even then,
You would go on,
Soaring recklessly until you,
Inevitably,
Crashed and burned
And lost all the wonder you once had.

And the day I realized this
Was the same day
I stopped asking,
Stopped begging,
Stopped pleading
For you to stop.

Because this was the day
I realized
That a broken, unsteady,
Out of control train like you
Stops for no one.

(a.m.)

I will make a bet with you
He said
What
I replied
If you eat something
Everyday, I will hug you
Everyday.
He told me
It doesn't even have to be a meal
Just a little bit
Just an apple
Even half an apple.
He continued
I don't know
I said
I don't want you to leave me
He said
I don't want to leave you either
I said
Please
he said
Okay
I replied
Okay
He said.
Maybe okay will be our always
I cheekily said.
That book is so lame
He joked
But it's how I feel
I thought.
You're my always.
I thought, but never told him.

It's coming to an end
I wish this had started sooner
Then the end wouldn't have come so
Oh so quickly
Although it would've felt the same
It's too soon
I don't want you to leave
I can't handle you leaving
This is the end
I don't want it to end
I will miss you
You're my best friend
But a new part of your life is developing
And I feel
I feel you will forget about me
You'll forget about me.
You deny it now
But in 2 years time
People will ask "who is this"
Pointing to the pictures of us
You will reply with "I don't remember"
Because I will be gone
The memories
The late nights
The hugs
The conversations
It's all gone; in your mind
But for me
It's still clear as day
It's in my mind as if it just happened
But for you. It's all gone
So I don't want this to end
I don't want you to forget about me
Please don't forget about me
Please try
Please.
Don't let this end without a lasting impact.
I don't want this to end.

Is that the lowest moment?
When you don't dare to wear shorts because of the scars that cover your legs.
And then you're sitting there at the dinner table with your family,
And they keep on telling you to eat,
But all you mutter is "I'm not hungry",
When you actually are.
You're starving but your image is worth more than a meal.
You eat a few bites just to shut them up,
And then run to the bathroom to rid yourself of it,
To make sure you can fit into those jeans,
The ones that could stand you losing another 5 pounds.
You get used to the lies of:
"I'm not hungry"
"I ate before I came"
And "oh yeah I'm fine, just tired".
Is that your lowest point,
When the only food you're feeding yourself is lies?

"You're gonna fall" the voice inside my head says as I walk to the front of the room.
"You're a worthless piece of crap" it says.
I start rapidly shaking, and my palms begin sweating.
I stand in front of the board holding my head down looking at my paper clutched in my hands.
"I-I-I-" i begin.
"I I I, what's up dumby? You nervous?" A boy yells to me.
Tears start to well up in my eyes. I fold my paper, walking over to my teacher's desk. I set it down and run out the door.
I run
And run
And run
And run
Down the hallway until I reach the bathroom.
I stop abruptly, grasping the door handle firmly.
I start to cry and I run into the bathroom.
Standing in front of the closed door;
I sink down to the ground, curl up in a ball,
And cry.