Today I make a promise
To love myself with the light on
When I fail to see the beauty in my body

When I poke and squeeze and grab at my imperfections
I will use gentle hands to embrace my body
Securely holding my most precious gift

And when I fall short, my love deteriorating
My mind drowning in sorrow
Planting poisonous thoughts
Gruesome, self-loathing words
That seep in between the cracks in myself that I feebly hold together
When I neglect my body
Because I have the audacity to pretend
That I can love the swell of my stomach
the plump of my thighs

Times like this, when I see nothing but flaws
I will sit in solitude
Asking myself "Who am I"
And those answers will look past all superficial matters
Remembering that I am more than a body
I am a soul

I am a soul that laughs far too often
And thrives off spontaneous acts
One who fancies rainy mornings in coffee shops
Who can lose herself in a book for hours upon hours
One who yearns to fall in love with every corner of the world
And one who walks through book stores, tracing her fingers on every binding

So when I contemplate my image
I will remind myself of the beauty in my sleepy eyes
Discover the worth in my curves
Realize that my scars show my strength at my weakest moments
Pretend that my freckles are kisses left my those watching over me
Revel at how my veins glisten dark blue against the pale of my skin
And how they come together to form a heart on the front of my right hand
Because I'd like to believe that it is a reminder that my body loves me.
Every cell in my body fights for me

Today I make a promise
To find peace within my mind
That I will find beauty regardless of my size

Today I make a promise.
When I say that I love myself
I will mean every single letter.

i've lived my whole life lost when a map to everywhere i've ever wanted to go is right here on your skin

I wake up everyday to do things I don't want to do
and that was fine when I had you to come home to
now when I walk through the door I hear silence
nothingness
and Lonely isn't really meant for anybody
but here I am

"Don't give up on me," she wrote
As if that decision was ever mine to make

I'm standing around.
Waiting.... for something?
I'm starting to think
that it isn't coming.
The rain just falls harder.
The sky just grows darker.
But I'm not getting any stronger.
My muscles ache.
My heart breaks.

While you're so far away
These words I want to say
Please don't forget me
While you're sailing the sea
You cross through my mind
With you I hope to find
Happiness
Until I lay down to rest

I can't believe my heart is accepting someone else over you. I can't believe I decided to leave you after all the fighting I did for you..


I guess it is time babe.
and I won't even call you babe anymore.
#Surreal

It is time for me to leave all the pain behind.
It is time for me to live a future and not a fantasy.
It is time for me to just LIVE, without waiting for you, pleasing you or even loving you.
It is time.

You came into my life all of a sudden
Like a rainbow after a storm
And all these feelings make me wonder
If love is ready to be born.
Your eyes remind me of a place
So dear, I used to call it home
And every time I see your face
I feel as safe as in a dome.
I can’t wait to see you again
To stumble on my words and be a fool
Your beautiful smile can stop the pain
That’s making my life so dull.
This pain will stop me for asking the words
And continue hiding behind my boring clothes.