i am assigned a mission of imminet threat. i dress nice to hide my blind side of power. can you trust a double agent that has so many side o life? would you be crazy enough to follopw along in my danger i put on. i see no threat expt my only objective is to protect you with my bullets. i can be the master of diskys and a blink of and eye vanished. im blacm and white that wathes from the shadows seeing the world turn up side down from my own prospective. i have the scares of bullets that peircd. i have the looks and the guts to fight my way to the vary top.

are you cazy enoughtto take my hand and follow ordes to save the one you love
cause the tucs dosnt always hide your eye color of lies

i have a room so what we have doors to shut in peoples faces when were angery.
what about shutting the door so you wont get ******* at by mom and day cause your stereo is to loud. isnt that the point tho. i play my stereo  so loud to drown people out so i dont have to hear screaming fighting witch wastes my time. why wast your breath when you can slam the door on that persons nose and break it.

we have doors for a resone cause it shuts away the anoying *** holes who you don't want to listen to

lay awake with nothing to hold you away from the keys in the ignitions cursing  letting all of your night mars let lose free. i see no chance to go fast.  every curve around the windy mountain roads.  driving fast letting the wind flow threw picking up your own soul  . flying threw shifting every feeling that high daze. letting my stereo play louder not paying my own attention flooring the gas peddle. nothing is a daze cause i have no limits i can't break. driving fast threw the night with nothing to hide as i turn up my music blasting all the vibrations shattering all the windows in my spider gt. no stopping letting lose all your demons lose before you get trap'd into life that you have to settle down. this feels like i can't escape but i rather drive faster that i would realize before my own dream that brings me back to reality. when life is so ******* ******. my daze  shows my thrill of anger with no regrets. just like i am following my dead heart.

Ever step I take will set in motion innovative ideas. It will be easy to dissapear from what scares me the most. What words would you even considering saying when every door room or fallen millitary bunker.  No threat only walking into a wear house discovering pools of blood with hacked up dead some decapitated so luster choking on there blood.
Why walk when you could run the miles to stop the master of desciz.


Nothing seems to be a possible when you you use urban mind as a deadly weapon.

We aren't machines we are human not a Droid.


No we dont weapons we just have to create havik. No blood she'd only mental ideas that will pull the plug of the demons eyes

we first meet under the pink cheery blossom tree your beauty has stolen my own mind controlling me like your hypnotizing ways. your looks have made me go blind but it turns out i really wasn't love just your manipulative eyes. i have lost my soul because of you i'm now losing my mind in insanity that will make me crash down like a plane diving out of the highest part of the earths suffocating lies. i had a feeling this wasn't meant to be. this feels like a dream but is it real or all just a ******* up lie. is there any way to find to escape or is this life going to explode with war and fire fight that will never end. how did it come down like this when we meet i thought you were just a normal girl but my fear has taken it all out. i don't know how  to look away cause your eyes have locked on and controls my brain blinded by a fake image that will never fade. this love has brought all my fear up for you to play on me. i might lose my mind you took my life and tour it up till i lose it into psychotically insanity.. i wish i could have made that mistake and kept flowing  down the road so i wouldn't have this happen to me at all. i wish i could grab the change to really believe that you weren't to good to be true. you are the biggest mistake you have taken my blind identity that i just want to scream at all of you *** hols. your lies have taken all my breath and drowned  me to death.


that hot cool summer day i thought this was going to be true but what i wasn't able to do was tell you that i will bring all the ******* down on your lies.


i knew it wasn't meant to be but i let my guard slip. so theirs nothing anything more to say when i have to bring this house down stopping your beauty that tricks people into love when its all your mind games. it was never meant to bee.


this was the mistake of a fake identity that blinds the ones who fall in your trap.

i knew it was never meant to be just a suffocating mistake no one could ever escape from.

i cant see any thing in front me. i dont understand cause nobody could find me.
deep down on a mountain range. i dont know how far to keep runing cause the weather keeps change every time i let my mind run free. im not afraid of what will run into me on the rest of my mind down memorie lane.  the foggy mist getting thicker heavy'r forming rain clouds. now is going to rainon me cause this terain seems to get more steep as we go. i think im lost with no direction to go. my writers block has came and now its gone .this weather is old i want to make it rain with a sun shine threw the trees. i have lost my track of where my life has gone. i need to let my mind losen its grip of my hearts content to write a love note to you telling you im alive and insane.

there is no point to let go of your own fear that keeps you safe.

im tired of being traped like a animal in a cadge. let me out to take to the streets.
let me roam around exploring what i need to see. nothing cant hold back when you hold my anger back. you push back me ill attack you slashing you apart. set me free to go insaine let me o free in this world of mistery. let me free so my viloence  wont be come like my long claws scaching down the chalk board. set me free to learn how every lifes misterys. set me free to enjoy the littel things .let me free cause im not a animal that is tame. im a animal witth dangerous claws that can slash you apart. set me free to take off  running. set mee free so i dont **** you when you lock me away

laying in  your girl friend in a grassy feild with a cool summer breez under the night sky.
we found the perect moment to let our mind fly away when we go high the full moon looks like a psychadelic swirl misting in my eyes with just illusions that ***** my mind up but getting high under the full moon. just that theres no fear to bee seen or pain to feel just throwing the reality of life ******* that follows us home at the end of the day

i dont care if i was shot or almost dead. these last words have said my true mind. what turnes life inside out. but im going to take the pain on. you mean more to the world ill be the wings that hold you safe. you are my most prized possestion. i will fight to keep you safe to move along. im just your guardian angel that will take all lifes danger till i die to help you threw lifes games.

my storie isnt really that important. i dont want things to hurt you.  to me your just a glass vase that holds the perfect mistory

society is scared of peopls big ideas.  they all have small wispers saying they cant change the ideas of the ones put in place !
this world should be afraid of me cause i have ideas that could free the ones who had nothing wrong they did.
this world should be afraid of me cause my ideas are strong and officiant and will throw the leader out of his game.

im not crazy or insane. but i will lead one idea till the coruptness ends and no more lives get taken away.

if you want me to go insane on you try me cause i wont let people suffer cause peope ith ideas have ideas that can change the torture and blood shed.


ill go complet ****** on all  of your ***'s till you take the ideas of chang for a better way of life

my life has been great my best friend who is my savior.
you have protected me when the world has be came a danerous place
we travel with only our note  as well with a change of clothes
you left me for a whole week with no no note
i have tried  calling you but u your voice mail said you have
i had to come out in the dangerious world
you finally got here back. you never said any thing you just gave me a blank steare.

i start tearing up cause i feel why ou are quiet
tell me you didnt sell your soul to the devil

hours go by when i start to cry i hope you we ok


he said to me he is dying
he said it was cancer that have arrested him in life
he told me he will stay with me till that day comes fi final day
i said why did you you not tell me you wernt okay
he said he didnt want to scare me
he told me he will show me how to survive in this internal hell.
my tear drops drown my words.
pls dont go i dont have the skills to trust my deal

i just cant telll you my broken broken self

you told me that some day we will meet again some day

your my only famiy i have been abandon
you wonnt be alone



i cant stop crying for every memories you and me made to the chapter book closing the end.



i know i have to be strong srong for you but im scared to be wondering the world alone .


i know that i am scared cause i have been abandoned.


i let my demons run wild the the dark street during the night like starting a wil fire



you have been my sworn protector


but you cant escape your life
you seem like your in pain

you told every thing will be okay even when my vary last day ill all wayd be with you.

i have lost the family that i had now your leaving me to a battel you cant survive
i dont know how to talk in society. you have tought me well.

i dont know where to go when you leave

i love you just hold on tight long enoth to learn to survive th worst of societys games

I hear the expression a glass full or half empty.


I feel my heart only pumps the red wine we drink to fill in the darkness of our soul


I'm insane but I might just be drunk from all the dark rainy days that will stained all the wite clothing you see your self as a reflection of death showing your life has no hope.


What kinda blood pumps your heart white wine or red.

What kinda stains run your life.

Do you pick your life delicious or do your wine that flows threw vanes chose all you wants and needs.


Are we both crazy are we deranged are we all insane or are we just riding the free ride of drinking our hopes away or are we stronger that we might feel or be.

My mind has the words but my heart is to hurt to speak the words.
Later nights ***** or wine my pen pencil is still stuck on the deepest thoughts in my mind.

Mother I fearing you'll never know I love you.
Every time I write. my life seems to fall deep into the darkest shadows you'll never be able to catch me.



My emotions run wild like the Cristal tears I shead breaking down.

I see now easy way to chase the words I could of said before you slammed the door and left me.


I always said I loved you but now it's like trying to chase a dragon with no intention of being found.


I feel the burning singing pain from the ashes of my own heart breaking down. Just sinking away only wanting to say .

I LOVE YOU HOPING YOUR LOVE ME BACK KNOWING I'LL NEVER LET YOU BE SCARED IN THE NIGHTMARES YOU RUN FROM.



I CAN'T KEEP CHASING MY DREAMS EVEN IF IT'S LONLEY.

I HAVE TRIED TO CHASE YOU MY LOVE BUT THE WORD HAS NO MEANING NO MORE.



THERE WILL NEVER BE ENOUGH TO TIME FOR MY MIND TO TELL MY HEART IT'S TIME TO SPEAK TO THE WORLD EVEN THOUGH THE PAIN AND SCARED HAVE A MIND OF THERE OWN TO HEAL WITH EVERY BREATH YOU WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO WRITE DOWN OR CHASE.


I AM BROKEN MY MIND HAS THE WORDS BUT MY HEART IS THE ONLY THING THAT WILL MAKE MY VOICE SPEAK REACHING THE TRUTH.


I LOVE YOU

My loving aunt has passed away in peaceful arms.  Her voice soft and warm. Her heart had all strong intentions even when bad things seemed to run loose. Her character was like a dragon  with bold ideas.

She was strong and  never let go but years went by and she grew more loving ing wise  he peacefully passed away in her sleep with no pain or fear.



My aunt was a sovont always trying to improve the lives she had intentions for positive change.




RIP MY AUNT BETSI

Being the one in society fearing the mistake u have shown. being a vary antie social outcast all ways looking over your shoulder being kinda crazy allways making sure no one can make a big circle around you with a simple text. always fearing that your the cent of attention like speaking in a huge crowed choking on every word! what can you only do? put your hood up and turn  your entire head phones up really loud so you can drown the scared jittery feeling away. walking in society is step by step hoping no attention is at you. how you survive is what you need to do to make you you from the rest of the others. the key is my music my head phones my huge baggy hoodie with my hoodie up drowing your self in a song that makes you finally feel alive. music has saved my life every min of societys rules.


SO go **** your self (SOCIETY) come find me whn you can handle the (REBLES) who wont take you **** any more!!!!!! would you?

As i sit on my knees its vary clear the pain will never leave the sadness willl keep playing with your heart your life will flash in front of your own existence. The cold chills that run down your spine. The love you lost leaving you numb and deeply hurt and broken. Addiction you fill the emptiness deep inside your soul. You tired there no point of careing when everything you creat gets destroyed by people during the day. The money you make seems to slip away when you fall inlove. Control overe you with now escape you want to be loved and held tightly cuddled. But dose love really even exists dose it even have meaning dose it have any real feeling. I have dreams i seek nomatter how hard i work everything around me just crubbles im left to clean up all the broken peices




I want to be loved i want to feel what real but this world is just filled with artificial life

i speak with a light slalom tone with not threat nor fear. when i speak i only hear the heart of caring that will set free all the trap'd souls that have walked restlessly not able to feel free. when i talk my soft tone voice heals the broken  ****** ones. no one should fear me when theirs nothing to be angry  about. this world i have nothing to fear i am just hear for one reason that can pick up the fallen till i can run till the riots become less over run that will stop the death. i use my soft tone voice to heal to make my own statements known to the public. you can take my and ruin my life.  i'm not a threat to public life i'm more a raid of normal people and society itself. i now that my down fall will destroy every thing comes crashing down with no survivors even allowed to escape. my down fall will be like a nuclear melt down. nothing in my path will  be left. my soft tone voice will leave a mark on this world before i will let go and fall releasing every thing losing what the point of trying on reality. i may be broken destroyed hurt life less even soul less but i will never let go till i make my mark and impression on society even tho i'm scared as hell to be with big crowds  and people normal people scare me when i don't trust what things will happen to me in the end .

what a night with friends just partying with no sence of time or tiredness. every night you go out and try new things that will throw you out when you find your self waking up with no memore. you feel great with no reziliance of the angers that will take your  moral confedens. you just feel free and a rebel to your parents. every night you are out all night with just images that bring laughter and giggels. evr night you find your self with a  new thing writen on your body lipstick  kisss all over the white shirt.  but that one night you feel this thought that thought frezzes every thing. is this real. nothing makes sence and it is all clear you have became the person that you promised to not let out.
all the thrills grow but your mind is to ******* over to even realize that this isnt you.

your girl friend is scared to death about you. yeah

yeah life's thrills have turned you into a mess. your girlfriend finds you passed out on her front stoop with a note you wrote please save me?

life;s thrills is all fun and games before you get that thought every one who loved you are extreamly scared for you.

love is one thing but pushing away that and going insane leves another lie tht you said this wont ever be me.


yeah LIFE"S THRILLS HAVE DESTROYED YOUR LIFE AND EVERY NIGHT YOU WENT OUT YOU PUT ANOTHER LIE ON YOU?

LIFE"S THILLS HAVE NO BOUNDRIES BUT WHO DO YOU SEE YOUR SELF REALLY LOOK LIKE?

LIFE"S THRILLS have taken my life and flipped it up side down.
your addictions to the little things have made you look like ****.

no sleep exept sitting on your bed agenst the wall with questions of what happened all those nights/

what am i i look like just a scare
what am i to you in this world
every night i uncover my scares that cover every inch  of my body
i feel like a scarey monster every morning
my body is tourn ripped slashed and scared
i dont know if i should look at my reflection
i cant hide for ever run from fear
people cant even look at my face with out just looking at my slashes down my face
i know i am here but i have fear of what will happen to me
im not afraid to show my self out in public
but i have my own doubts of whats next aft my silence turns violent
what do need to say to you when you just looked at me
you spead lies of hate.
you were my friend who turned on me
i walk alone with my headphones turned all the way up
i know you never ment to hurt me so
im leaving you to start over to start new
my voice maybe quiet but i have big heart who could never hurt any one
even if you burgt me behind my back
maybe its just time for me and you to separat till
till the day ends
then we could brake the silence you have mad along your dream ill never be mad
accident and trust issues happen

you just want to let go out all your demons you have to fight the first thing ever day. your phone is vibrating you caller id is your ex GF who is psychotically crazy and will never under stand i will never pick up your ******* calls cause you just smoother me in your lies you spill all over social media ruining every one fun times to be alone to escape this ******* world. this time my life has been crazy all my ex's have tried to **** me. i wish i knew what could be free but every call made every text is unstoppable making you want to go on a rampage killing knocking destroying every thing in your path leaving nothing but a pile of glass and ashes behind. i have escaped reality drinking monster but what ever happened i don't remember why or where or what happened.

you text and voice mail you leave on my phone i will never understand why you will never let it go why i left you.

in me my soul is cold.
in me me eyes show no light.
in me im just a dead creature walking the earth to escape and be ree.
i carry around a box of darkness. can you see the present .
in me im crazy insane and ******.
in me i really doing really give 2 flying ****** about this world!
you may thing im messed up but thts just how i am.
so if you have any words mean to say.
dont ever wast your time cause i dont even hear you.
in me im dead but im some what alive when i turn my music so loud i can drown out the ******* in this world away from me.
in me i really dont care about people who just hurt me.
in me the light in my eyes are just the reflection of you in the distance of your own hate eating you apart.

what have i done. my dreams have been silent.  where do i stand when i breath in fire. aner takes all my enery that  i requier.
nothing makes sence when i cant tell if your liying to me.

i cant even open my eyes for how much im tired. all the weight on me. sufficating me cant you see i run away cause you wont listen to me.

only music have never lied. i have tryed to reach out to you.

but im tired of you not caring so i set this wold on fire
my lungs fill with tirer

whats the last thing is i breath out fire with your name on my list

i have crashed in to the middel of the desert. i have lost hope since theres nothing out here to save my words to write my fear of dying. i feel like im spinning in my own memories that fade away. i keep seeing the same patch of rocks. i dont know but i need the cool shad befor i fall over. i could keep walking but theres no chance of sivilization so maybe ill scream and go crazy.  i keep walking the sand rocks. but its just the circles that trapme in my own insaine liitle game. the wild greens i ate have mad me additted to rhe barries witch bring a high.  the heat grows stronger. i even wonder who i am since theres no name to even know me. the san feels nice on my feet but the sun blisters my patciants its own self.  i feel like i am going in cicles  when i dont know who the **** i am. my madness has grew and my addition to the barries made time stop.

Nothing there just the color blue

Seeing deep in my eyes you won't know how to realize I am dead inside hollowed out. I am traded in  glass prism. I look like every thing was hit and beat.
I cant think when fire ran wild turning my tears into shards of glass


My eyes are cold and dead but so is my heart


I lay broken with the pure tears making the world fall apart



I see out my eyes nothing but blood she'd only the sick and twisted of society's games.



My reflection brings all the darkness and plays it out my krystal eyes



Dead or alive you never would know what dark and twisted it to look in my eyes

i'm insane people say cause i stand alone away from society.
but i don't have any fault line. i'm not ashamed of what happened last time.
it was all of us that comitted in the act of our lives.
if we stick to gather we wont lose our minds like maybe tomarrow.
falling out of the group becomes the weakness that will make our minds go completly insane.
where do i stand when we all split away from the group.
why did we all split up cause i be came antie social agenst all that we stood for.
why did you want to bring me back to start a new group to become strong again.

when we all split we all made a fault that broke the ties that we made but now its all lies that we created to hide away to move one with life

I lay threw a field of flowers stuck in a inreversable daze watching the world turn from night to day. Rain may come violent storms pass threw watching my younger self fade away threw the existance of being high no pain no fear nor anxiety no panic. Just relaxed in the worlds words seeing life play down as lifes like a card game. Or just watching the world turn and evolve


The smoke in my lungs fill my mind with lose thoughts no regrets no pain just the feeling of comfortable

i cant keep up with all theses faces in my eyes. i cant keep up when all i want to rip my hair out and scream my lungs out.
all the papers in life you might as well just signe  your soul away with out reading the following dangers. what would i say when i have finally snaped and went crazy.
my life is quiet and tranquill. but my mind is screaming in hell like i plane that has lost contole and is spiralling out of control.
i dont show any emotion but my mind is screaming from the new waves of hell that has unleashed a dark enity over me that will sufficat any one in its path..

every exam in my way makes me want to go insane and lose controll just being low means you cant rise but i cant keep up with the pase but theres nothing tat lies a head just a black obiss that never ends of hell.


my mind is breaking and all i want to is to tear apart any one whoe will slow me down.

i know i am crazy insane psychotic and thrill seeking.

all i kn0w is my mind is screaming with no regret so **** the rest im going to set this world on fire even if my mind is screming to make the point of your own demize.

when the moon is full so are my eyes. when winter seems to be around the corner. something dies in me. a small pach of flower's when it grows cold so dose my soul. when it rains it floods and rip's apart the nartral beauty that lyes in me the gental feeling grows heavy and horrable. what dead floweres in me is whn im dead in side

all there is stress in this world
every one losing control
this world has gone insane
but i remain calm
i stay in the same set of mind
i have no fear or sham
i will lose it when you put every thing on me
i know i losen up my mind
when you come find me
i dont know what you want from me
but i cant keep up with these games
no mater how far i go
ill always need to losesn up my mind
go go flexiable
im probly going to go comepletey insane for all these problems this world can give

Why do people say my heart will write all my thoughts out like  the addicted drugs flowing threw my Bains.


Why do we bring beauty prospective in dead heat of summer when everything dues of water.

Why do people say to me my russian blue eyes match a vary stormy m9nth of the rain storms.


WHyde be in hand of a angel that will make your wrists bleed.



Why summer than cold weather with rain.


I feel like I'm not going insane when I can spread my wings and write all my stories to my life experiences.


Why should we look at summer when cold and rainy weather brings new life into  equinox.


My left hand might be my weapon but violence shouldn't be risk when your only escape is being bathed into the cold rain filling up all your cuts broken bones brussis.


The rain will save us from rushing into danger with out fear.


Let me rain so I can bring my next generation back

laying wake every night with long never ending thoughts. of the one person who has been your sworn savior that has kept you safe has came stumbling in the door ritteled with bullet hols. holding him with his blood streaming down your arms to the ground. tears start to fall hearing his last words say you are safe now u dont have to keep running. seeing his dark shad of blue eyes slowly fad away that kristal sparkle fade his words slowly say u will be okay? i said how will it bee along with out u? he sai youl see me some day again. never forget i loved you. this world has nothing but danger that hangs over. my tears stream down my face as the rain starts to fall no one can see them! digging a grave to put my savior to rest with just silence that fills my head. nothing matteres any more. my family an every one lost the fight to protect me the shadow creature. now i dont have any one to be with? his last words fell steep and slowly in to silence nothing changes when u can never stop crying

Im not  afraid to speak my mind
im not afraid to stand for what write
im not afraid to fight to survive
im not afraid to rebel agenst the corrupt
im not afraid to get beat or ****** up
im not afraid to lead the scared
im not afraid to stand my ground
im not afraid to show support
im not afraid to ******* up
im not afraid to speak the truth of the lies
im not afraid of being called crazy
im not afraid to show no fear for the ******* that stab me in the back

and im not afraid to get the **** beat out of me so my friends can escape

im not afraid to show you what i can do

so world try me im not afraid of the ******* the mother ******* the ******* the corrupt society.

so come at me im waiting

have fun world cause im a fearless person who is willing to stand agenst the tide

HAVE you felt that magical feeling deep down. (LOVE) is a dangerous thing to play with. just like fire! whats the point of love when (LOVE) is nothing but a word that lies. having that feeling you will have the chance to find the one. even tho u will end getting burned for that mistake u made! (LOVE) has no meaning when this world we live in is nothing but corrupt ******* that stab you in the back with no regret!  don't let (LOVE) take your freedom to (HATE)! revenge shows your week side come out. blood shot eyes looking at you from your dark side. (LOVE) is a mistake that puts putrid taste rotting anger. in this corrupt world you cant trust any one who has burnt you in the past![ANGER] solves nothing but your self image and who u really are! dont be the mistake that ends up burning you in the end.every steady day keep moving.  and show this ****** up world that you wont let any of this mother ******* **** ruin your life. be who u want to be kept saying to your self you are the important one even tho anger has burned you ahead of time! never leave or lose your self. (FIGHT) to keep u safe roses will be placed on the ones who were hurt!

My mind is broke my heart screams with tears in can't cry out. My regrets follow me pouring nothing but a dreary rain cloud  pouring Frigid rain soaking me down to the bone till I go insain.  I wish I could of told you inside I'm slowly wasting away just like a graveyard filled with rotting rusty  machines.
I wish I could of told my mom is really needed her when I had the darkest days where I felt like I was suffocating.

Every ******* ******* thing I nevery told or should of said enstead  of  holding and hiding my life mistakes.

My every wound seems to fall deeper and my heart feels so heavey with all my battles I problem killed to breath.

My regrets just keeps me from stopping I rather run.
My 25 regret it wish I was able to keep strong but I feel like I rather not necessarily there for  my famly.

Butmy biggest regret is my fear of losing my mom or dad in the night if they pass away threw there sleep I'll let be broken sending me to pack a back and leave my fear is I'm bipolar and I'm scared or losing them. My every word doesn't seem to matter only my creative thoughts do.



I am filled with wounds scares all from my every single regret that is like the darkness or the smoke from cigarettes.


I am broken to the point I'm unfixable.
So I just drag myself and long taking blow by blow making me weaker ad time goes on .
I  know you have to tell your life stories bit shut the **** up if you see or I tell you my life story  you'll problem drown your self in your own tears if you look at me you'll not bear able to but stair so don't tell Meveryone our ******* story  look at my broken mind body tell me if you can fix the years of the he'll that consumed me killing me hashing my voice where I couldn't scream or breath I was traded into ****** silent only that funny side I was torched till my lungs burned with hate

So don't tell my your Bulls **** life stories just look at me and try not to drown your self in your tears just listen and know I'm note strong enough to to be fixed

My biggest regret is I'm scared to lose my mom and dad I don't know if my last Batley ids strong enough to  hold I might just shut down and fall apart

I am broken and unfortunately unfixable

My heart has shattered from the relation **** u and me are in. We fight all night but deep down in me I try and try to hold back the teats I never knew I had. Looking up in the sky just want to know if I'm just a dream I couldn't escape. My emotions feel unreal when all I show is your lies that break me tear me apart.


Shattered from your hope destroying my life

dfing threw the night when my radio played. when i drive i dont talk i turn my music up real loud. so we can just enjoy what we stand for. my stereo was stolen. i pick you up and we go for a ride. how far idk where we going. any where we want. but breaking the silence forces me to feel all these emotios. my music turned up to the point where it cant get any higher. when i drive i drive in silence to enjoy life.  i hide between the up rise from riots. i want t escape from what has drained my thoughts. .

the only escape from society is driing with music blasting out my speakers loud.i drive with no talking just scilence. if you know what i mean. i my lungs fil with air and deflate with fire spitting out my burt soul in anger.

when u look at your own reflection. what do u really see. a mistake or a broken record that just skips on the needle going round and round. what thoughts play into action when u think u see whats really not there. the dark thoughts that linger around your sleepless nights laying awake. laying in bed all night awake wondering if every time u look at your reflection what might be next with the darkness in your thoughts. what do you say when you go a whole day silent just pondering.  every time u see your refection  what do u see to accept what natural beauty you have of your self all along.

I lay awake all night watching the ceiling fan spinning around lost deep in my thoughts. my music is playing as i i lose my self in words i can't really know how to say. walking threw the day i have no way of knowing what might hit me next.  this world is unknown that i really don't know what to say. my fan spines around every night but i lay away just thinking what will happen the next day to prepare for the attack that will never be kn own of . summer is hot but i have so many hopes a dreams i needed to get.  social  and society has there fair share. but life has many things i just can't understand with out being scared. normal people scare me I don't know why. but i will never quit trying to stand my ground to speak my mind  when this world should listen to me for a change.
I might be odd or weird or insane or psychotic? but i just want this world to listen to me so i can maybe make a change to society making it easy'er to let the ones  who have been hidden in the shadows to let there voices be herd. all day i ether sleep or meditate with my thoughts of the black magic voodoo i will play on your life flipping your mind out of controls. I lose my hope but that doesn't mean i'm crazy. but my one side is a voodoo black magic. practice. i have power to flip this world up side down. i cover my self in protection with the darkness i can play or lay releasing out all my demons reeking  hayrick on all my enemies who have cross my path. every night i lay awake with my girlfriend cuddling  till we both fall asleep. my love has never forgotten. But i have been dead with dreams that will never show up when all hopes break away.

The only thing of really point is i have a girl in my life that we will set the world with new ****** ideas that people are so scared of like innovative to change the world from what has been already been tested.

All hopes will die when i have already tourn apart broken with so many trust.

I might be out of my mind but i want the world to listen to my voice to change the places that will end to fall

This world i have grown up in my own battles that only leave my anger behind burning down my destruction of ashes. my mind is always is searching for new things and many answer's that i wont to finish the quest. i don't follow society's rules when i am stronger that this world that i face every day. my eyes only see what hell is even left in flames. i'm to crazy to care enough to understand your ways. i feel like a relations ships are nothing to me. I don't thing i could breath every time i make my hellish ways to be tricked into dating or wasting my mind on day dreams that will never become real i truly believe. The good looks  you try to show make my mind relapse of trap'd mixed minds just like this world filled with nothing except your own pain you will have to endure on the next  ride when you take my hand. Life is short but i'm still alive. i'm my own crazy psychotic self all over my time every one. every rose i have picked all the blood that *****'s my hands bleeding all over just like when you stab'd me in the back at night with your own white rose making it match with my  ****** red rose that screams out its ****** covered beauty. in the lake house with the sun roofs i see the pretty crimson red i remember seeing you that day i lost you to suicide. my own hellish ways make me me i refuse to follow the crowd but i rather revert and make my ground dis all the rules society has played to me like my own ways i will never let go my ways expect when you have the power or the guts to stop me down my road of of ripping out this world leaving every thing in a pile of glass and ashes.

I will no regret my hellish ways that's my nature even being Russian i'm just me a really insane mental cray person ill never change who i really am.

Not now not ever

the darkness begains to spread like sickness i have never wanted to see. people turning in to savage animals when the riots begain fire breaks out so dose blood shed. the one peace full small sleepy town has became the place where you cant hide anywhere. the ones who are traped is me ad my life. this madness grows bigger and bigger. swat teams start to come from every direction hellicopters heavey armered vhicles even tanks. what was once a place for peace has broken out in to blood shed with no escape. all you hear is guns  and screaming all around. me and tho oness who have hidden deep in the shadows of the buildings just watch as the anger spreads. who even knowes if any of your parents have even survived. what was once started cant be stop'd by force alone. no matter what shows is only blood pools lining the street. only 2 nights there were no blood shed but just watching threw your hide aways you just see the people who was taken to violence ending something so corrupt that it will only take the ons who follow in the shadows to take down the danger of threat. what was once a simple sleepy place now is complete ruins. theres no place safe to step out in to the light exept for us to follow the plan to fight with no violence but psychological taking down each part slowly. even if it means if e grow anger? but thats how the sickness spreads slowly turning people in to vishious animals. what me and my friends who hid in shadows the image is to grusim ****** dead bodies lay all around .

this sickness spreads when you turn anger in anger corrupts and the darkness begains to take its place in its down fall. th only darkness in me is when i dont know what to do expet turn evil in for revenge


the darkness turned in to and epidemic taing my nerves. i may be a show creature but  i know when darkness corrupys and spreads like a wild fire
such as riots bring out violence!


what was once a small place has been destroyed by a corrupt rummer.


DARKNESS IS THE IGNITION ANGER IS THE BACE AND U JUST HAVE TO LIGHT IT TO SPREAD IN TO CORRUPY BLOOD SHED WHERE NO ONE SURVIVES!!!!!

only the ones who escapt and working to take down the spread to make peace again

I have no way to tell you how much waging wares I have to fright.

I have no way out to set free my mind.
I can't find love cause you will whisper to me you hate me screaming every. Mistake you made chasing me away.

I will never beloved even tho my heart is screaming in fear hoping to never be alone.  


I wish I could scream my hearts content telling you how much I don't hate you even if you leave me behind.


Even tho my sad heart is going to be lost I will be hoping for someone to know what Linley Ness and sadness feels like.


My heart screms with hope and lost thoughts that drift away.

when you have had it all all you want to do is escape from what grips may pull you down to your own memories you want to erase out of your mind. when it rains it washes off the words that sticks deep down in you. but what ideas that have saved your life in the past calming you down.

but when i walk this earth in the rain all the punches and blows only leave bruses but that won't let me speak my mind whit my calm soft spoken words.

my voice is soft in a tone nor threat. but when your word lie i may lose control but the cold rain cools off my paciants.

the cold rain drops make steam off my skin when  i have no idea.


but in this worl my one friend is rain cause it makes life all around us live breath.

i have one walking path to make my path to show every one who needs to find away to survive. even if it mean running threw hell taking the chance to stand up and run till we have found all of our own safe haven.

i have no fear wit what comes next cause its just how this unforgiving world that it shows from its darkest secrets. but what should bee said only when your pushed away from society that you have betrayed from.


your shadows grow long when your eyes turn pure red as evil consums your telling you theres nothing to feel hurt my societ'es sufficating grips that has no end to..


but i have ran threw all the stages and here i have is me writing my own stories of my life that passes by with hope no regrets.


nothing can hold me back or catch me to imprison me.

when you saw me all alone. have you realized that i am like a loaded gun that will fire with out a saft'y. have you seen the world behind me. have you realized my life has set the world in a slow spirle. do you know who i really am.

i am a dangerious elemental that can reek havicke that will rip souls out in its path.
u dont want me cause im a dangerious force that will **** you all if you try to harness my demonic power.

what you have seen is what your own mind has seen for you. do you want to see my gift or do u just want to watch me set my ideas lead this world in to flames.

do you want to know me or do u just want to follow my path of hell.

my leaded ideas have set this world free of hell and fire and a world of unleashed demons.


my life is a demonic power .

this world has been set on fire threw the eyes of a dictator.

do you want to see what i have hiden the plane to take down the corrupt ******* that have stabed me in  the back left me to live in the dark but my life has set the plan to unleash my creations to destroy and set the evils of them all..


every one who has been taken and never see again will be seen.

but my idea is to free the souls who have suffered the hand of hell.

your questions ask me well but in this world this world earth should  be afraid of me cause i have a heavy force that is armed and deadly. so people who need the hand to free them will bee saved from the heavl'y armed force working and planing to destroy  
all your fuckking corrupt ******* that has made a huge mistakes.

i see your following but am i now even ensane for you..


my identity has hidden my surprize for all you ******* **'s

cause my secret identity is going to say this bold state ment (IM A PSYCHOTIC RUSSIAN SO ILL RIP YOUR LIES YOU SPRED)

Why do we we try into darkness
Why dose our lives seem so prepretty and deaselt.

Why dose darkness seem better than light

How far do we go when time goes out

Why do we have to suffer lies we make up

I see nothing but broken glass with a ****** hand with broken clocks.


How long am I going to survive.


Why should II've with fear

Why date why try why care why even keep going


When broken glass and broken clocks

you see the boy at high school you send wispers all around tearing him up inside. he say nothing as you just push him around. every day he is scilent and never even makes a sound. that loaner is me. i just watch the world go bye. i dont have any thing to say expet i am going down the road of life solatuid shunning away people. that boy you watch every day he grows moe quiet but has a weapon of his choice. his words that shoots like bullets hitting tarkets with kinds solam words that lighten the impact. that boy who alawys walked home alone every day. he has no words exept (his big blue)eyes that make the statmenst that keept him sane.

my limits have no fear
cause under my skin i scream
what do i do when some one took my only hope
all i can do is scream is when my own life flashes
is there any thing i can do
expet ponder for half and hour
will i be alon to fight this world alone
how many days o silence do i have to take
where do i stand when i feel like im drowning threw my or stereo
whats next exept the memories of shadows horriblal
life has limits of silence

i dont know here i stand since all i can do is scream ponder for hours of something great.

am i alone

i can paint every color if i dont like it i know if i dont like it.

i can spray the pain over the imperfections that.
what would i do i this world can be my canvious.
i might be be stupide but i am running free. all the paint i have spprayed over you has covered up on our voice you lied

The shallow feeling every breath i take every step i take i have to time to break intime making my life collide no matter how far i go nomatter how hard i push my self all i do is keep breaking myself over and over whats left is the tears i want to cry bc noone knows how fare you can push your self till you break leaving nothing but misery and pain so what if scares form that only tells you you reaching your critical breaking point even if people tellyou lies when you are finally broken what is lefft for you

my days are long. but i dont trust trust the words of the con man.
my eyes glow red when i have been lied to by a friend. i told him he digging his grave. the further you play your tricks the deeper you will go.
every lie you said made your own wish to be roting internal hell.
every lie is your life sentence  for how long you want to be draged down to hell. you wont even know what to say cause im an the devil. the deeper you dig is the harder the punishment you put on your self.

no one trust you any more no one knows why you try to talk when people have found your ***** book of lies you wrote down every day to save or get out of what means to your own world.

every lie you said has people becomeing angery for you the biggest mistaky you have became your not real your just the lies you put on your self.

every one els is living we but you have dug your self deeper deeper in to hell. with nothing to even save your self.

I feel like I am a evil demon I walked the path and I never got to the other side when truth has hit me harder that killing. Life fame not me I live in he'll watching the world collapsed. I know I'm completely insane but I don't have a stories my only thing I am is a force of nature that will end your pathetic Lillie game.

You told my life to expose the truth well I'm insane and a force of your worst nightmares