this is the first day that
my grandma
didn't
get to live
since a really long time ago

what can i possibly say?

i want to curl up inside my own fist right now
like one of your old matryoshka dolls
that i used to play with
and put you inside me so i can make it all better

i wanna recall all the thoughts
that once were yours
i want to know you why didn't i get to know you better

i stayed away im sorry im strange i get sad a lot but i loved you still

she had once
been
a person
but
now
she isn't and
i can't stop shouting these rips from my eyes

the sky is falling in reverse
expanding deep into the universe
oh distant star beautiful from afar but lost of hope when up close; I think the sky is falling in reverse

It's a wonderful night to die.
The sky is stark from the lights around,
And below my feet are traffic sounds,
Wherein I hear a stricken cry.

It is a wonderful dawn to die.
The sunrise gives my gray surrounds
A color like the shedding's of hounds.
But my cowardice cannot let me fly.

It is a wonderful day to die.
All about, feelings of love abound,
Excepting me. I am alone as if in the ground.
But I do not want to die.

It is a horrible dusk to die.
The sun sets slowly, beneath the hallowed ground.
Within my mind, I behold the eternal town.
Safe in bed, I sleep alone. It matters not to me tonight.

By:D.E.T

Home alone
I pick up the phone
To call you
To tell you I'm feeling blue

Home alone
I pick up the phone
To tell you I'm sorry
But you don't seem to worry

Cuz seems like you don't care
Can't you see I'm yelling for help
But you can't tell

When you look into my eyes
You said that you have realized
That I'm fine
But can't you see is all a lie
When I tell you I'm fine
I'm basically want to tell you I want to die

I regret
Not for telling I forget
How I felt
As I fell in love

But you torn me apart
When you started
To move on
Even if hurts me I gotta tell you good bye
Cuz you're the reason
Why I am bleeding

Don't tell me to repair
The pain
Cuz it erase
So, please
Don't tell me that
Cuz even if you pet
My head
With that pet
You give me in my head
I feel dead

All I want to do is get the train
To erase this pain
And get lost on the dark
Cuz I see what I thought
Of you liking me
Makes me bleed