This car that takes me
takes me where i should go
This place i have found myself
found myself wanting
These voices in my head
in my head screaming
The gunshot that haunts me
haunts me till im numb
The people here for me
here for me and loving me
They dont seem to hear
to hear my words
These words i cry
i cry for the loss
This loss of my self
my self that cannot become
The silence that deafens me
deafens me to a breaking point
The tears that fall
fall down my cheeks
The dry, burning pain
pain that no one else can see
These fears that i have
i have that im finally coming out to see.

all these voices
screaming
screaming at me

all these opinions
calling
calling for me

all these people
killing
killing me slowly

blackout
the aching panic
loss of control
shaking

speaking
cannot see
voices pounding inside my skull
forgetting everything

Screaming inside
Lying to myself
Living in an alternate world
Caught dusty on the shelf

You left
These cracks on my heart
You're gone
Forever apart

I'm broken
Crossing these lines
Clawing at my soul
Broken inside

This pain in my heart keeps me company
The cigarettes cannot take it away
And even though I try to ask for help
No one ever sees it during the day

At night I draw to release the hurt
Drawing on my arms, my hips, my legs
Tonight I draw deeply
And maybe this will end this pain.

Their Eyes Are Glazed With Sadness
Their Hearts Cannot Feel My Madness
Even If I Scream And Shout
Even When I Am Filled To The Brim With Doubt
They Can't Control Me Anymore
They Cannot Break Down Any Of My Doors
When They Fail To Change Me And Who I Have Become
They Will Give Up, And Resolve To Beat The Disappointed Drum

hurting inside
so terribly confused
stuck by the knife
which path should i choose

i know i love you
but still im scared
i cant be hurt anymore
by the love that just stares

you look at me longingly
with those beautiful green eyes
and i love you with all my heart
but i am scared it is that heart which lies.