Buy one get one free,
Jealousy > headache,
Anger  >acidity,
Hatred>ulcer,
Stress >high blood pressure,
And happiness> peace.
Buy wisely.
20/6/2022

It’s hard to trust in fate when you’re stuck between the start and the progress.
Stuck in a mess, a broken life.

It will fall into place eventually but first you have to fall with it.
Hopelessly, not knowing where you’ll land.
Life is not just outcomes.
It’s filled with inbetween states that are so painful and exhausting.

Trying to trust in fate inbetween.
Are you ever even ending up anywhere that feels ok?
Always in the inbetween, falling slowly into the world where you’ll need to be.
Next for a while before it will all start to change and eventually all fall again.

Hard to keep building when everythings keeps falling.
Even when you’re trying everything, the foundation was unstable from the beginning.

And it will be like that, as long as you’re stuck in this lifetime.
There’s always something not right
You will be destroyed slowly, painfully.
Fighting in the inbetween or upside down spaces.

And when you don’t have to do it alone anymore it might be even harder with someone else.

For Darkness only blinds u ,
For in the dark , your own mind manipulates you ,
Make you hate you ,you will hate yourself
You may feel like you are stuck in time
Doing nothing but causing your own suffering
Not even knowing what's causing it,
But you play a role in your own sufferings
Been too long on my own
Been wronged once or twice
I loved the wrong person
So I  paid a heavy price
Lost my self respect and value
To a person who is full of despise

Big lesson ,Big time
I let my mind flow
Blamed myself more
I don't know how to explain but,
I lost myself long time ago
Now this time I forgive myself
For all the times I forgetting myself,
Letting myself into the darkness,
Even ******* hating myself,
Maybe it is all God's plan
Yet I bet God didn't even know that,
I could be so dumb
To love him more than I can.  
But I thank god for still looking out for me
I believe I got his help was in form of Destiny
I believe I had to had that Call
To save me from the dark very desperately
Now m finding the light
To Enlighten me
My thoughts do get twisted at times,
And I see my way with the light ,darkening
So I tell myself '' What's a fight without some struggles or a fight without putting up a fight''
This fight within myself
To find peace within  myself
To start loving myself
To start healing myself
I will heal
This time for eternity