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Malikah Awan May 2020
Sleep deprived,
No time to breathe, no where to hide.
Awake,
But not conscious.
Eyes wide open,
But no vision.
Thoughts,
But no reason.
Questions,
But no curiosity.
Alive...
But not really.
Malikah Awan Mar 2020
I feel like a stranger in my own body
I lay awake
Feeling like nothing
but a fake
Wondering if it would be painful
to drown in a lake
Pain has already consumed me
I no longer know what I am meant to be
For I am no longer free
I am no longer me
Just..
A stranger in my own body!
Malikah Awan Mar 2020
I'm tired of being told how to live my life
Every step I take is a stab with a knife
I should be able to live as I please
live my life to the fullest till I decease
I should be able to speak what I feel
And allow the pain to heal
But the pain stays there
Another burden to bear
The pain stays unbearable
And I slowly fade
I accept it as fate
But never truly accept
What torture you made my life become
The sorrows I had to try to overcome
Malikah Awan Feb 2020
Control
is what I did not have
Vulnerability
took away my agility
as I stood still
whilst you looked ready to ****

You ignored my moans
And broke my bones
I may not have looked broken
but I was inside;
felt as though I had died
yet I found no peace
in this new-found death

As, though, no physical injuries remained
it was there patched in my brain
forever in my mind
when you did something far from kind
when you did what you did
something I can never forgive

I will forever be broken
as you have never spoken
of what sick thoughts went through your mind
when you did what you did
How I wish I could shove all these thoughts and emotions in jar
and close the lid.

What justified this horrendous act?
That's worse than having your head cut in half with an axe.
But you say nothing;
no remorse
for my internal corpse

So I was broken...

I am still broken...

I will be broken...

Always broken!

— The End —