We once met as strangers
And became friends through time
That quickly turned into lovers
But then ended up as strangers

Alas, the cycle continues...
Until I met you.

The smiles in child's faces,
The laughter in my mother's eyes,
The bright golden sunrays hitting my dark brown hair,
Everybody painted the streets bright yellow,
But you painted it an unfamiliar ,summery, golden yellow.

My body is like an everlasting mountain full of different mountains and figures
Seeing this wonderful sight, I don't realize it's beauty, no matter its size and figure.
Perhaps, i may need another view in order to appreciate its beauty, may be its own quirks and flaws
But, as I may be doing my best to keep this wonderland, I am grateful for it to be serving me and my wellbeing

Beauty is grace
Beauty is patience
Beauty is timeless
But beauty has its own uniqueness
And Beauty is not defined by one standard
But beauty is in all of us, in our own way

In the end, this love was worth it.
In my hand, I wrote all the things I want to admit.
I loved you, I hated you, I admired you.
You were mine, but she was yours.

Your piercing words full of deceit
Were once from a garden of blossoming flowers
Blinded by these false realities of hope and love
I didn't see it coming
The devil was in front of me all along

Confused and conflicted, I ask myself
Why am I trying so hard to be the best
Old memories then starts to come out the shelf
Alas! Here comes the uninvited guest
Telling me I'm worthless, worse than the rest

An unforseen connections of two souls arise
This was a blessing in disguise
Happiness fills her darkest days
An everlasting leisure comes so fast
In which I never knew would last
Two melodies colliding in harmony
A never ending sound that plays eternally

As confusing as it can be
My mind wants to be set free
It maybe as deep as the dark blue sea
Hidden underneath are secrets we all want to see

The candle sits still
steadily in the darkness
The cold wind strikes
making the fire and light vanish from existence

Till our last tear drop falls to the floor
We shall meet again, my friend.
Farewell

Why am I scared?
I'm awake at night
thinking if you cared
Am I right?
For leaving you hopeless
With the words left unsaid
Unseen messages
My thoughts fill into dread
No one to turn to
No one to lean on
I don't know what to do
But I, will see you anon

Conflicting ideas turn into one
That was me
Identities of one was safely undone
As it shall be
The world was telling her to hold the gun
Wanting to set her free
With each word and action done
You can see
The fight that she had won
It was the key

Strolling through atrocious paths
Here I am, Here I am
Day dreaming aftermaths
Here I am, Here I am
Stuck on crossroads
Walking on a tightrope

Chest tightening, she fell.
Eyes watering, she felt shivers on her caramel skin.
A downturned smile, she still laughs.
An everlasting pain, she still stands.

As we count from 1 to 10,
You were finding, seeking and looking for me until,
You found me in a crowd of people
The more I tried to avoid you, the more you liked the chase

And, in an instant, it all stopped
All the minds that have been blocked
Uncovering the veils of illusion was constant
And all suddenly became distant
Feeling stuck inside a box
Wanting to be free, as these chains unlocks

Be my shadow and I'll be your light
Behold the muse to my artwork, singing with delight
The story behind my writing, this is my final plea
Like footprints in the sand, follow me.

The music spirals me unto the room
Moving swiftly, dancing to the beat
Singing softly, whispering loudly
Typing hasty, losing count of time
My heart beats faster, the pressure raises
My thoughts succumb me, and I then resist
Ecstasy fills the room, I continue to dance to the beat of the drums

Blurry visions, clear blue skies
My watery eyes deceive me as I look into the mirror
Distorted faces, mistaken places
Thoughts and questions thinking where and why
Deep breathing, sudden gazes
Looking down these rabbit holes
An endless loop of surprises

And maybe,
when the time comes,
we can be together again.

You use me, replace me, reuse and repeat
With the words you spread and lies so sweet
Discretely I hid the way you mistreat
I was your greatest victim my downfall made you complete
With your twisted words and cover uped lies
I hope you enjoy my biggest suprise

It was the first time I saw you
In somewhere I never knew
Your perfectly imperfect eyes
To which I tried to tell lies

You were killing me inside
With these feelings I tried to hide
I avoided you with all my might
But I can't stop thinking about you every night

These feelings won't go away
As they lead me astray
To a path that leads me to love myself
Being caring and loving to oneself

I learned from you that I should be me
As I found that being myself was so free
Rather than hiding in a mask never to be revealed
The true self that was always sealed

You taught me to be more vulnerable
And not to be so miserable
I learned to do the things I want to do
And that's how I knew these feelings grew

I started to move on from all of the pain
But it was you who I wanted to attain
I still loved you deeply from afar
But these made me have a scar

Your unsettlingly deep and hypnotic eyes
Caught my attention to my suprise
Deep and dark as the ocean sea
Sparkly and dreamy as it is filled with Glee

I get lost in my head, filled with words of doubt and insecurities
Feeling alone in a place full of people I wish to see
Seeing the people I love going away one by one
"I'm ok"

Feeling scared to face my fears, to speak out my opinion to others
People laughing at my insecurities, laughing at every mistake I make
"I'ts fine"

In a sea of stars I see,
A bright light,
Shines blindingly than the others
Full of love and hope

But I am just a moon
A reflection of her happiness
Surrounded by stars but blinded by one
She's the only one I see and need

The calming breeze passes by
Luring me in, soaring so high
Drying my tears in every eye
Looking above to the night sky
Saying goodbye with a bitter lie
Catching my breath as I deny
Perceiving everything in my mind's eye
Wistful belonging as I sigh

The skeletons in my closet wonder
Unanswered questions, I dare to ask
Haunting my ever existing body, it asks and tells
I answer, they stumble and mumble my name
My humbled body slumbers to its death, waiting to awake once again.

So many questions but one stands out
So many answers, a question of doubt
What are these feelings?
These deeply scarred wounds
These bottled feelings
scared to be expressed
Suffering alone in darkness
Loneliness unfolds

Saw a blinding light filled with joy
I'm rushing back to it
Reaching my hand out
Seeking for justice and hope
It shines brightly, blinding my sight
I thought I could catch up to it
But it is to far away
I did best to reach out and see
And finally, I came out of the darkness
Out of my misery