I didn’t know what I was thinking
Everyone around me was drinking
And I didn’t realize I was sinking

Rebrand love as promiscuity
Rebrand fantasy as reality
Rebrand slavery as liberty
Rebrand greed as morality

I don’t understand what the spirits are telling me
I have no interest in what these snakes are selling me
I’m sipping poison and getting lost in the melody
The psychos in charge want to give me a felony

The sorrow we display reflects the sympathy we have, and reflects the shattered vision of a world we will yet have. Our despair is the inverted image of our nobility.

She moved slowly in observance
Her silent stares made me nervous
When will she pounce?
She wants to be chased
I got lost in the race
When I broke her heart,
I couldn’t look her in the face

I see darkness when I meditate
To hide this deep pain, I medicate
To meet my death, I won’t hesitate
From this scarred body, I separate

Everybody is the same
They just watch me writhe in pain

I love her and I don’t know why
She cast a spell and caught my eye
Take my energy bleed me dry
I don’t want to hear her say goodbye
She loves me then flies off in the night
I lose sight of her in the pale moonlight

I don’t vibe with society
They’ve only ever lied to me
To be alone, I’d die to be
Make me **** my sobriety

In silence I can hear god screaming in my ear
I’m still waiting here, I made my intentions clear
My feelings she won’t hear, I think it’s born from fear
Or maybe it’s cuz she’s queer, I stay up all night chugging beer
To fly away from here, I get high nothing to fear
I can’t believe that I’m still here, My red eyes well up with tears

Karmic expenses
Endless depression
Clouding my senses
Hiding possessions
Drug consequences
Hear my confessions

I don’t feel golden,
For my crown is heavy like lead
Some days I don’t get out of bed
And I have this voice in my head

The voice tells me to push forward
To always push forward,
For there is a destiny waiting for me
I can see it unfolding finally

Through years of pain
I called up to the voice
My tortured shouts were in vain
Because all that fell upon me was rain

That rain has since ended
The light that I’ve befriended
Has turned my dark soul to gold.

Her ecstatic radiance
Rivaled the sun’s brilliance
And could set the world ablaze

Her eyes gleamed with intense heat
Desire’s fires reddened my pale flesh
As I dodged embers of dragon’s breath

Running past
city lights
A silent cry
it’s your design
Winter’s grasp
a heart confined
The lonely pain
that haunts
my mind
****** tears fall
from my eyes
Melting dense
walls of ice
Around my heart
it’s yours tonight
Resurrected
under moonlight

Visions of her face are torturous
She controls my thoughts like a sorceress
Her heart’s the furthest thing from virtuous
She takes, she takes, she takes control
Find love before you’re ruined by heartbreak
She’s a pro at avoiding heartache
Snatched my heart and ran away
I pray that she’ll return someday
I’m not ok but it’s ok

Lilith cast a spell on me
I can’t control what I think
I still see her in my dreams
Someone take this gun from me

Her love spell made me insane
Amateur witch ruined my brain
I take drugs to numb the pain
My soul is forever changed

Her purity is beyond my ken
Afflicted are the hearts of men
Truth and blood mix in my pen
Please, don’t let me fall again

Scars on
my soul
and body,
eyes
closed,
I leave
my skin.
Isolation
pain imparting,
tortured
are the
souls of
men.
In the
empty night
I’m flying,
I pass this
gift unto
my kin.
Inside
I feel
like dying,
light infused
with dark
within.

I feel love
I see doves
From above
Kingdom reign

She shows love
I play tough
She shows up
In my brain

Watch her run
I’m no fun
She said “hon,
Your insane”

In the club
Drugs on us
I’m the plug
Heal your pain

She’s looking at me yearning
Yearning to take my time
I can’t stop hurting
Pain pours from my eyes

I’m weak for her, I’m on my knees
I’m Lucifer, she’s an angel, see?
My skin is hazel, green
I’m dead, I can’t be seen
Her love’s a drug to me
I’m a ******, I’m unclean

She pushes me away
And we both weep
Pretend that we’re okay
What I sow, I reap
For her I’ll always wait

Selling the rose she keeps
For a price far too cheap
I need her to know
I would spend my life
The truth’s in my eyes
I don’t need sweet lies
From the past I cut ties
See my heart, no disguise

Does art imitate life?
Or does life imitate art?
Can she see through the strife?
Can she heal my broken heart?

She controls my mind MK-ULTRA
Burning in my own flame like Zarathustra

Her love turns to poison when it’s kept inside
She carries her pain, it’s weighing on my eyes
I think I’ve gone insane and I don’t know why
I lose my brain when I’m between her thighs

Wisdom in her body
My spirit’s like a tree
Growing so high
And feeling so deep

She controls my mind MK-ULTRA
Burning in my own flame like Zarathustra

I know our feelings are dead but they still visit me at night
I stay up high in my bed your ghost stays with me in my sight
I thought when you went away that I would be alright
But that wasn’t true my feelings are blue and our love ain’t right

My ancestors claw at my ankles from their graves
Who knew I’d want to die at this early age
22 cycles around the sun 22 in my grave
Got a 22 against my skull I think the caliber needs to be raised

Raise me from the dead girl
Our love is unnatural
Give me your wings girl
Keep my horns as collateral

My ancestors chose you
I had no say
Do what your supposed to
don’t run away

I know our feelings are dead but they still visit me at night
I stay up high in my bed your ghost stays with me in my sight
I thought when you went away that I would be alright
But that wasn’t true my feelings are blue and our love ain’t right

The shadows are my protector
I’m in lust with a bad spectre
My ancestors they select her
Masculine hero on a ******

Anointed
by copper,
Armed with
blazing lead,
Looming over
corpses,
soaked in
****** red.