I will never forgive you, and how can I
You deprived him of his childhood, of his life
You took away happiness and locked it away in a box
You held his future in your hand and crumbled it
You put a barrier between him and the world
Soon his life was plummeting down towards an empty and cold dungeon, because of you
You already had your fight, and won
You broke his wings, and twisted them off him
Now you’re surrounding him with a wall of pain
Followed by the whip at the hand of your mercy
Day after hopeless day you stand aside and watch
You watch him struggling for every breath
And as each day goes on his will to live weakness
While yours strengthens
His misery became mine
And I had become drunk in my sorrows
But now I am sober
And I will not condone it, not anymore
I have my army of faith behind me
And we’re armed, you see
We have our helmet of hope
Our breastplate of love
And our sword of liberation

Sitting in a room filled with people
And I have never have I felt more alone
Their voices echo in my head
But nothing goes through
I feel the cold wall on my back
Reminding me of where I am
Stuck in the past
Lost in the present
And dreading the future

What do I want?
There’s so much to want how do I choose?
No deep down what does your heart long for?
Well there is one thing I do want
I want to lift my arms up and feel the wind on my face
I want to dance barefoot on the cold grass
And sing like it’s my last day on this Earth
I want to have all the weight suddenly lifted off my exhausted shoulders
I want to go to sleep and not have ever worry come to mind, clogging my head shut
I want to close my eyes for just once second and feel at peace
I want to wrap a silk blanket around my body and take away all the aching it has
I want a veil of pure joy to cover my whole body
I want to look in the mirror and be able to see someone worth living
I want to be a child again

I look around and see the stars
But they no longer seem so big and loud
I see no color
I see no life
I look outside but it’s all black and white
So I try and find a face with a smile
So big it has colors
But all I see is black and white
So I decide to stop for a while

There’s this feeling in my chest
And it won’t let me rest
It’s as if there’s a hole
That continues going deep deep down
I’m like a tree without it’s leaves
Still a tree but not complete
What’s wrong with me
There’s something wrong
But I don’t what
I feel as if I’m in a bubble
That’s slowing running out of air
Struggling to keep going
My heads filled with so many worries
It could fill every ocean and feed every child
Soon there won’t be a me
I don’t know how to be
I keep trying but everything crumbles
God, I don’t know what to do
I’m so scared
Please help me