Have you ever
Felt yourself
Drowning
Beneath the surface
I'll jump
In the deep
End with you
Just know
I want let
You drown
It's the best
Feel so put
It in the dirt
I don't want to
Leave
So don't let
Me go

A pebble in a sea of glass

shattered mind raindrops

fragile as broken cobwebs

sun strong and shadow deep

infinite and fleeting

planet sized in the palm of your hand

belief is everything

and nothing at all

Unfit to be loved
Not even by God
Who’s promise is
Love everlasting.

Unable to heal
From wounds too deep
The scabs that were hope
Are constantly oozing.

Covered in scars
Generated within
There’s obviously no use
In praying for help.

Huddled in corners
of futile existence
The Sun never rises
And rain falls as tears.

The clock never wavers
The moments roll on
And time has no meaning
Unless there is love.

But love is illusive
It’s not bought and sold
It  must be accepted
Or else it grows cold.
            ljm

Living in simulation
We are in illusion
Reality is not in your zone
When the heart is at peace
The petals will fall,
so with the leaves
The knowledge is within
But eyes are not seeing
what the soul knows.

I’m riding on a carousel
I didn’t buy a ticket for.
Each horse’s harness represents
A non-life-ending malady.

The ride will not come to an end
And spins too fast for jumping off,
But I can carefully switch mounts
To ride on something different.

A gilded stallion paws the air
On the far side of the circle
But I can’t manage to get there-
Something’s always in my way.

I can’t get past the Tiger mount
With it’s angry rasping throat
Or by the zebra with a broken foot
To ride the healthy Courser.

I inch my way by the dappled mare
And dare not tough her bridle.
Spotted I already am
And I want to ride a Mustang.

The ride has gone on far too long
I’ve ridden half the Ponies
I haven’t gained the mount I want.
An aged gelding’s all that’s left.

So I’ll ride it ’til the music ends
And the carousel stops turning
I’ll stumble off and turn to face
The fate that I’ve been learning.
ljm

She glances at her beloved from afar, 
Careful not to lock eyes with him, 
Fearing that if she meets his gaze, she might lose herself forever. 
O wandering soul, steady that pounding heart within, 
Once, she was enraptured by a foreign light, 
One that drew her soul from its hidden retreat, 
Now she is caught in turmoil, 
His look, his voice, 
Sets her heart fluttering, 
Leaving her mind tangled in confusion. 
She pens verses about him all day, 
Yet, in his presence, she remains utterly speechless, unable to utter a single coherent word. 
He remains unaware of the effect he has on her, 
So before each encounter, the girl whispers to herself, 
O restless heart, please find your calm.