That girl sitting there
Such a beautiful tragedy
Her body her grave
Her mind a travesty

too ashamed to be straight up
we disguise
to cover the guilt
we say "Red" to show how our inner emotions effect our outward ones
Red
our friends & families won't get it
code word "Red"
pushing through the anxiety of which we call "White"
because if you're not careful, it may cause "Red"

I sought a small space called quiet
and silence found me
wrapped me up with comfort
held me gently with the strength of a mountain
healed me all the way through
loved me as a child
rejoiced and danced
and carried me into eternity

the feeling of your stomach flipping as you ride down the steep hill of a roller coaster, or when you take off in an airplane.
that's the feeling I get when you're around me.
your smile is sweet and extremely contagious.
I get the chills every time you look into my eyes.
you're a beautiful human being.

only I haven't met you yet.
you're just my hope.
my future.
my unknown.
the part of my life I cannot wait for.
where I can wake up and say "mornin" to my best friend.

When she wakes from the daydream
The thoughts she had from before
Buried in the soil
For the daydreams had buried them

Now she walks freely
Forgetting the hurtful thoughts
Now covered with blissful wonder