queen of hearts

queen of hearts Apr 2018

rock bottom's a scary place
but i feel at home here
all the neighbors know my name
i'm not alone here
i forget all of my feelings
when i come here
but i wish there was a way
to forget to run here
cause i hate to admit
to you i live here
and it ***** so bad
i know the way
to get here
and i love the way it feels
when i'm alone here

and if it wasn't for you
i wouldn't know

queen of hearts Jan 2018

the words mean nothing

yeah. i’ve written a lot of things about you. i’ve written a lot of things about a lot of people. and i’ll never let you read them cause they’ll make you think you’re special

#love #lonely #you #nothing

queen of hearts Jan 2018

It’s better that way

let me destroy you
let me let you down
let me let the water run
then let me watch you drown
in my love
I never gave you
all the times I never tried
just let me let you forgive me
for all the times I lied
let me live in silence
let me let you know
that the only thing that’s good for you
is to let me
*******
go

#leave #feeings #lonely #love

queen of hearts Oct 2017

this one was easy

so many
things
i wanna write down
but
i swear
i'm not going to
truth is
i already
hate this poem
cause
the entire thing's
about
You

#you #hate #love #confused #lonely #feelings

Oct 2017

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Drunk on you

I am an alcoholic
Drunk on you
Sober 52 minutes and counting;
Down to the next glass.
You're bad for me,
But I keep swallowing the burn
And I crave you after a long day
After a hard day
After a good day
With every meal
And for every celebration
And to spend those rock bottom moments
On the rocks with you
But the ***** is
You're my whiskey and coke
And you leave me there, with only
My loneliness left down to choke.

queen of hearts Sep 2017

reparation

Please don't let me fool you,
I'm as happy as I pretend to be.
But the smile that cuts you so deeply
is the same one I never see.

My mistakes.
They'll catch up to me
somewhere down the line.
and there's a voice at night
that keeps me up.
but I'll swear to you       I'm fine.

Dangled my love and took it back
so I guess that means I owe 'em
Because that which doesn't **** me
makes me write this    *******    poem

#love #lonely #repair