Someone once told me,
I will never be good enough,
I am the worst,
I ruined them.

And I taught myself the other way round.

When you wish for an end,
Always remember there are people out there faced worst,
And they survived.

When you wish to give up,
Always remember why you started in the first place,
And made up your mind.

When people stepped on you,
Always remember to be strong,
And moved on.

Yes,
You will drown in the midst of darkness,
But you will also live in the midst of light.
Even for a few seconds.

Find and remember that few seconds,
And always remember to live for yourself.

Because,
It's your life you live,
Not theirs.

That's why it's okay if no one understands.

You once told me I wasn't good enough,
And so I worked hard,
To reach your expectations.

When I finally show you results,
You said I do not need to give it to you.
And so you rejected it,
Shyly.
Even though I insist in the end.

I am confused.

When I failed to give you a result,
You start complaining,
And seem to forgot the fact that I always give it to you when I received it.

I am confused.

And never know what works for you anymore.

I know,
That you hated to do house chores,
That you hated because you think that you are the only one did all of it.
I know,
That you complaint about me to mum,
Saying that all these should have been my duties instead of yours,
Because the door was open when you said that,
And you hurt me.
But I forgive you.

I know,
That you want attention,
That all those words you spoke are just for attention,
And no matter how much it hurts me,
I forgive you.

Dear brother,
Remember that I washed all your underwears and socks and clothes?
I scrubbed them without saying a word.
Remember that I give you the attention you needed,
Realizing how lonely and sad actually you were inside?
Did you remember?
That you hold a knife towards me,
Treatening me to death?
Or the time when I cried all because of you?

And now I have gone..
To a better place.
But I always want to say,
I love you and I forgive you.

Dear mother,
The greatest regret in my life is to not being able to be the daughter that you always imagine of.

And I am sorry.

Dear mother.