My friends below call to me
they tell me I have nothing to fear
With their eyes watching me I know it's true
Yet my fear of heights keep my feet tied to the plastic board
My friends again call and then one climbs out of the pool
He stands on the edge with me and smiles
With only a small glance, I'm ready now
And we dive in together

Does seeing our hourglasses change the way you see me?
Would we waste time watching each grain fall instead of spending time doing what we love?
All the hours we could instead spend running or watching the stars above?

Does the difference in grains of sand between our glasses keep you from feeling happy? Like those few grains left for you would be different alone
All those hours together we would spend building our home

Would seeing our hourglasses change our life quality?
Living up every moment knowing it was only so long
Would we crash and burn knowing when those grains of sand would be completely gone?

Would you let our hourglasses tell us what we could be?
Or would we fight against the clock and try to break free?

I thought about you yesterday,
At first it was a joking remark about a time long past,
But as I spoke I remembered the hardship you are facing,
All I can say is that I pity you,
I know you hate the pity,
I know you hate the hands trying to reach out to help,
I know where you keep those pills just in case you push past your limit,
I know how you hide in your room pretending to be asleep when really you're crying under the comfort of blankets where no one can see you're vulnerable,
I know this because I am you,
Or so I was,
Accept the pity, grab their hand, throw away the pills, cry on someone's shoulder instead,
Because I promise
It will get better,
I know this because I am you,
And we are stronger now

Those moments in life that are too good to be true
Like the moment you say the words "I have feelings for you"
If I could press pause on my life then and laugh at the view
As I stood frozen, thinking, what was I to do?
I didn't know what exactly you wanted to pursue
Should we put it at all risk and try something new?
From that moment our feelings really grew
Until I was able to say it, "I love you too"

I don't feel funny or kind or smart
I'm not worth your time
You say it a million times but I don't feel it
I feel like a waste of energy
You say I'm worth the time
If you believe it, that's enough

Happiness and feelings,
I keep a closed door
If I don't let them in,
they can't hurt me anymore

To push away the love,
you keep away the hate,
I've built up these walls,
And sealed my fate,

Do I love you?
I will never know,
I hide from myself
and tell myself no,

If you feel the same way,
that will always be a mystery,
Because I'm too afraid,
and we already have a history,

I'm sorry I'm like this,
But I swear I'm happy now,
Even if I'm hiding and I know that I miss
The feelings I once had, though it doesn't matter how,

One day I'll move on
And be able to face the dawn

Every day there is that small part of me that falls more in love with you,
This de minimus amount begins to become something new,
When do all these nothings add up to be something huge?
This amount so small, statistics doesn't know exactly what to do.

At the same time, when is all the fear gone?
This de minimus amount of the past that clings on,
Even though I've moved past it all for some reason I'm still withdrawn,
That de minimus amount to which I am still just a pawn.