one day i'll wed you
said the child to the girl much older than him.

echoes of her laughter rippled the winds
planting a rose on the child's cheek.

the child said knowing nothing about wedding
and nearly nothing about her
except

she filled him with a vague feeling
that made him wait to see her
when she was not around.

she was lost many decades ago
and the child moved far away
from that wedding vow.

the news came through the wind
she had died of cancer
somewhere far from homeland.

the child still dreams
her laughter rippling the winds
echoing by the lake

remembers his wedding vow
on that summer noon
still knowing nearly nothing about her.

blinding madness
while drowning in sadness
I'm confused and angry
bruising with self-hate

knowing you love me
but the waves stay above me
gasping for air shouldn't shame me
I just want someone to relate

The logic gets twisted
just to be right
instead of sharing compassion
we digress into a fight

The one I trust most
can't hold my heart with care
slowly becoming a ghost
with a distant stare

I regressed to fragility
shards of my heart scratching my eyes
wondering if this love
will be the end of our lives
082415~8.02a

hope
like the red sun rising
through burning forests
is beautiful and terrifying
Labored breaths,
as though smoke-filled,
burn as they are drawn in
reluctantly
in need of life, like me
Aching from self-abuse
and misuse, yet
my heart hurts more
Hoping that after the fire,
like a Jack Pine,
I'll become something new
Rather than a phoenix,
rising again only to burn
082615~8.08a

A muted silent melody
A vacant chained cage
The loveless awaits a remedy
With muted silent rage

It wanders around an essence
Clings to broken loveless pleasures
In hope one accepts its presence
It wanders still a muted treasure

A loveless soul dances to a blank tune
Looking for loves elixir, its eyes catch a mind
With steps of silence under a muted moon
Once loveless, this soul dances for love it finds.