Rest your head
in between the legs that fed you
when you were hungry
Let me be your home

I know that he's hungry
for the missing crumbs
that had fallen from your lips
when you had tried to
c o n s u m e
me.
But what do I have left?
Just an empty cracked dish
from your mother's china cabinet.

all my life
i've watched many leave me
my first love
my father
the guy who i thought
was the love of my life
what is it about me that is so
unlovable
why am i so easily
forgotten
do you think they will finally miss me
when i am gone

it's not that nobody loved me
my mom always stuck around
when my life would spiral into addiction
she loved me unconditionally
when my father abandoned me
i have the best family i could ask for
my brothers, my sisters, my friends
they all love me
they've given me the best life they could
but why is that not enough for me?
i can't bring myself to put in the same effort
it's almost like my life is on repeat
every. single. day.
i am so tired of fighting my demons
i am ready to let them win
and drag my soul to hell

i know you are right for me
i feel it deep within my soul
all it takes is your voice
to bring me back up to earth
from the hell within my mind

looking up at the stars
admiring their ethereal beauty
wondering how i got here
i feel so empty
lonely
and lost
take me away
put me up in the sky
to live with the stars
admired from afar
so i don't have to feel this way anymore

"**** it"
no
I refuted

I said,
"Bless it"

The world is enough a hell to be ******
Why curse it further?

She didn't
understand
the weight she carried
in her heavy
heart,
until the moment
she felt the freedom
rush in,
and fill her tar black lungs
with life.