Torin: Poems

Torin Dec 2015

I'll write one thousand bad poems
If that is what it takes to write a good one
I'll have a thousand bad loves
For the same reason

Only

Torin Aug 2016

Only

Only
        The                        Dreams
   Hands                                 Heart                                      Mind
                     We                                          Hold
   And
Only                     Only                                                     Only              Only
   Nothing More

I dreamed I smiled
And brought life to broken gardens
Only a dream
Nothing more

Only hope

Torin Feb 2017

Only hope

Fingers dripping feeling from the ceiling
Hands from above rip me open
Sentry men all directions
And how I know it's no war to be won

Only hope may keep me alive

I only live in the spaces
Echoes deep resounding empty chambers
And I have found the loss of light
Been victim of ceaseless night

I would pray
But you don't hear me
I would stay as strong I can to keep you near me
I might fumble through the darkness
With broken branches all directions
Somehow I know

Only hope may keep me alive

And now the world is finding new seams which to tear from
It's cold as it is dark inside abandon
And faithless find the bottom is unending
And what is there to fill this empty chasm?

Only hope
Only hope may keep me alive

only love

Torin Jul 2016

only love

I know you have been hurt before
And every trust becomes the blood
We won't see moons when we close our eyes
We won't see stars in our scars
And we may breathe
Still the air wont taste so sweet
Like a house falling into the sea
Like the pain can't be relieved
I know you have been hurt before
And hands could never heal you
And life teaches that we should be numb
With only one way that I can feel
Only love

only the end

Torin Dec 2016

only the end

How deep is your world?
Mazes etched into hopeless surface
When we can never get up
Lakes of fire
Souls ensnared still screaming
We can never give up
The sound of the end is beautiful
But its only the end
Its only a sound

I do have hope
I just don't know for what

Only the end
Makes us look at the beginning
As the subtle yellow light
That kills the shadow
When we never could believe
The way the promises were broken
Because everything will grow
And nothing really dies

The sound of the end is music
The most glorious symphony
The most heartbreaking tones
Tragic and beautiful
And when the song ends
Its only the end

I do have hope
I'll never know why

only whats mine

Torin Feb 2016

only whats mine

I don't ask for much
Only the world
I don't dream of much
Only the girl
Who made me feel alive
Who made me want to die
I don't ask for much
Only what's mine

And time is time
In time we see
And truth is truth
In time we'll believe

I don't beg or plead
I simply ask
I won't fall to my knees
Unless I believe
My prayers can be answered
My dreams that come true
I don't ask for much
Only what's mine

And time is time
Unstoppable
And truth is nothing
Impossible

Only Yours

Torin Apr 2016

Only Yours

I would've given up
A long time ago
**** it
I should give up now
But I can't
Its only because my empty hands
Hold a heart
And if I'm buried
I'm taking it with me
It's mine
As mine has always been
       Only yours......
I should've given up
A long time ago
I know
I could give up now
But I won't
Its only because I still have love to give
You as well
And if I get lost in darkness
Your light will fade
Its true
As truth has always been
Only yours
•••••••••••••√√√√√√√√√√••••••••••••••
I'll be your eyes to help you see
You'll be my heart to help me bleed
I'll be your shadow
You'll be my ghost
We'll share a body
~~~~~••••••••••~~~~~
We'll share a love
We'll share a house
We'll share the stars
That we're made from
                                I could be strong
                                    Without you
                                    But I'd never
                                   Be strong
                                    Enough
++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
I was born
To love you
Its written in the stars
You were made
To love me
Its written on your heart

Four seperate poems
Combined and taken whole
I know I'm drunk, but this makes my ***** tingle

on the side of angels

Torin Jan 2019

on the side of angels

we go so deep
to find its written in the stars
and in the streets teeming with life
and the walls are painted red
in this holy experience
we find concrete covered miles
where we once found fruit
and the sound would ring so clearly
we always sang a song
I sat and listened
to what now is just a story
and on this pavement where we live our lives
these memories make me cry

just concrete
stretching and growing
spinning webs as veins
and parking lots
and highways
I chance to discover
this lovely growing flower
beautiful mind
sweet head
honeyed skin
seraphic mouth
wings

and worlds aren't impossible
because I can hear music again
the changing lines
the forest
where fairies once again existed
and smiled upon this blessing
this glorious creation

beautiful mind
sweet head
honeyed skin
seraphic mouth
wings

origami

Torin Apr 2016

origami

At the age of twenty one I was folding
I had no plans
And my dreams
Caused me pain
And how many times before
I bend and never break
Never with a plan

I built for myself
A way to escape
Origami wings
Beautiful
And useless

I couldn't play the cards I was dealt
I was folding
Under stress
And hands of strangers
And all my many folds
Create something meaningful
I've become a paper crane

Folding chairs
And folding tables
Origami wings
Beautiful
But useless

Or Worse

Torin Oct 2016

Or Worse

We know the way a mind works
This is the ultimate weapon
We keep piling the hours on
Your head doesn't move

I would that my heart were pure
But my darkness is growing
And hunger must be sated
Anyways, in all the ways

I know that my aims are true
For better
Or worse

We know the way of the gloom
This is our ultimate weapon
And whatever we feed you eat
Stone, stick and poison in the blood

Bones, rotten by our own attrition

I wish that my heart was pure
But, alas, it is not
So all I can really do
Is work for the betterment of my own lot

Be sure that my aims are true
Selfish desires
Or worse

Bones rotten by our own attrition

our choice

Torin Dec 2015

our choice

Heaven
Heaven
Heaven
Expand and prosper
Let the peace consume you

Hell is a place to live also

our fallen comrade

Torin Apr 2016

our fallen comrade

He was a warrior
As were the rest
But of his skill with swords
He beat the best
And he would gladly charge into battle anytime
For the glory
Of the kingdom,
He was a friend of mine
And always he shall be
Even though his words have gone
He still fights beside me
Because this fallen Knight is a legend
To be told of
Again and again,
He was a fighter
And a lover
A soldier
And a brother
Who stared at enemy lines outnumbered
And held his sword
Up high

He vowed to me
The king
That he would fight by my side
Eternally

Let us not forget him
Let us celebrate his name

#sirsn

Our Glorious Path

Torin Jul 2016

Our Glorious Path

Our glorious path
Before us like chrysanthemums spread
Where each day is a sunrise
And each step
A bright tomorrow
I only want to hear the voice
As it sings
Before me a beautiful song
Where each note
Denotes a heavenly truth
Becoming a worldly proof
All I need to believe in
All I need
The belief
Our glorious path
Shines a gold sun into the darkness
Where each hope is a becoming
And each dream
Becomes of you
All I need to believe in
All I need
All that is forever
All I need
The belief

our meaning/our value

Torin Apr 2016

our meaning/our value

Our meaning is written in our blood
Its the patterns of the universe
The stories of the stars
Reverberating in our being
The truth evident in nature
Its cosmic dust
That becomes us
And we
Becoming cosmic dust

We may only perceive
Of the world we see
But we will lose the deeper meaning

Our value is our ability to think and dream and love
Its the emptiness where we find light
The story of time
Repeating in different forms
The truth evident in feelings
Its only spirit
That inhabits body
And body
Becoming cosmic spirit

These stars in our heart
Are the stars in the sky
And the stars you see in my eyes

our silence

Torin Jul 2016

our silence

I understand her beautifully
And I understand her tragedy
In a world that can't be saved
I'm saving her
As she's saving me,

And even her silence
Speaks everything
And even my silence
Says more

I'm afraid
That I don't need her skin
That I may breathe without her breath
I'm afraid
I don't need her love
When she's all I ever need

She understands me cosmically
She reads all of my stars
In a world that's only death
We live together
Or not,

And even her silence
Screams at me
And my silence
Is a pleading voice

outer space

Torin Nov 2015

outer space

I wish I was astronaut
My rocket ship to take me to the stars
I feel the turbulence of the take off
Knowing that the turbulence is me
And my rocket disappears
And I am left
In zero gravity
Alone in outer space

Philosophical musing

#self #stars #space #austronaut

out of control

Torin Mar 2016

out of control

I don't know
Just when it got so dark
The night so cold
And I can't see the stars
I can't believe
The man that I became
Blood on my hands
I'm the one to blame

I've been a man lost and hurt
Trying but tired

Out of control

Outrage

Torin Nov 2019

Outrage

Like a tidal wave coming over the shore
Swallowing the moon
And all I’m sure
Come too soon
Once bright citrus groves
Dulled now by hue of anger
Raging swirling water
The life promising bringer of destruction
The parking lot is flooded over
The elevator won’t leave the bottom floor
Stands the innocent accused
The madness of the mobs

And point your finger
If you’re needing someone to blame
In cycles of the strange
The seasons still will change
And comes the winds
And brings the rain
Will you be left out from the storm then
Riding high and mighty on arrogance?

Voices will shout
As this madness grows louder
Voices will shout you down
And voices gone silent
Do we look at the sorrow we now breed
The sewing of the seed of undoing
And all I’m sure
Come too soon
Dissidents snd dissonance
The division, the distrust
And all chaotic matter
Once was order

And point your finger

outside of time

Torin Mar 2016

outside of time

I stand outside of time
My fear of ticking clocks
Remind me of incessant need
Like delicate fingers
My cherub
Holds me

I stand behind the time
Watching it go by
Reminiscent of an angry river
Which won't stop
Until it meets the sea
I'm standing on a shore

I stand outside of time
My fear of grandfather clocks
Striking the hour
Like vengeful hammers
And telling only
More time is gone

I stand alone
And deny the time
And its gravity
I cannot think
Not yet beyond this illusion
I stand outside of

over load

Torin Dec 2015

over load

I know I have a source of strength
An orbit around the sun
A sum greater than the parts
An inner wisdom

But my feelings are still there
Not some screen in a theater
And the actors exit stage right
I'm left alone in the spotlight

Because even if I'm not there
Rivers run their due course
The sun still sets in the west
Stars still take its place

But my mind is an open ocean
A dark and tepid pool
Mixing feelings of forgiveness
With rushing waters of emotions

And all at once
It just too much

over population

Torin Dec 2015

over population

Just imagine

If instead of gasoline
We had cars that ran on batteries
Or steam
From water that is free

And those skyscrapers
In your local city center

Instead of banks focused solely
On making money
Were eighty story greenhouses
We'd never go hungry

                          I have a friend
                          Afraid of overpopulation
                          How can I explain?
                          Man can do anything

And instead of coal
And dinosaur bones
We discover potential
Of unlimited energy

I know we can
If we don't worry about the profit involved

Owl(questions to the night)

Torin Nov 2015

Owl(questions to the night)

This weight still hasn't lifted,
But I feel better now,
Because I know how the owl,
Is asking questions to the night,
And in that dismal starry darkness,
He gets no answers,

But he can still fly

Pablo Neruda

Torin Nov 2015

Pablo Neruda

What if I took some words
From Pablo Neruda
Copy and paste
The most beautiful of sentiments
What if I took his words
And said they were mine

And you didn't know who he was
And you didn't known who I am
Would his acclaim
Go unnoticed

Would if I felt the same
As Pablo Neruda
And my imagination saw a rose grow
From a young woman's hands
And through her lips
I could hear it blooming

But you don't know who he is
You don't know who I am
If I used his words
You would think me just a fool

And not a poet laureate
Not a Nobel prize award
Not a voice throughout the ages
Just a young man

Wasting his time......

#realism #abstract #modernism

Pagliacci

Torin Dec 2015

Pagliacci

Laughing and loving
Pain grows deep in my heart
But I seem happy

#haiku

Pagliacci ( nothing sadder than a clown)

Torin Jan 2017

Pagliacci ( nothing sadder than a clown)

Entertain the masses
The *****
The coliseum of the gladiators
I only want to make you laugh
I only want to cry
This face to the world
This face too

Nothing
I'll have nothing and I'll smile
And dance and joke
And act a fool
A jester in the court of kings

Out on stage I make the day
In my dressing room
I cry

part of a star

Torin May 2016

part of a star

I know you are not perfect
But still
The most beautiful imperfection
Shines through your hair
And your feet
And the body in between

You are a part of a star
With me

Pastor Troy

Torin Apr 2016

Pastor Troy

He was my guide
My teacher
And all the lessons lost
Then learned again
This world has a way
Of laying you flat on your back
We have a way
Of lifting our legs in the air

When we are the ones should be doing the *******

He was a shaman
A ghetto Hammurabi
And when the night is too dark
And the truth too stark
And I don't want to play my part
I heed his words
His wisdom

I remember what he said
"**** this ****,
I need some chees"
How very profound

My ***** **** what you say, ain't no more play in GA

peace

Torin Apr 2016

peace

I only look for peace
Or at least a little relief
While I write love letters to ghost
And kick a can down the street
I only look
For what can't be found
I say to much
Because I fear the silence
The magic is penniless
The logic is cruel and unkind
The tragedy unfolds
And I play my part
I only look for peace
But I'm on fire
And I like it
And you fuel it
If you want to watch me burn
You can
I'm sure I'll be nothing but ash
In the morning

And then I'll have my peace
I'll be the ghost to reach you
A haunting bitter truth
You'll never forget

peace

Torin Nov 2015

peace

I wish I carried peace around
Not a piece
But sometimes I feel
I need the fire power

#peace #guns

peace

Torin Mar 2016

peace

And just once
To see the light through the leaves
My holy sabbatical
My rest and relief
And forever
I make a family
From the trees in the forest
The petals of lotus
I give my all
My effort adjunct
To the beauty of nature
My mind enmeshed with the world in flux
I only want to find the meaning
Give it reason
Find my heaven
In this physical hell
Just once
To feel what it is to be at peace
Go inside myself
And find you there

Give yourself to me
I'll take only what I need

pedundum

Torin Feb 2016

pedundum

I see it all
A world as it was meant to be
Maybe not forever
But right now
My hands
Her body
The best way to feel
I won't turn off the lights

I see it all
I want to see it all
She feels it all
Its heaven
Its everything that it should be
It's all my dreams

people can change

Torin Dec 2015

people can change

"People don't change"
She says to me
My ears burning
My girl turning

People don't change
It's universally untrue
People change all the time
"Well you sure have"

People change all the time
But the sad truth is
People change all the time
But usually for the worse

"Well you sure have"
I say to her
And your our not the same girl
I fell in love with

perfect

Torin Jul 2016

perfect

I open windows
And close the door
I send my eyes up
Fold my hands
And
And
And
It only goes to show
I miss the feeling you haven't given me
When I wanted to be
When I wasn't
And
I could never be happy
Unless I'm not perfect

Persimmon

Torin Apr 2016

Persimmon

I sit
Under a very old tree
In a new world
I've had my grapes
Turned into wine
I've had my fill
I sit
In the shaded grove
Of the persimmon tree
And I eat
The fruit of the gods
Zeus's wheat

perspicacity

Torin Mar 2016

perspicacity

My main memory remaining of you
Was the time I said "perspicacity"
And you told me it wasn't a word
I guess your just not aware
Of what it means
Or how you lack it

I held to my point
And even tried to make a bet
Five dollars
She promptly looked it up

She was unhappy when she told me I was right

True story I always thought was funny

Peyton Manning

Torin Mar 2016

Peyton Manning

"God bless football"
???????
No

No no no no no

God doesn't bless football

Its just another means conceived by the devil
To divide the people

Cam newton should have won
But what makes more money
And money is the cause of all evil
And evil is the playground of the devil

"God bless football"

******* Peyton manning

Go sexually assault another female trainer

Phantom Limb

Torin Feb 2016

Phantom Limb

Sort of like a phantom limb
I can feel her
Even though I know she's gone

Sort of like the summer wind

Sort of like an old best friend
I haven't seen
In way too long

She's sort of like a phantom limb
The pain of loss
I deal with again and again

The pain of loss
Knowing I can never win

philosopher

Torin Jul 2016

philosopher

To be a philosopher
Is to walk down a dark road
As are the guiding principles of life
Hatred
Greed
Selfishness
Intolerance
A fear of what cannot be understood
When no one understands love

We are a people on the brink
Staring squarely with every pair of eyes
At the end
That we don't know
That we create

Every pair of eyes
Blind to the symbols
These turtles, fish and golden robes
Muddied by the river
Blind to the symbols
Every pair of eyes
Watching our own demise

The bear rises from they east

I know just what it means

To be a philosopher
Is a soul killing experiment
And a lesson of the crooked ways even the innocent live

Plato tried to teach the youth
The truth
And was murdered
Today
The radio
Is evil

To be a philosopher
Is a life ending experience
And the only way to ever save a soul

I'm sure most can never understand this message, and THAT is the problem

Phoenix

Torin Nov 2015

Phoenix

I died again today
I can't be the same as I was
If I'm to continue on
I'll be something different

A phoenix rising from ashes
Releasing my desires
My hopes and dreams
My primal fears

I died again today
With my selfish hopes
Becoming selfish fears
Coming true

A phoenix rising from the ashes
And from destruction
Something beautiful is born
I live again

Phoenix

Torin Feb 2016

Phoenix

I have died
A Phoenix burning brightly
I have burned to rise from ashes
I will be again

Still when I am reborn
It will be as something better

phonies(to catch a mockingbird)

Torin Feb 2016

phonies(to catch a mockingbird)

How can someone be fake
At least in my own mind
Being anything less than real
Is impossible

Knowing this much about myself
Makes it impossible to forgive someone else
For pretending
For being a phony

Picasso

Torin Mar 2016

Picasso

I see the world
So differently
I tried to paint a Picasso
And it ended up looking like a Rembrandt

The more distorted I try to paint reality

piece

Torin Dec 2015

piece

We all want a piece
A piece of this
A piece of that
Our piece of the pie
Straddled up with a jet pack
Its my piece of the sky
Trying for piece
Lying for piece
We'll all have a piece
Piece of cake
Spelling piece right
Brandishing pieces
For a chance at a piece
Fighting for piece
Dying for piece

And never finding inner harmony
I threw my piece away
And found my peace

pinback

Torin Dec 2015

pinback

My favorite band
Is a band no one knows
My girl sings a song
I hear, when no one else can

And all the notes
Are more than just noise
They become my symphony
Painting color to my life

And the key
Is all I ever want it to be

Invisible conductor
Imaginary stage
Auditorium is empty
Silent composition

And I listen to my favorite song
By a band unknown
I hear my girls laughter
And know that its my own

And the key
Is all I ever want it to be

pirate

Torin Feb 2016

pirate

A knife and a treasure chest
Some great bird of the tropics
Where the man became an island
Well, well, the whale is beached
The ship is stranded on the reef
And the waters only recede
It's a last resort

I don't want to steal
But I'm happy having fun
And dying young
My piracy not confined to digital music
Its more or less defined
By blunderbuss and sea shanties
As being an outlaw
Or at last as being misunderstood

Walking the plank
Jumping into shark infested waters
Swimming with all my strength
So I can die marooned and alone

Just me, my gold, and my guns
And my ***
And my contempt

pitfall

Torin Nov 2015

pitfall

Lost in the peril of defile
Repeating chasms
Double pitfall
Water over water

She has lost her proper way
Hence there will be evil
She is searching in the dark
Her situation hopeless

Lost in abyss upon abyss
The depths of a pit
Double danger
Water over water

She is now accustomed to the evil
So she no longer fights it
To enter a cavern within a labyrinth
Is to make things hopelessly worse

having once strayed into the labyrinth of evils, the wretched soul finds no way out
-Naassene Psalm

planetas

Torin Jan 2016

planetas

Como se van
Las planetas in espacio
Profundo
Oscuro
Con alas de angeles
Volando
Con todo la fuerza que tienen
Todo, hasta no hay más
Como se van
En el magnitud de la gravedad
Del Sol

El mismo Sol que da la luz
Da la vida

Las planetas comprendan

planets

Torin Jan 2016

planets

How do they move?
The planets in outer space
Deep
Dark
With the wings of angels
Flying
With all the strength they have
Everything, until there is nothing else
How do they move?
In the magnitude of the gravity
Of the sun

The same sun that gives light
Gives life

And the planets understand

Plastic Halo

Torin Apr 2016

Plastic Halo

How did you fly to me?
Did you ride a rain cloud?
Or did you float on rivers of tears
Just to cross the distance?

Femme fatale
Lost angel
Featherless wings
And plastic halo

How did you reach me?
I was sitting in silent cities
Watching the rivers rise
When you arrived

I was only waiting on the flood
Waiting on the blood
Waiting on the end
When I found you

Gloria
With plastic halo
Gloria
Victoria

platform

Torin Nov 2015

platform

My god! Do I have too much to say
Give me a platform and I speak all day
As much about the world and its cycling trivialities,
As it is about me, and this pain that I feel