The road less trAveled is the one unspoken toll of a madman searching for his soul

The things  that follow me pushes away my friends  so I will always be alone in the end. Those eyes .... I tip my head to the sky my knees to the ground I pray to you but nothing ...not a sound. Only the sound of the laughs and scraps on the walls, the popping floors, the slamming doors, I pretend I'm just crazy that I just need meds it's to the point I can't have a elevated bed, it shakes , I think it's me dreaming I wake up screaming but through the years the memories i have surpressed come back to me it's been following me since I was old enough to speak I would tell them my friends in the walls don't like me , those **** dolls would walk around the house while I'm frozen cold as ice house I wish I had one friend that wouldn't be afraid to help me battle this demonic desiese but no I'm alone for him to do as he pleases the smile he gives those blue eyes makes me feel like a child ...if you think this just a story come hang out for a while ..

My body feels empty , I can't feel, after it all my heart surprises me, sometimes....it begins to pound it ...pounds but what is it I feel , I can never begin to believe love is truley real. I view love as a weakness for as long as I don't love my shield is up right? Regardless my shield will have its cracks for the ones that made it exsistant I thought I hade it right .... guess I missed it.... the thumping that sometimes beats in my chest creates hate I see the words flash ....mistake... waste.... run.. heartbreak....fake...your love trial is done..

Was it dark in there in the trench from wich you came

Was it hard to step outside and feel the rain

Did the empty shells trip you as you stumble to your feet

Thousands of bodies innocent bodies
Fill the street

Like a **** growing threw the concreate, you stand tall

For a nation that rises just to fall

The lies ......

The lies flood the street like the aftermath of a natural disaster

Im not a christian

I haveo master

You call this the land of the free

Where is the freedom

Where is the dream

Where are the answers

Open your eyes

Your enemies claim to be on your team

You killed me

You loved me

You betrayed me

You changed me

You stressed me

You laughed at my cries

You mocked me with humble words

You burned me with your cold kiss

If you where to ever try to do any of these things that just scratch the surface i would whip it out and say **** on this lol

Every time i hear the word soulmate i hear her name every time the wind whistles in my face it reminds me of the way her hair melted across my cheeks i clutch my eyes shut thinking im dreaming to open and see its a dream come true, her love makes me forget how it feels to want my life to be through forget how it feels to feel alone even now she is away i still feel her i still smell her i still crave her the way she makes me feel beats any drug i dont want anything but her love