How many lies have I told you?
Just to say I’m fine
How many reasons have I thought of?
Just so I could say I’m okay

Because to tell the truth
I’m not, not really
I’ve been hiding so far up
Behind my own misery

It’s easier to face no fear
To hide the tears
Be at the rear
For my temporary peace

I feel free
Between a cage
Where there’s no place else
But a sanctuary made of firm grills

I feel free
To suppress my wings
In my pre-made nest
Of no possibilities

I feel free
Or at least I try to feel free
Maybe of the world
‘Cause I’m afraid it’ll hurt me

Every waking moment
My tears are falling
My fears are calling
My soul is crumbling

Away, it is my first thought
Out the door I best bolt
To keep my distance from my fall
It’s certain, said by the painful thorn

Fingers crossed, I can’t be lost
Again, it would be worse
Drown in water I called to rescue
But here it is sinking me deeper in a loop

The debt of the past
has been paid
I think

I no longer want to think of
what would last
I think

Because time is a lie
Sold to enslave
I think

Ah, to be mind free
Is to no longer seek
I think

Don't mistake me for love
If I give you tingles in your heart
I am not the one you want
Save yourself from this harm

To see me in your dreams
It is not a sign
Give yourself a chance
To refresh your mind

There is danger in fascination
For people with no caution
So save yourself from the pain
Think not just once to figure it out

Time is what you need
Like a dance, let it lead
Don't just hear but feel the beat
Then you would know what is within

Overthinking
Isn’t that what we all do?
Pretending
We’re okay but we don’t think so

Minds getting hazy
A little bit crazy
Should we ask maybes
Or should we just stop talking?

Funny
I’ve been having a lot of arguments
In my head
I don’t know whose currently winning

It’s lame
A big joke that we make
We act we’re okay
But inside our soul is dead

How?
Do we really heal or do we conceal?
Does time really heal or we get better at faking?
Are we really here or were just asleep dreaming?

So many thoughts
has been suppressed
In fear of people
Who often misunderstood

Most of the times
Feeling like a hypocrite
For trying to understand
What’s behind of a facade

What is on the other side
What has been beyond the line
Without the intention to meddle
But always caught up in the middle

I neither want to live nor die
And I don't want to lie
That **** scares me out
Knowing that I should be feeling either one

Have you ever felt that you don't care?
Not about the others but yourself
It's like you're just letting the water flow
Not minding if it leads you to a bay or your downfall

I feel quiet a bit adventurous
But I know these are dangerous
One wrong step would destroy me
in absolute pieces that you cannot count it

If it happens, it's okay I guess
I guess I just had to deal with the consequences
But is there even anything to fear?
I didn't even chose to live nor die, I just choose neither.